Tea break

Im having 5 min's off... ive taken the phone off its hook, im working away on my own and cant get done, so im taking 5 min's out having a cuppa and taking a deep breath...lol

Its been so manic today...................its brilliant because im so busy, but my god i dont know im im coming going or just been (probably the latter lol) i also got a box of chocolates through the post today, from a guy who says ive got him out of a pickle as his wife had nothing to wear for his works do tonight and i recommended something that's gone down a treat.. (Julie ate my chocolates though) people seem to be so nice this week, it must be that festive spirit (speaking of which i would love some) brandy that is..lol

I owe my friend a huge apology... you Roses..

I posted your gift back to myself !! i took delivery today of your surprise, what a blonde eh...lol

So please make sure someones at your place tomorrow as ive just sent it off again by special 24 hour delivery, i wrote you out a little note and folded my address at the front instead of yours (how bad is that!) its the first time ive ever done it, but at least i know im still human under this mountain of papers...lol

The phone hasn't stopped I'm selling out fast and now need to send my fella back off to Paris again next week ( id love to go with him, but cant) boy am i tired today.. hence why ive been so grouchy this week...

He read my blog and looked really upset so i do feel really bad for moaning about him yesterday as hes been brilliant today and is even packing for me to help.. bless..

I knew i wouldn't get through today in time for the kids so hes gone home to cook dinner get the kids wrapped up and then is coming back to pick me up... so I'm smiling today as although im so mean writing what i did yesterday hes more than helped me out today, and on a day when i really needed it too... so its not all bad, i think hes also tired... so the weekends no work, and plenty of rest in store..

Anyway i hope my friend likes her surprise, hope ive got the size right and it does what i hoped and brings a smile to her face as she does me with her little messages...

If work continues like this til Xmas i will get my holiday for my birthday, and the kids will get as more happy and relaxed mum. without the bags under her eyes like this week...lol

I bought a tent last night some camping gear and am wanting to go delving into the woods somewhere, so i am lining up a little surprise for my lot this Christmas that should be a real giggle...
Anyway five mins is now up.....back to work for me....

Autumn dryness

Its been another manic day, im getting it done but i could really do with a night off...

I may just get one tonight too..lol

The hosters 1and1 are who hosts most of our Uks sites have lost the connection about 4pm to all of their websites including mine ( i bet royal mail customers are swearing)... but they are working on it to get everyone back up and running but it made me smile as i am shattered and look like ive been dragged through a hedge backwards, partly as im slotting in photos every time i get a spare half hour and im processing and wrapping orders til im blue in the face.. So appologies for the sausage like wrapping service this week, but now you know why...



I have one sock on and one thats worked its way to the end of my boot.. so im not so comfortable just now, but the matter may have just been taken out of my hands to me having to work tonight...lol



Ive decided that the weekend im keeping free as i have a little something planned and as ive been such a good girl this week im treating myself and my fella (if he starts to help me out here, as hes not at the minute) to a night out with lobster on the menu, somewhere nice........ god im starving !(i wish i hadnt just mentioned food)lol



The good news is ive lost 6lbs in a week ... am another week closer to stelli coming home and getting really excited about my work again, id forgotten just how nice some people can be and it makes it all feel worthwhile........



We must both be very tired this end as we never argue..........usually...lol



But i was trying to explain (nicely) that i really needed and could use a little extra support at home after work as im coming home to what feels like mountains of stuff to do and asked my fella if he would please just pop one load of washing in for me, as the kids needed uniform changes and i was editing photos and loading the website to him answer "sorry i cant do that i dont know how to use the machine" fair enough........although i would have turned it on, just loading it would have been a help...



To.. if i do that then could you please me out later then to put away the 4 feet high pile of kids ironing on our bedroom floor into the kids rooms, before we fall into bed... to "sorry i dont know where they go" ...



So after i did it all, finished the jobs and editing and realised it was 1am again. i turned round and hes sitting there making banners up for the new year !!! that did it........oops



I Never rear up or shout............usually........



