Ray of light

Its sunday and my house today has transformed into somewhere totally peaceful somehow..lol

The boys are all out at brigade so its just me hubby (cooking bacon and eggs)mm and Lauren its lovely..

We've banned the TV today to try and get the kids into helping a bit more, Ive got music on in every room and the house feels so much more alive..

Its so strange but i woke up today feeling so good about everything, Ive been feeling a little down but its just vanished, I'm alert rearing to go and full of life..

Ive also just broke one of my biggest no gos..lol i ate streaky bacon without gagging, which has tickled my fella, hes right into cooking and is totally blessed, he cooks things i couldn't even imagine mixing and everything always turns out restaurant quality, so how lucky am i ..

Most people sit in fear or growing old, i cant wait to have a big kitchen with all that lovely food and entertain every night...we often sit and talk about it, that's the beauty of having so many kids, they may be messy at the moment but i cant wait to have them all up on a Sunday when they are older with their families and make a day of it with my fella in his element in that kitchen.. i never had that as a child so i guess its why i want it so much now....

Anyway i have to work today (again) but as the musics playing and the suns shining I'm totally happy, this should be the last really long day, as I'm nearly reaching that finishing line....

I'm glad Ive dug in, I'm feeling very pleased with myself today, and so relieved......

Nearly finished.........

Saturday

Its saturday......yipeeeeee

As usual ive been riding so I'm feeling happy, today i did my first low jump too..lol

It wasn't anything drastic, but to me it was a start, Ive been kept on Zorrel so its been going really well, this week i get an extra lesson too during the week to break the day up, so its something else for me to look forward to..

Ive finally started looking for riding gear for myself now,the prices of some of it is horrendous so I'm watching a few bits on eBay, Ive already got some jodhpurs on their way, but i need to get this hat I'm after, its far better than the army one I'm wearing at present and as i know im in this for the long run now, ill get myself some essentials..

I'm getting on really well with Sarah who runs the place and her daughter, and having a real giggle during the lesson, so they are coming to my unit this week to see what i do all week..lol

its 10 Min's up the road from the stables and i never realised..lol its that bad sense of direction thing i have...

Tonight we were invited to hit the city pubs and clubs with our friends,i really wanted to go but know i have to work :( i have a job that has to be done by Monday so although i would love a night out, in a week or so when the works done, ill happily take up their offer...

I can also go to the Birmingham NEC next sat/sun with them to a adult sex show (which sounds good fun) so Ive got another few hard days work left then I'm clear.. they have a rodeo penis there...and Ive got to have a go at that........hehe

I need to find an hour somehow , i need to wax my legs and sort myself out, even ill admit i look tired today...

The good news is my partners been such a gem,hes cooking for me and helping with the kids so its lifting the burden, although hes fell asleep for 3 nights on the trott on our sofa...hes got really important appointments lined up for Wednesday and Thursday so i need to make sure this is all done for then...

I got a letter yesterday about my son, they are testing him or dyspraxia and dyslexia next week so at last my little boy may finally get the help he needs, theres so many labels they put on kids nowadays hes had quite a few, but as we've got this far im sure whatevers round the corner well cope with just fine........

Anyway back to work time...

Have a great weekend everyone, its my turn next week..lol

Burning Candles

Ive finally got through all the images in the site, so at least the first part is done..I'm so pleased.. yipeeeeeee

Deep apologies for not posting..

By the time Ive finished its been about 2am every day and then Ive been back on here by 5.30 in the morning, I'm totally shattered and today its caught up with me..I'm feeling pretty crap and have a terrible migraine..

I wanted to get the photos sorted out and set myself deadlines that were impossible (that's what my fella said)(its a blonde thing, so ill do them regardless lol) Ive had had to push myself really hard, but at least i got them done.. lol so wasn't impossible was it ! hehe

The last five days have been a bit of a blur with cheese sandwiches, and no sleep ill admit ....ive also been making sure my fellas not feeling left out, by all this work ....and burning just about every candle i have..lol .....so today i feel like ive run out of wax........don't tell anyone will you..

My grandparents are coming to see me and I'm working from home so i have wonderful company with Sandra, I'm banned from the office as my headache is really taking its toll on my typing , so dosed up with nasty pills I'm now starting my next phase of plans..lol if i cant type ill make flash players... i am adamant that this will all be done and dusted so i can get some kind of life back, so its a worthwhile cause to throw away sanity for 2 weeks and dig deep..

you'll know when I'm finished as the blogging will start again........

God I'm starving today........

Overwork and Underwear

Its been a pretty calm day today...