But i saw red ......said he needed a bloody servert and dogs body not a girlfriend ...



That it isnt how good you can do something as i would appreciate ANY help at the moment, as its the trying that counts in my books............and hes not trying to help at all....

Just very trying ..........! lol



So only with my fella's sense of humour could he look at me smirking and say........



"You should use your time more wisely and should slot in those jobs in that spare hour you have when you get up at 5 and everyone in the house is asleep, that way its all done before we get up!"



Its a good job i know what his sense of humours like by now, or he would have been having a very lonely christmas .....



Why is it when you are tired men seem to find it amusing to bring up womens rights and stuff like that........



I never burnt my bra........ as i dont wear them !



dont want voting rights .............as non of the above are any good anyway ,

dont mind working hard .............but how is it i still have to run the household as its the womens role ?...... lol



I didnt say that...... or ask for those rights.... and believe men can be wonderfully multi tallented around the home, in fact better at most things .....



Its just a shame im not that lucky.......................lol

Whiter shade of Pale

Today i got to play out a lady role and i thoroughly enjoyed it....lol

It was photo day again and although i was freezing its not any warmer at home so i thought id have a good go...

I saved the dress i love until last of course and one by one went through all the new range til there was one item left.... that black strapless number with Joanne written all over the bag ! lol

Anyway the good news was i got it all done bar 5 dresses (which i have to do tomorrow along with leather gloves and jewelry) please let it be a little warmer...

But the sad news is i didn't get to do my favourite black dress :(

I have done the other colours, but as i saved that til last it serves me right as it got too dark to get it done and i had to dash home to be on time for the kids to arrive home from school so its still hanging there all neglected.............

Every ones surprised by the style Ive fell for, its not something you would normally see me in, but its one of those love at first sight things, it just happened, so i thought id show you all the dress that's causing me to work totally unsociable hours...

The colours different (mines black) but the styles the same.... it will hang alongside my jeans happily so if my fella decides to get off Google and take me out somewhere nice, i now have a dress i really want to wear........

And by the way if i look pale its because i was ..... i was white with bloody cold...... so i hope you agree and back me up on this please ...... Ive truly earned it........lol

Warmth

Its photo day again, and boy am i going to freeze......lol

Its been a really busy week again, ive ended up most nights having to print off invoices in between everything else, but the emails seem to be coming in thick and fast, so im taking the orders happy its coming right and determined to get everything photoed and up to date today..

My dress is in, its just as beautiful as i hoped and if i get everything done today, its mine, ill probably never get the chance to wear it, but if i dont keep it i know ill kick myself later, so my fella got one extra just for me...

Ive got a few surprises coming for the customers too, theres some jackets and jeans in that i got sooo right so and im passing the savings on to the buyers on this one and using them to get people in, as when they see the prices of these it should certainly do that.. i sold the same jacket last year at 64.99 and it was a flyer then, but that i am now able to offer the same jacket at a third of the price it should raise a few smiles and help a few guys with their partners must have gifts this Christmas...everyone is struggling at the moment financially, and Christmas is always expensive so its my bit to trying to help out, after earlier in the year i completely understand how it feels not to have food in the house and wonder how the hell you are gonna get through, all i can say there is dont give up..........just keep trying........

Things are definitely looking better this end, although i could do with some heating this morning (the boilers packed up and my house feels colder than outside) so its snuggling up round my cuppa today and hopefully ending up much warmer than i am this morning, god it really is going to be a test today.......wheres that brandy .. its time to make that flask.....

Dirrty

I had a real giggle today, i ordered myself some x/small half chaps to wear riding as the ones i bought were too big, so i was really happy as i thought id finally found a pair that would fit me, trouble is i didnt quite read the full description ..

I received them today... which was great...

but they werent quite what i thought they were...although im not terribly dissapointed there ..lol

These are full suede ones, just like Christina's in that dirrty video, so its gave me a pretty good idea for what i can do tonight! lol

I couldnt resist just trying them on so there i was strutting around the unit in them with my sister in fits of laughter at my impression of being dirrty, and in walks the neighbour........oops

Thankfully she is female and took in the post for me as the postman came early to the unit, talk about the colour red, my face must have been crimson...lol

I must admit though they feel really sexy to wear, I couldnt help but get that record straight into my head and off i want to go again, back on that pole...........