Ive been riding as usual and really enjoyed the lesson, my confidence is growing week by week now, and ive been invited by Sarah who owns the stables to go and see her during the week for a coffee, we do get on really well and the girls who work there all talk to me, so i am going to take up her offer, she wants me to do a clothes party there as theres so many women who keep asking now, after she kindly passed out my cards, so it should be a good day..

Today the lesson was brilliant, im happily trotting and cantering along, although i am going to increase the lesson now to longer, as i dont want to get off, they do night hacks there and as im a lover of the night ive got to give that a go..lol

Today i havent worked i was tired last night and sat on here for hours, so today is my day of rest, i also get to cook something special tonight as me and my partner take turns on saturdays so im cooking a nice meal and watching a dvd...we dont do it very often so when we do it makes a change.... theres also a sexy woman in the film ive got...lol

Ive bought myself some really sexy underwear and am going to send the kids to bed with a video and sweets, so i can torment the hell out of my fella tonight.....

Well i havent been on that pole for weeks and i am really into excercising at the moment...lol so its not just physically it helps, it makes my mind come up with all sorts of good things to get me through those not so nice days of endless work...

Too much work makes me boring.... so as im working so hard i need to play even harder...

It feels lovely to shower put something really sexy on and enjoy being a woman, so thats exactly what im doing tonight..lol

Have a great night everyone......

spoil yourself and do something nice for you...

Female orgasms

This has been the topic of our office today...lol

It all started through reading Abbys blog last night (girlwithaonetrackmind)lol and its certainly made our conversation good today..

I couldnt believe that someone who you thought had experienced just about everything sexual there is to experience, hadnt ever had a female ejaculation... it made me giggle..

Women dont tend to say much about them to friends, so some take it, as we are all the same, its simply not true.....

Just like you guys are different us women are too...

Yes there are women that probably have never had an orgasm as they are the ones that make all the row faking them, but there are many forms for women...

Abby thought the wet ones were a mypth, where the women actually ejaculates fluid, but she had one herself and was shocked and slighly embarassed as she thought shed peed the bed..lol

Its not for all women as there is a border you have to cross to have an orgasm that strong, but if you learn to use your body in harmony with your mind, they are also the most erotic and powerful ones you will ever have..mmm lol

You can read abbys post here http://girlwithaonetrackmind.blobspot.com Monday, September 17, 2007 its called Patch .... (well titled isnt it)lol

Anyway if you read her comments youll see that its not as rare as you think... you just have to cross a boundary of feeling that you need a wee.... go past that and simply relax.....its then it happens...

Its a strange subject for women to talk about, we talk about orgasms but its only just a ' god he made me orgasm over and over again ' lol but not once has any women ever asked me what type i have (except my sister) and we both have several types including the ones Abby experienced.... i used to think i wasnt normal when it first happened, but over the years i know its' not normal' as its much better than that ! normal is a feeling of ' loosing it' ,. this orgasm is ' lost it completely' and totally mind blowing all into one.... for both partners, it can even be that powerful that the man is pushed out during penetration ...

The partner then sees that hes able to have this wonderful effect on you and gets off on that fact in itself..lol

So now you all know, its not a mypth its real, women dont just have one type of orgasm they can have multiple kinds..

Now all you need to experience are the most erotic type but in multiples.... lol

Now theres something you dont get to feel everyday...........lol

peaceful

I feel so much better this morning, i was so tired last night and it got the better of me..lol

Ive done a bit more so am getting there, today i have photos to slot in also so im painting nails while i get the kids breakfast..lol

I did get a phone last night from a guy that makes jeans here in the uk, and he wants me to stock his lines in the shop.. i have to do the photos in the same manner as the last ones, but its nice to think he liked the images, i never sold jeans as i struggled to model them, ive had models work for me and we just couldnt get it right, so its a real breakthrough for me, and a lot easier now weve found a way, i know some women moan at having curves, but its really hard when you havent got any and i have to be a photographed coat hanger..lol

Anyway im cracking in today, im looking forward to the day and hope it brings good things..

Have a great day everyone, its nearly the weekend...

Wednesday

I think today realisation kicked in for me, to what i really have to do here..

The glitch in the images has now been found and i now have to work through the website one item at a time, putting back all the images one by one....

Its gonna be a long week.. but will be worth all the work i hope..

So ive sat down today wrote myself out a list of priorities of where to start and tonight im starting.. it feels better that way than looking at a mountain and not knowing where to start..

I was putting in the 4 images and the thumbnail was loading in lovely, with the other 3 photos, but when the customer viewed them from the front end, the main image dissapeared.... its been a real hair pulling out week.. but thankfully weve solved it, i do now have my enlarge tool back too, so thankfully people can now see the garments clearly, thats why i have to reload the pictures in , so everything opens up large, i sell on image and had to get it right.. noone realises how much work these sites are but i know im looking at a minimum of 2 weeks work on top of designing any new gear, adding all the new clothes in before any photos are done and keeping the orders packed and posted ..so i hope the kids are good for me and dont give me a hard time at home with it...lol

The good news is when its done it will look brilliant, and im really happy with how its going so far..