Its amazing what music can do to raise your spirit..

And sexy chaps can do to lower the tone of a woman...........

Wanna get dirrty...........its about time ..........lol

Fantasy Women

lol.... I think im in the doghouse today and up for being replaced very soon...oops..lol

Ive been talking to my partner about women and what makes the perfect woman we all would include in those fantasies.. i have a few good ideas there and have a few , i would definately love to include in mine (Angelina firstly)... yes i am totally perverted.. but at least im very creative with it..lol

Anyway my fellas most highest ranked no 1 is Eva Mendes .........

I bet shes on a few million mens and womens top 5 lists.....

Shes dark, strikingly beautiful and one of the most sexiest women ive seen on screen so i have to agree with him wholeheartedly on this one......so for those who havent watched 'Hitch' , its worth watching it just to see her.....

Take That - Rule The World

If theres any justice this will hit no 1 this week.....

Fridays Child

Well i took the kids to work with me, seems the teachers decided to have a training day.. talk about hard work...



Ive had my fella phoning every few mins asking me this and that, but i couldnt hear a word he was saying, trying to make decisions over a phone when i cant see what hes trying to describe me, customers ringing , all day with Brandon really pushing his luck so ive ended up with one almighty headache..lol

It ended up with me printing out stuff for them to colour while i got the orders out (which was great for an hour) and forgetting an order i promised to alter for a lady who needs it tomorrow.. oh S**t.. so back to the unit i went, kids intow, and ive just had to sew a dress and get it to the post office again (when ive already been today) lol.. my lifes definately not slow to say the least..

But my fellas coming home earlier than expected tonight, so ive now been asked to go back to the unit and unload it all at 9 tonight ... sigh.........

so much for that bath ! I dropped my drink in there with me last night...lol

I cant complain as he must be shattered, but the kids are in full swing this end and i cant get a sitter so far... so im ringing up Fay and offering her a chinese and double pay to come and help me out here tonight....

Ive stayed ahead all week, everythings done posted up to date, my house is spotless and so is the unit as and ive even been through there this afternoon hovering and polishing everyones desks, it looks great, so the thought of getting out of this house for a few hours even if it is for work sounds good to me tonight ...peace and quiet ...........lol

At least ill sleep well .......

Feeling the Light

What a day........Its been a flyer ......

It started off with my fella leaving at 7 this morning and getting up at 5 to pack lunch get everything organised for him to go, prepare lists and sizes and get in front for the march of the kids that was just round the corner...lol

Sandra was with me this morning, so it was lovely to spend some time with her having our girly giggles, she is definitely one of the most loveliest people Ive ever met, always happy always smiling...she seems to carry this ray of light with her, can read my thoughts and knows when i need to talk so talk we tried to do.......lol

The only thing was the phone hasn't stopped today order after order, i thought last week was good but today ive broke records and am extremely happy tonight, im still managing to keep up though, so the faster they come in the quicker im determined to get...Sandra was amazed at how quick my typing's got too !! it has to be......

But its like someones finally turned those lights on...

I couldn't wait for my partner to phone and ask me about the day, it just went quiet and i think he thought i was joking when i told him as he laughed then went quiet...

Tomorrow im really excited, not because ive got to pack this lot up, but my fella has bought me a surprise home..... so i may just have to wait up for this one .. its a dress !!

Not any dress though, its the dress i fell in love with at first sight... take my word for it these are so very beautiful.. they are not complicated, which is probably why i loved it so much, but a dress i really am really wanting to wear, so that's a definite first... you'll see it on Monday in my website (front page) , but the size 8 will be missing as its got reserved already on that one, and im working my butt off this end to earn it now....lol

Ive also just been told that the triplets school is closed tomorrow so im going to work with 3 little ones in tow... so ive got some sewing for Lauren to do, the boys are beading mums belt and cleaning the modelling jewelery... lol .. they cant wait ! hehe

Im now going to grab a cheese sandwich and a cuppa, run myself a bath full of bubbles, take that phone off the hook for an hour and relax, my fellas pinched my Enigma cds in his car so ill have to sing to myself tonight, pat myself on the back and say well done..........