Im missing my friends today .. its probably as i know they are there and enjoying that lovely sunshine and we usually go away on holidays with them, so im using that as my goal so at least when they are back i am not gonna be bogged down with work constantly as i have been lately...i cant even get out to enjoy chant tonight, so im feeling a little sad...

Im always the first to say live life to its full, but i also appreciate that sometimes we have to just knuckle down and do our best, the sunshine will come later as they say....

Anyway ive ordered a take away tonight and am now going to carry on with with getting it done...

So if you want to see how its going the links in my favourites bar there ___>

Some of the images are not large yet and a few are not right, so please make allowances, its only just been rehosted...

Rollin my sleeves up

It wasnt the best start to the day, my daughter dropped my pot of caligraphy ink in our lounge, i didnt mind as accidents do happen but she didnt tell me and just sneaked off upstairs.. it was walked everywhere, so im covered in black ink but managed to get it off thankfully..

I had the inlaws round for the evening last night, and the house looked fine then, so god knows whats happened to it this morning...lol its called kids i think....

Lots have happened today in the website, im changing catergories and trying to make them look nicer, the glitch is still playing the images up but ive been told about an hour ago i can now load up, although i have come home early to sort the house out first, so its gonna be a long one today..lol i have a mountain to get through...........

I have now compiled a folder of the new stuff ive photoed so far and theres another 60 lines to load in before any more photos, and im only a 3 rd of the way through them, so i know i have to get my head down now and concentrate... trouble is im dragging my heels today and need to get motivated somehow ..lol

My friends leave for their holiday today, so along with my sister and grandparents who are halfway through theirs im wishing them all a wonderful time, and hope they leave a little sunshine behind for us here ... lol

well the kids are all now decending on me, so its must be that after school time again... you never know i may be able to rope them into helping if im quick enough....lol

Have a great night everyone......

Shine

Ive had one of the best nights out last night, that Ive ever had...

we went to our friends house to meet their families and celebrate Stevie's 21st birthday..

It was a hell of a night, they were all so lovely, the whole night was..

I got to meet the people that i hear so much about, and they were all everything i expected and more ..

Everyone was so lovely and i really felt privileged to be part of it all...

I had too many vodka's (and am paying for it a little this morning), so i did break a tradition of not singing on their karaoke machine and totally embarrassed myself, in the hope it would help the ones that can sing really well to get on there..lol after all if i had a go, they will all rush to get the microphone off me ..hehe

And it worked ! everyone was singing and dancing away having fun together ...

I met some beautiful people and really enjoyed my night with them...........

My friends are off on holiday Tuesday and I'm really going to miss them, and I'm so pleased i got to spend such a lovely night with them and their family before they went...

Everyone ended up in the jacuzzi towards the early hours, with one special man getting his first turn in it... his face was a picture and his smile said how much he was enjoying it ........bless

Sometimes its not just a father that brings strength to his son...... the son can also give the same gift back to his dad...... and last night showed that........

we had such a fantastic night with them all, its had me singing and smiling away today...

The highlight for me was listening to them all jam together, they are all so musically gifted and hearing them play, really made my night, i love music especially when it comes from the heart and last night really touched mine.......

Thank you for making me part of it..........

high Spirited

Its saturday....... ive been riding again with Lauren... its getting better....lol

Ive been driving my fella nuts talking non stop about how much i love riding, so he came with me to watch... im glad he did...

the last time he came i couldnt sit on the horse properly was scared of anything past walking and its nice that he finally got to see why i love it so much...

My daughter is getting less confident as the weeks go on, which is a shame as shes really good, but shes also scared of rise and trott and cantering, I worked the reverse, i was a bit scared at first but not now..

Im really enjoying the thrill of it all, so dont want to get off...

Zorrel is now my named horse which im really happy about, i love him and he always nuzzles into my boobs when i finish the lesson,(thats where i keep the polos..lol)

I must have impressed my partner anyway as hes going to buy me a hat and gloves now.. yipeeeee

I kitted my daughter out, but never sadly got round to getting myself anything..

Im posting todays photos, which my fella took, my hat as you can see is still the old army cast off (and i dont care) but as you can see what i lack in the hat department i make up for with the smile........

My daughters on Ebony the black pony.......

But today i was cantering round on my own, i didnt fall and it felt amazing, its like riding a wave and just came naturally.... and i havent stopped talking since..........lol

I hope you enjoy the pictures, theres no make up no frills and no decent hat....lol

The last photo i havent got a head either...lol (i dont think he likes the hat much) hehe

but as i dont really care what it looks like, im happy for you all to see me at my worse.......

.......... but totally feeling my best ........

Thanks to this beautiful creature ........

Thank you

This one tonight's a simple ' thank you ' its not a big word but it has big meanings...

This is to thank my closest friends who helped out yesterday and allowed us to do the photos at their house...

I'm a third of the way through photoing the dresses, but im getting there slowly...lol

Cooking cakes in between and quite happy tonight as i got done everything i wanted to...

so now its my time, time for a long hot soak, a large glass of brandy and enigma.......

sheer blonde bliss...... its been a good one today.....

tomorrow I'm taking the day off........ and enjoying the day.........

but as promised heres the certain photo ..... it wont make it to my website, but will make someone giggle.........

Enjoy..........lol

Thanks you guys......... you are both wonderful ....

On the Ball

I'm a bit tired today, it was a late night..and no brandy.........

I tried to get the jeans in but there is a small problem, so im working on that today... meanwhile ive got it all ready to roll so it was a good nights work...

I ended up going to bed with a head whirling round so went to sleep to a chill out album, which seemed to work thankfully...

Its been the usual manic start today, the kids all demanding mum do this and that, one needed packed lunch that i was told 2 Min's before he had to leave.. and my eldest is doing cooking today so was throwing fits round the kitchen as i giggled at him... lol ...

I made the mistake of bursting out laughing when he said he was cooking salad ! (hehe) it would be a bit limp ! so im back in that doghouse again.... and 'whatever' was the last word before he left.... which brings to mind Kevin & perry, my sons just like that.......lol

My daughter has gone to school with ready break in her hair and wont let me plait it, as they were arguing over who wanted their breakfast first as usual, and the box split..... so if you see 4 kids walking up te road looking like they've all got out of bed the wrong way.....yep they're mine..........lol

Im going in an hour behind Estelle today, im having a shower (cleaning up ready break) and something to eat, as we don't seem to be doing much of that lately and as i have a stomach ache from hell so eating may help.......

anyway no rest for the wicked and im defiantly that today according to my tribe...... strange thing is I'm really quite happy this morning, and am looking forward to the day.......

I did well last night so am pleased now that ive got a little in front, i may not be able to load at the moment but that's the easy part and according to my fella i can do that while he sleeps......lol

Have a great day everyone, England won (so im told) ..........lol

Balls

Its been a really long day today..

Ive finally found the glitch in the system that's making my photos go silly so can now at last start loading..

My fellas just arrived home from work to start the photos (or so i thought) for me now to get told hes watching football... i could really kill him sometimes..lol

Ive got ready and have been sitting here waiting with all the gear lined up so I'm not to impressed with the sudden interest in football...lol

The worse part is i really wanted to go out tonight, and couldn't, as i was asked to work tonight round the clock til i got it done......... it was to get me in front so i can relax a bit more and start having some time out... so I'm now working alone tonight and going hell for leather as I'm rather annoyed with it......lol

I'm gonna sit up all night and get the jeans and new stuff in, so when I'm asked next time i will already have my work done and ill return the favour......lol if he wants to photo ....I'm going out...hehe

well if footballs that important, I'm sure i can come up with something equally as good....

I'm told its cricket too starting next week, so i should be able to have plenty of time out......lol

Anyway i hope you all like the site, Ive done the front page now ....

Just how i wanted so just a few more hundred to go.......

Someone pass the brandy please...........

I could really do with chilling out tonight...........lol

Postcards

God the weather is so beautiful and I'm stuck working.............lol

Its been a bit manic today, last nights photos came out a bit too dark so i have to re due them again tomorrow, i think it may have had something to do with taking the kids with us to the unit..oops my fella was a bit stressed and wasn't as focused as he has been recently, hes now refusing to do anymore if the kids are with me.. oops again !

They were a bit hard work well 2 were, within five min's my daughter was bored and decided she would start sweeping up muck everywhere, so we had to stop and come home.....

So what was going to be a dinner out on the way home ended up as beans on toast instead..lol

Today has flown by, my sister and grandparents are having a great time on their holiday, so Ive been thinking about them on that beach all afternoon.... :)

Ive had my pep talk from my fella today...as every ones off or booking breaks, so hes tried to inspire me and tell me if i work hard enough and keep digging deep, next year i can go ... but doesn't next year seem a long way off sometimes.......... if i dig much deeper than i am, ill be in Australia anyway without needing the flight....lol

Anyway Ive listened, am happy and will of course keep smiling and wholeheartedly wish you all a very happy holiday if you are now setting out or planning yours...