Its been a good day today....... with Sandra for company .. happy customers all day and getting it all done...

Now theres something i definately don't get to say everyday..........

Low Slung

The weeks dragging on or so it seems, theres been little fun or conversation at home as my fellas engrossed in something and doesn't seem to notice im there...lol

The kids are coming home and trying to wreck everything im trying to keep organised, but im not backing down, so its meant, come home eat, get washing done, clean up and bed... its what people call boring........

Today its my sisters birthday so im hoping the office will be a giggle, Estelle's been sending me texts from America, and making me smile though, it must be costing them a fortune, but shes got me a hat !! we go on about my loving cowgirl hats and their first day there apparently off they went to find one, so it really made my day, the hats sexy as hell, and will be coming with me on my next holiday for definite...

We've been talking about Christmas here and the over commercialisation of it all, its the run up that we all enjoy, every ones usually so happy, until it gets to the day itself and it bores the hell out of you, everyone eats too much lays there like a balloon and ends up asleep all afternoon...lol

My step dad would do it regularly and as a child the only part i used to enjoy was the Christmas eve cooking with my nanny, with grandad slipping me the odd port or sherry (telling me not to tell my mum) so im going to take the kids a step backwards this year ( not give the kids sherry) but pack a picnic and take them out Christmas eve, they are like me in regards they love being anywhere near water or nature, so im going to come up with something a bit different and hopefully give them some memories that are better than the ones i grew up with...

Next year ive promised were are going somewhere in a log cabin where its snowing and light the biggest fire we can build.....

I must have been bored last night i went shopping online and bought myself some new jeans, (thats !!!! pairs now) its crazy but when i saw them i was trying to choose a pair, and as i was a tad annoyed at my fella, i bought both pairs..lol its the first time ive done that or used retail therapy to cheer myself up, but it was good, these are 4.5 inch rise so im interested to see really just how low i can wear them, to date 5 inches is the lowest ive got, but anyone with a bum will fall short as you end up with a builders bum, so although im always moaning i haven't got curves or much of a bum, but when it comes to jeans it makes me feel better, as i can wear ones other jeans cannot reach...........lol

Helping hands

Lol...its been quite a start to the week for me...

Its been really busy at work so I'm very pleased although the idea of any help is out of the question after today...

(my fella offered to come and help out !) bless

The day started with getting in his car and it wouldn't start (flat battery) so i got my car out and jump started him... then we started off driving up the road and we got a puncture.... he really wasn't supposed to be working with me today..... ive gathered that now.............

we came home got my car out and set off, i am normally there at 8 today i finally arrive at 10... the phone is going mad with people trying to order and im still trying to print out the weekends orders and take them off my beloved stock sheet...... so i took the orders and prayed i had everything in stock... i was lucky and my stock sheet did me proud... this was the way i always like to work so i know exactly what i have in store... organised yes ! lol

The 5th call of the morning was that bloody pervert guy (sniffer) he called last week too (this guy doesn't give up) so i told him i was uip to my neck in orders and asked him to look through the website and that way he can see what they look like (without me having to describe what i look like in them) by this time im getting annoyed as i have a lot to do and am trying to get the first post out by 12.... half an hour later he calls again ...

So i passed his call across to my co worker again (yes Steve) and told him to deal with him......lolol

That's not the best bit.........this guys not fussy he wanted my fella to describe the items to him and didn't mind as long as someone would talk to him..............my fellas face was a picture !! by this time im under the desk in hysterics.. getting frowned at!! and he slams down the phone on him.. apparently he could hear movement like how do i put this cleanly... the guy was enjoying himself wildly over the phone..(he does make quite a bit of noise we've listened and taped him on my mobile) lol so it wasn't the best start to me getting a helping hand today.......