P.S if you don't have enough luggage to fill up your case though (I'm only small) and will fit in nicely ....

Just need an hours notice so i can drop the kids at the local kennel first ........ lol

Girls Night Out

I dropped my workload last night thankfully and went out with my best friend for a girly night, just the two of us..

We've been promising to do it for ages and every time she asks me to go up, either i cant get a sitter or I'm swamped under with work, so i promised myself next time she asked i would drop the work and just go, so last night i did, my fella has kindly now offered to sit for me whenever i want to go out as i do need time away and I'm the one who usually covers for him...

So out i go with no handbag again and all my pockets filled up with my essentials..lol and had a totally brilliant night..

We spent an evening at her local pub, i was a bit worried that i wouldn't fit in at first as they know everyone there, and i didn't, but i worried for nothing as the people were great with me..

I was going to drink coke and drive home, but made the mistake of having one vodka, which is lethal for me as i then want another lol (im worse with brandy as i love that stuff even more) so decided id spend my first night away from home at her house on my own.......... so it was a first for me..

I had a great time, the locals were making me giggle all night with stories and i even got shown photos on some guys phone that would make your jaw drop... its my boots you see, they have a strange impression on people..lol but altogether it was a great night..

I met another guy last night who prides himself on his manhood and wanted to swing it about a bit in my friends direction ...lol, but she dealt with him the same way i would have done and wonderfully put him back down to earth, along with half the pub that joined up to make him feel a lot shorter than the 8 inches he claims he had ready and waiting..hehe

We finished the night off with drinks in their jacuzzi at home, joined also by the lord (as he'd just finished work) and we sat there til the early hours chatting and relaxing, i really couldn't have wished for a better night or better company.......they make me feel so comfortable with them.......

It may have been my first over night stay on my own .....

but i hope now, it certainly wont be my last........

Thank you so much, I really love you guys ........ xxx

Flying today

Wow ! what a morning........ Ive had the best time, ive been horseriding......

I was a bit nervous today as i had to miss last weeks lesson, but as soon as i saw my horse that rush came again... im being kept on Zorrel, the most elegant chestnut ive seen, hes beautiful...

So today i was in my element, theyve got me up to cantering now so the lessons are getting really good, i also did my first jump today (only a low one, but its a start) so i am buzzing inside..lol

It was eventful as my daughter came off twice during the lesson, and nearly made a hattrick but we shouted to keep her heels down and she managed to stay on, but at least she fell with style..lol it happens

I feel so much more comfortable on this horse, he responds so well to me now and at the end of the lesson we usually rise and trott round once before turning in and as i rode so beautifully today i got an extra time on my own, as she told me to keep going til my smile had had enough..lol so i kept riding......... i loved my kickboxing, but its not the same feeling i get when im riding, i finally think.........

ive found something thats meant for me.......

Right time to shower and get my bum into gear its time for photos.......

ive got the feeling they will turn out good today..........

God im flying today..............

Does Size Matter

Ive been reading Abby's blog tonight (girlwithaonetrackmind ) see link in my favourites..

And it was all about does size matter, for one guy in particular Lawrence Barraclough , he has done a rather good documentary on the size of his manhood and is asking you guys if you have problems like he used to have, with the sizes that you are... its a serious subject...........i didn't realise just how serious it was.......

I really felt for the guy as he didn't like what size penis he had, but as he has talked openly about it and been labelled brave by speaking about a subject that's normally taboo for you fellas, hes coming to terms with liking himself more..

why ? why don't you guys talk, it seems that the subjects way overdue...

Believe me guys, us woman do talk about our anatomies without having to feel that we are not normal , and it should be the same for you men... we are all different, that's what makes it interesting.. thank god we are ....... wouldn't it be boring if we weren't.......

Ive had different extremes with past partners, one guy who classed himself as well below average, and used to make a jokes about it.... But i can honestly say it didnt affect my enjoyment, and he was great ....so theres fors and againsts for both small and large built men, which Abby talks about in her blog, both of which i agree with completely..... especially the bit about giving a blow job, big is definitely not easy there ..lol

My current partner wouldn't let me anywhere near him with a measure..lol especially when hes excited, but id say hes nearer 8 (and hope he doesnt read this) but some positions i cant do without it being painful, ... so its just like they say, theres fors and againsts....

What i do think, is that society has put so many insecurities in both men and women, that we shouldn't want to be different to the average Joe........ well don't you want to be ? .......I do...lol

Average is just that, an average, nothing more nothing less, so sod the measurements, the average size today for a guy is supposed to be around 6 inches erect (Ive just read) so if you want to stand there with a tape measure and send me your measurements then that's fine.. lol

But regardless of your measurements, it wouldn't tell me that you were a good lover, or a bad one would it ? ............

so its not about how many inches you do or don't have, its how you use what you have ...

and i hope i speak for many women now........

some may be smaller to start with, but i also hope it helps your confidence, when i say regardless of their shape or size if we make you feel good enough..... they don't half grow on us.....

So enjoy what you have... and send me in all those unwanted tape measures, ill use them on materials and designing (as they should be), theres only one way to measure happiness...

on how big her smile is...... lol

http://www.mypenisandeveryoneelses.com/

Wish I Was There

Well the working weeks over for most of you... not for me though..lol

I'm happy to say the websites now safely across, so you can now see some of the changes, its a little mixed up bless (it was built by a blonde..lol) and I'm working on that this end, round the clock...

Ive got to re size all the thumbnails so they are bigger, which is better for the customers and once that's done i can then start to load all the new styles in.....yipeeee

Its been really hectic as people have been ringing through orders all day, and they can see images are not right in some areas, so I'm having to email pictures to customers, but that's my priority job and by Monday ill have that part done, please bear in mind i have hundreds to do though.... so be patient with me..lol

I had a terrible migraine last night that stopped me in my tracks, but went into work today as I'm the one that has to talk to the computer, so a little dizzy and very tired I'm slowly coming out the other end and will soon have it working to perfection, the hardest part thankfully is now complete so the work now is all good.........creative and to make it look pretty.....

Ive also got a weekend planned, of photoing all day and website changes all night.. so ive missed my invitation with my friends to go to ' The Ice Bar ' they are off tonight to drink vodka in a bar in London that's made completely of ice, but in my absence will take photos for me, so this one ill fill you all in with Monday, and tell you what they tell me..lol Ive promised ill go later if the experience is as good as they say....

they are also off to another place afterwards i would have loved to experienced lol, which just happens to have 120 naked girls that dance there! ...lol

I really wanted to go, but as the site came across last night and the database this lunchtime, i have no choice, but to get this done and get all the new gear photoed, so i hope all you guys have a good weekend for me.........you could have a vodka and orange juice too if you don't mind for me...lol

My sister and grandparents are on their way to their holiday in Turkey, and yes im stuck here as usual ....lol

but it is as they say, we all have to sacrifice things and then we enjoy it all the more when its our turn.... and its coming ...

So Ive wished them all bon voyage and will really miss them all.........

So tonight i have 120 naked women running through my head and visions of a beach in the sunset........... now that should make for some interesting dreams............lol

Ill let you know that one tomorrow.........hehe

Growing

Todays the day......... peace, serenity,no killing each other over breakfast...lol

My eldest has now left ( early, so hes keen)for his first day at high school.... he looks so grown up
The school has done it so all the new pupils spend the day together, he cant wait to get with all those girls ! eeeeeeeek god i can just imagine the fun im gonna have with 3 boys...lol

My daughter already has been sulking as her sweat shirt doesn't fit, its too big..lol but its also the smallest size they do, so i cant win there...

I slept for England last night, found my fella still asleep on the sofa this morning! but didn't mind as i got the whole bed, and after yesterdays first photo day i really ached.....

I decided to tackle the jeans first, as i have no waistline or hips they are a hard one to get right, so ive done it a bit differently...lol Im pleased that the customers can see the detailing enough and it made them easier for me to do.... thanks to Rob and his garden gifts... what a gem i still cant believe they gave me all those plants, so ive sent him home with some nice bits for his wife...

The websites coming on a treat, im hoping that it will be visual by friday so you can all see what works been done...

The unit it looking really good, its all been painted and where there was mud theres now beautifully clean stones and a wicker garden set so we can have our coke break in comfort....
I got through the jeans and bags yesterday so today I'm doing knitwear..

I got back last night to no Internet connection here again, so ended up pulling the boys wardrobes out and throwing anything away that doesn't fit , so one down 2 to go...lol
I'm finally getting this place into shape.........

New beginings

Ive had a really busy day today, thankfully the websites now going across tonight and we are slowly going through bit by bit , behind the scenes, to see what needs attention, i love this part as its been 18 months of non stop slog to get this site right, so today is a huge milestone , its been hard work but im really pleased with whats happening, i cant begin to say what hours we've put in from our end, but today's been a day of nervous energy praying it would go across smoothly and so far so good...i have a few images to sort out but thats a small price.... I cant wait til you guys can see it...

I have loads of lovely new things to load in and I'm sitting here not able to load anything until we know its right tomorrow, i had a lady phone this morning who i really enjoyed talking to and finished up taking an order that i couldn't believe and she found me through the work we've been doing, so it was a huge spirit lifter..