Anyway i got through the day finished all the orders 280 have you got this in my size, emails, telephone sales and was feeling pretty happy with myself that i got through Monday (its always manic because of the weekend) i was trying to just send a chap some photos of as gown he wants for his wife's present , and then could finally go home, so i asked my fella if hre could kindly put the parcels in the car ready ,but as i turned hes slamming down my laptop lid and pulling out my stock sheet wires .....................oh no....... and just caused me to have to work half the night going through all today's orders and taking everything out again................ i could cry......

were not talking about a few orders today, there was a lot... he didn't save the stock sheet changes so the day of stocktaking nearly went up the wall ...lol

I'm so glad I'm not completely blonde and did print out 2 copies of everything (for my accounts) but thankfully tonight at least i can put right the help i had today..............hehe

We were driving home and he just sat there smirking, i think he knows what hes done, ive worked all weekend to get ahead and wanted a bath and a hot meal tonight, instead its a sandwich and a laptop ....

He did manage to get me some car insurance, and that's what hes been doing all day while i ran 2 shops packed and pulled my hair out with telephone calls to people all day.........bless

When my boy asked what dads been doing today, he sat there thinking first then came out with .....

helping mum............ roflol

Sunday or Funday ?

Sundays arrived.. the house is still asleep except for me im up and listening to the radio trying to find inspiration for the day..

I have to catch up with orders today as im not so organised as Estelle is, so im going to do an hour here and there and keep up as i go....... hopefully..lol it would be nice is my fella would get up though, but ive taken up 2 cups of tea and hes not stirring so ill leave be and enjoy the music down here ...

It wasn't much of a night last night, i watched tv for an hour got really bored and went and sat in the bath for an hour, i keep coming up with these weird and wonderful things to do but my fella wasn't listening so when all else fails call in those bubbles ........ so my nails are now beautifully painted for the first time in months and ive given myself a hair cut ! lol

I spoke to my hairdresser this week and shes not happy about the spiral thing so tried to sell me some rollers !!! shreeek i dont think so... im nearing 40 not 70, so I'm stuck with french plaiting or my scrunched messy look....... ive promised Lauren ill go buy loads of beads this week and have some fun beading her hair up.. so perhaps ill let the kids lose with mine...lol

Ive already got the washing in, done this weeks ironing and all the mundane stuff so hopefully today will be a good one... my fellas off to Paris for me this week to collect some more things ive sold out of and as i am the only person in the office now i cant go.... So its a Chinese, bottle of vodka and rock music as loud as i like night that night..... i was thinking of taking down my pole as ive not felt like getting on it for weeks... but its a bit like my kickboxing i gave that up as my fella was worried i was going to get badly hurt and couldn't model anymore... but isnt that part of life's mystery? i could also die tomorrow of boredom too if i take out anything in life that's dangerous or bad for you.. it leaves nothing...lol

So the poles staying up and im gonna just have to put on some feel good music and get back on it......... if you keep your mind alive the rest of you follows suit......... and its the suit i want to wear....lol

If you have nothing to do and are bored stupid, go get yourself a bottle of wine and a picnic, and get yourself down to your nearest beach... you can wrap up, but at least you will be able to watch that wonderous sea with the wind behind her and see how good doing nothing really can be...... you will come home feeling really good and happy to be back home in the warm....... hence no more boredom feeling for the day...............

Or you can always stay in and cook something special...... theres a very good recipe book i can recommend..lol
It isnt what you cook its how you cook it that makes it fun...............

Its a blondes way of thinking...........but it works......

Happy sunday.....................lol

Dizzy Blonde

Its day one of running the business on my own so i know ill have to make the most of my time out as theres going to a be a lot to do my end, but im not going to let it get to me...