A few months ago i was contemplating quitting this game, its full of cut throat people who make out they are your friends, only to stab you the moment your back was turned, so it did make me wonder if the passion i had was going, but over the last couple of weeks its coming back with a vengeance, I'm really enjoying the new work and not crazed anymore by people that think i want to make up bespoke items for prices i cant buy materials for, let alone sew as well, and the websites restrored my faith that there are a lot of women out there that love the same style as i do, theres styles and materials coming through from Paris Italy and London now that i was making 10 months ago so i know i was made to do this job, but doing something i love, is also part of why i first started making clothes...

Today i did a new version of my slashed top, just to show those who undermine me, i wont quit and as much as they have to follow, i will always be one step ahead...

My skins a little thicker, but i wont change from being me, i still believe there is so much good out there, i was just a bit unlucky in trusting the wrong ones...

the first 27 patterns i ever put into a manufacturer got stolen and i went into the city to see my designs all hanging in shop windows including Jane Norman, and i went home in tears, but 6 years on I'm still somehow managing to keep going and i actually feel today its all been worthwhile....

I'm thankful for those who did stand by me and believed even last year i would hold up and keep going, and optimistic that good things are on their way, the kids are back to school tomorrow and Wednesday and finally i can stop halving myself , so I'm really looking forward to the week...

I was talking to the garden supply men today, (and the diet coke bloke lol) and asked them if they came up with anything on their journey, to help with a backdrop i have in my head, could they think of me, and this afternoon they did......

They turned up with enough flowers plants and planters to fill the place so ive been hosing and arranging them nearly all evening, til Ive finally created something that looks like my secret garden , i will still be out in those woods as that's where i love to be, but on those days when i freeze and drink brandy trying to keep warm, it is gonna be a godsend ...
So today has been unbelievably good........

my fella (who seems to have forgiven me thankfully ...lol) went out and kitted the last bits the kids needed to help out and tonight I'm now gonna grab a bath and bed, i don't want anything to spoil today as its gonna give me those happy thoughts ill need for the next few, when all that works got to be done... lol

but for today at least I'm one very happy and very thankful woman.......

School Holidays

Its Monday...lol the start of another busy week....

I have a mountain of things to get through in 2 days, ordered uniforms to collect for the triplets and my eldest has a list of odds and ends he needs, thankfully i did go and get everything he needs to wear, and thought i had the other 3 sorted out, until the school decided to change from a middle school to a Junior one...lol ......

Its been a really hard 6 weeks, I'm sure other mums will agree its far too long for a holiday the kids get bored and look on us as the entertainers, which is pretty hard when you have to work...

I look on it as Ive survived but there has been times when i could quite happily have pulled my hair out, one was a doddle, but with triplets on top it tends to make that see saw a bit uneven especially when they are nothing like each other..lol

Ive done the hair cuts (no not a basin job.. i am fully qualified to cut hair..lol) and must do a good job as i seem to have to cut every ones hair from around here, yet mine is a mess..lol

Ive got Julie leaving for holiday this week and a full stock room ready to list in a new website that happens today, so it should be an interesting week..lol

Im sad to say i had a huge row with my partner last night, we don't ever argue he seems to read me well and doesn't bring out my worst side, it was my smallest boy that started it off, hes been a real pain and started again last night, all i heard was screaming and thought my fella was killing him, instead of tucking him up so up i go in a rage catapult my partner across the room and grew my horns lol...oops I am pretty calm but when i lose it, i lose it with style..lol

What really happened was my eldest son took away Brandon's game boy, that id already confiscated, and the screaming was him throwing yet again another tantrum, my fella was trying to calm him down.. so im in the dog house today, but he did giggle the fact that i will stick up for my loved ones regardless, even when i don't for myself sometimes.......lol

so Ive got up and apologised at least a dozen times and hope if he reads this hell know i am really sorry for not reading the situation well enough, Brandon loves to put a gap in between us and up til now Ive never allowed it to happen, i honestly thought he had pushed my fella too far. he certainly does me most times....

I went to bed to have a letter left on my pillow from my eldest saying he doesn't want his mum and dad to split up, they have never seen us argue as we never do, so I'm putting last night down to me and will learn from that one..........

I'm going to work today, but my fella has taken a day off, to sit and talk to the kids together so they know every things OK, its not good for children to hear parents argue it really unsettles them, my last memories of my real father at home, were with my mum throwing a carving knife at him christmas morning.......... so if that's the only argument we have for another 10 years it would be one too many.......................

perhaps the holidays came to a head, and if any teachers are reading this please appreciate you wont get anyone much more patient than us two, so if you think you've had a hard 6 weeks marking books, don't tell me this morning, or you ll get a flea in your ear...........

I'm eating humble pie all day for meals sitting in the doghouse and will have a serious talk to my little boy tonight...