My fellas bought himself a bike today (hehe) so ive got to drop him off in a moment so he can bike it back, i really want to grab the camera and ride behind him (just for the hell of it) but as its cruel i wont do to him what he did to me with riding.......lol


Not much happening this weekend sadly, but im not worried, im still not feeling so lively and just cant seem to get enough sleep this week, so its early nights and jos music this weekend, sometimes its the little things that give the most enjoyment, and ive been neglecting my music blog (which im finding i need more than ever now) so im downloading some music putting my headset on and enjoying those tracks....



Its been such a great morning, riding again, its definitely the best time of my week, im jumping now every lesson and today i got up to waist height (im so pleased) every time i cleared the jump the next one got higher, they do look so much more bigger though sitting on the horse.. lol

I know you cant see my face properly but take my word for it.. im smiling my head off... but ill post the proper ones nexy week, including the devils horns one !



I cant post my proper riding photos til next week as the guys still doing them, but ive got the sample thumbnails (hense the photos so bad, i had to scan a thumbnail) lol, but they will be worth the wait, my little girl looks amazing, im so proud.. she does get one thing from me.. her zest for feeling that wind blow through her hair... .... and is gaining confidence by the day now...


we come home singing our heads off .. much to the guys in the white cars enjoyment.. lol we got a round of applause today at the traffic lights.... so i sheepishly turned my head and put my foot down.. talk about embarrassed.. i must remember to shut up when i get to traffic lights ..
Typical dizzy blonde.........lol

Ive now got free riding lessons for 6 months twice a week.......... lol
I swapped a whole new wardrobe for Sarah and Nikita at the stables for guaranteed Jos time out for 6 whole months.... so nothing will stop me now.. I simply HAVE to go.... or id be wasting money...hehe


Roll on next week.......

Get me into there

Its nearly here Estelles all packed and ready to go, so weve spent yesterday stocktaking... so i can at least keep things running as smooth as possible on my own...... it wasnt fun at all

Its been totally nuts at work since friday night, the phones havent stopped and im needing to get back to paris quick ..so it looks like im heading further afield next week ..

I am supposed to be in London at the weekend, but Ive been playing the dizzy blonde at the office and falling about on the floor again but i have hurt my head and shoulder , as i went down this time on a concrete floor, which wasn't so kind to me..., so we are not going anywhere til at least Tuesday that way i can rest up this weekend and clean the house instead ...lol

Ive been scanning the net looking for a holiday, its because its cold i start dreaming about the sun.... a month in that jungle would have been my ideal place, but as im not a celebrity they wont let me in.......... lol

They did it in big brother so why on earth they wont let me have a go i don't know.... im happy to eat anything or stick my head in a hole full of cockroaches, snakes or leeches im used to that anyway.......... and id get a nice tan whilst loosing all that weight.....lol

Im not a celebrity but get me into there...............................please ........hehe

Makeover

Ive decided that as the seasons are all changing, its time i had one too....lol

So ive had a good think about what id like to do and decided its time for me to spend a little time on myself.. starting with my unruly hair..............

Don't get worried here Steve, im not cutting it, just making it a bit more wind friendly..lol

I want to get it spiralled... its now long enough, and after spending hours trying to scrunch my straight hair into anything resembling a curl is hard work ! i hate gunk and sprays and if i saw a hairspray can id run a mile .

So i need a look that looks like ive just got out of bed with style ..lol

That way when i do wake with those birds i wont have to worry about hairdryers or curl sprays just enjoy my day and not spend time fighting with a hairdryer ...lol

Talking to my fella tonight i agree, when women get to a certain age they do mostly go for short back and sides, probably as we have spent years trying to style it and get fed up with trying so go for the easy maintenance option...... but apart from my fella leaving me if i got out those scissors, i actually really want to keep growing mine, i just need a style that's easy to put up when i need it out of the way, and wear loosely down , for when i get on that horse.....lol

Im having a mini break this weekend and heading off to London with my fella but as soon as i get back im booking in to my much neglected hairdresser and getting it done....

Happy birthday

Its certainly been a happy one for the kids...

Today they hit double figures and my house has been far from quiet..lol

Estelle has made the day today, for someone who has no children she has really made my kids birthday special... and spent her day entertaining them with face painting and balloon modelling... She really is such a gem.... and i owe her a huge thank you for today...

They were hypo all day and since they got up so early, have worn me out, so although my partners hitting the wine, im hitting the sack..lol

Weve had a day of fun music and games and far too much food ...lol

They were really pleased and thankful for everything they got and although half of my lot didnt even bother getting them a card, they are happy and full of chocolate cake tonight.. so im happy...

I know its their day... but i look back to the night i had them and am thankful that what turned into a nightmare that night, has turned into something to celebrate today...

Happy birthday to my little trio ...

Free spirited

I'm back from a riding lesson in the rain today........wehhheeeeee wheres my cowboy hat...

What a way to wake up! its better than sex..

The horse was having a fast day (i was warned) so ive just had the most exhilarating ride.

He didn't want to trot, he wanted to run free (i get that same feeling sometimes too) so we got permission from Sarah to just go with the flow.......

My daughter bless got to ride a proper horse today too, shes now off the pony and on one nearly as big as mine, but seems to have found her confidence now , we both really enjoy our girly morning out....... ive even given up vodka Friday nights...lol

Its been a brilliant week, im focused, content and although i still have mixed feelings about my encounter last night, ill take the positives (true or untrue) and use them to my advantage... if you feel positive it usually comes back round... so from today im only wearing sexy confident G strings .........lol

Its the triplets birthday tomorrow, they will be 10 (ive survived to double figures) lol

So we will all celebrate here and enjoy the rest of the weekend.....

Ive been out 5 times in a week (that's unheard of) done things i wouldn't normally have done and really enjoyed what the week has brought me......

The best bit of today was showing the proofs of last weeks calender shoot to my fella...hehe (ill be posting those next week)...

He looked shocked at my jumping ones, but looked really pleased and says hes happy ive found something that i love and although it can be dangerous (no more than me on brandy) hes really happy for me and with how im progressing........... and to make sure i save him a ticket on that front row, on my first show...

And that i look like a real lady.....................mmmmm (what in wellies !)

I prefer a puss in boots look best........hehehehe

Guardians

Lol........I got roped into going to see a medium last night with my friend, i didn't know much about it until i got there only that i had to be at her house at 6.30.

We walked into this room and one lady who was standing at the door asked me not to speak or disclose anything, that they would tell me..lol they?

And indeed there were two of them, one who claims she mediates between the spiritual world and one lady who draws pictures of our guides........... i thought Halloween had been and gone..lol

So sceptically i sat there listening to what she told my friend... although i must admit she got her spot on.......

Then it came to me...lol

She started walking backwards and forwards madly (at this point i did giggle) and said i was taking one step forward and one backwards, and that had to change, i didn't say a word just sat there, and off she went into what shocked the life out of me...

She said i had a spirit who walks with me who still holds great love for me, he is male 5'9 tall dark hair and is skinny, he stands there with his right hand in his pocket... bit spooky now, as shes describing my friend to a Tee who i lost.......

Next came.......... he died from cancer, the cancer was spreading everywhere, but he was holding his head ....with his shoulders slumped forward as he was in pain......

And he has a message for you.............

At this point i didn't know what to believe, and was pretty uncomfortable, there was non of this generalising stuff ,that they put the feela's out to people and wait for our responses, i didnt say one word... she just sat there talking about my spirit....

Then came all the stuff apparently he wanted me to know and change about my life (this bits good)

She went on to describe me as the maypole, my family and people around me would come in take a chunk , all day long constantly gossiping about me, constantly taking their pecks together keeping me down in spirit.......(that parts right)

she told me to start telling them NO and tell them what they are doing and how it makes me feel, i have to start putting myself first sometimes..