Roll on Wednesday....................

Jeans day

I overslept..lol that's a first for me, what happened to me getting up at 5am... i woke at 10 ..lol

I spent the evening with my kids , trying to teach them french and enjoying my fellas cooking, i have a speciality dish that i make here and he wanted to see if he could better it....cheeky git !

Well mark out of 10 id give it a 9 so it was really Good, but the kids said mine is still better !

That's cause i have a secret ingredient, and I'm not disclosing that not even to him...(well you have to keep some things secret )if they know everything about you the element of surprise goes out of the window, and I'm not blonde in many ways...lol

Yesterday i spent hours sorting the garden out, its my place where i go for my-time and as i have a lot coming up, starting tomorrow i am gonna need it, so its beautifully simple and a pleasure to sit in again thankfully..

I had a really strange dream last night, the new gear i got from Paris is my look, its stuff i would wear all the time but i was doing something really different with it, it went into graphic detail of what i wanted to do and Ive woke up today excited, so i may just try this one out... god i do have some strange dreams........good but strange..lol

The funniest part was when i opened my eyes this morning my fella was just sitting there watching me sleep.. lol he could have gone and made me some tea, now that would have been a better way to wake up (take the hint please)....hehe

Anyway i have to start as i mean to go on today............running !

Time for exercise, shower and kick my butt into gear......I'm late for the day....lol

Parisiene Drive bys

Were back....lol

From our usual 800 mile round trip..lol

Its been a really exciting but very hard few days, i didn't get to sleep in the car park this time, i actually had a really nice hotel, but i didn't get any sleep, full stop..lol

Paris was beautiful the sun was shining and the place was buzzing...

we've ended up finding a really nice place to chill out in between buying, the barman helps me with my french so I'm slowly getting there, but im not so sure about French food..lol

I was going to have a steak (til they told me it was raw and not cooked at all ! yuk) i watched one woman sit there and eat what looked like a live cow on a plate...moooo

We saw a lot more places this time, where the locals live our place was somewhere i think the tourists don't go, a mix of Brixston and the Bronx, but i really enjoyed being part of it and watching the gangs dance on the street corners, they seemed to be ok with us, but you have to keep your wits about you ...

The autumn winter range is now getting about so it was a really good journey, well the car was that full and this time it was heavy, so we got just enough... Ive fell in love with a jumper, and am allowed to keep it, i saw something out there i would have died to have, but wholesale it was 300 and i don't think theres enough places i would have been able to wear it and not be arrested for indecent exposure..lol

Everything was exactly as i thought so im still bang on with how i feel fashion will go, so the trip was a good one, although ive never walked so far in my life, i cant go horse riding either today as my feet are double their normal size, my fella thinks its funny as i again went in flip flops but my toes are huge and i cant put my feel down without making little whimpering noises..lol

My fellas still trying to get me to dress elegantly (not a chance there, i love flip flops too much) and has brought me a new handbag !( a posh one) lol so that will go upstairs with the other 20 collecting mothballs, why would i need a handbag when my combats have so many pockets in them...men are such strange things sometimes........lol

The highlights for me on this trip were one the french girl who came into our place dressed like a front page spread (gorgeous) me sitting in a beautiful park for a baguette in the sun (only to realise there was 2 large gangs either side taking a huge interest in us (or perhaps they liked my lunch!) lol

the funniest part was me falling asleep in the car on the way home and waking up in an empty car with my fella sitting in a police riot van opposite...lol his face was a picture, apparently he was going rather fast (I told you he likes to make my head wobble when i sleep in that car) ..hehe but they were great policeman, taught me a little more french charged us 45 euros cash and wished us bon voyage............they seemed to understand that when you drive through Paris if you do less than a 100 you are gonna get a car up your bumper beeping his horn at you, so could understand why hed got used to driving at that speed...hence i had to stay awake for the rest of the trip and keep him under check...lol

Did anyone notice that moon last night.... it followed me home, and was the most beautiful sight ive seen in years, my partner said it was putting him off driving, but ive never seen it that colour and so BIG...... i made hundreds of wishes on the way back, one that was to get me home safely, so i got my wish...

The thing that surprised me though was Diana ... we drive through that tunnel every time we go and its horrible, i can see why the accident happened, we've nearly come unstuck there too and not one bunch of flowers was laid a tribute................ so she makes the papers bless and every ones talking about it, but yet no one had enough decency to lay a tribute to her in that tunnel...........

Paris is exciting yes, but its also really really dangerous place to drive, that's the part they don't tell you in the papers..........

time for a bath, and see if i can get my feet back down to normal size...

Ive got a lot of unpacking to do today......

no rest for the wicked eh......lol