That i keep searching and searching for something that i don't know what it is.... apparently they do...........lol

My life shouldn't be all up and down from now on and i should have confidence within myself as i can do this, and that now is the time to start again and dont let people mess me about anymore... (im quoting this from my letter she gave me so its a little weird, especially at this time in the morning) ..lol

There are people in my life i don't need to have around me (haven't we all) and my spirit said its time to do that gardening and weed out the ones that i dont need anymore..... (ill get my gloves on then) hehe

and a few more things i cant put into this blog as they were pretty personal and regardless if they are true, come true or not, im not totally nuts here, and am not telling you lot about that part.. but it was very graphic......lol

But she went on for over an hour, one by one without me saying a word, with another lady writing everything down for me to read later....... so it was quite an eventful night........

Her closing speech was that my spirits always been there and is trying to push me upwards and forwards now.... lol

But it had the strangest ending........

Her friend who was drawing away madly up a corner then gave me a drawing of the guy she claims is my guardian.. and F*** me that part shocked the shit out of me it was a guy dressed in west ham colours and looked just like my friend, he even had a wonky nose..........

At this point.........it was time for my sharp exit.......so i went home .............

Just in time for a vodka...................lol

Happy holidays

Its friday.....................yipeeeeeee

Its been a really good week, I was out playing with snow machines and reindeer last night (they are so cute) with a group of our friends and my kids, so that was great fun and ive been roped into going to see a medium tonight, so that will definately be different, so all in all its been a very entertaining week...lol

Yesterday i had to do some pictures, and had to wear a leather corset ! lol but me and Estelle ended up in stictches laughing trying to get into it... i couldnt breathe..lol (but at last i had a waistline)

What started off as i had to model one pair of gloves ended up a complete shambles, i just couldnt stop giggling to do them.. my fella then decided to give up and we went home..oops

Anyway as Estelle told her fella last night she was riding me at work ! i thought id post the pictures so he can see that she was actually trying to fasten my corset... and put the poor bloke out of his misery...... We do work hard yes ........lol

But we have a great place to work and enjoy the fun...

But as Estelle is leaving for her American holiday on friday, i am going to miss the fun..

and wish them both a very happy holiday... see you guys in a month...........

God its going to be boring in that office......lol

Home again

We just arrived home, thankfully, i dont know why i was so worried this time, but i was...

Paris went well, we got there after 9 hours of driving, spent 3 hours doing what was needed and drove home, so although it was a 16 hour long drive, i get to spent hours talking to my fella and we really enjoyed the conversation..

We are both really tired tonight, i have no excuse,as i was just a passenger, but my partner was superman, i dont know anyone who drives the way he does, he just takes it all in his stride, but i did stay awake this time to make sure he kept entertained, i wasnt about to sleep when i was so nervous on this trip anyway..i couldnt sing sadly as my voice has gone ... sulk... so i talked for England

We had a lovely little place to stay in, the bed was comfy wasnt held up with celotape... and the place was really beautifully lit, so it was just what was needed after that drive, and better than sleeping in that car park like last time..lol

Our conversation this trip was all about feel good stuff, not work !........... thats a first.........lol

What we need to get ourselves back to feeling good and getting back to best, i am going to cover for my fella and visa versa... all this works fine (as its done now) but how long do you put yourself on that backburner before you need to kick start yourself again... that times now... or you get too stuck on Coronation street and stuck to the sofa like a toffee wrapper...lol

So tomorrow we start... if i do what ive said , ill reward myself.....( have my belly button peirced).............and ride a horse up a beach on my birthday...... lol...

My fella will be rewarded beyond what im inclinded to mention in a blog, without embarrasing him... (but i will post photos!) hehe.....

And we will both feel so much better than we did last week..... the biggest positive...

So the trip was very worthwhile not just in material things, but also spiritual........

It was really funny driving home as we were about 30 miles off from Norwich when a silver car came flying past us with a girl hanging out of the window waving arms and head about, we both laughed as i have a habit of doing that exact same thing (and slapping cyclists bums up burma road on the way home from work... ) yes it was me...

So if you are one of those cyclists that wondered why some blonde woman , waving a blind stick was hitting you on the bum, now you know why lol.......... its just something that keeps those long journeys entertaining....lol .....sorry

and bugger me when we stopped at the traffic lights if it wasnt Estelle with Simon.........

so if you see us girls on our way home from work..... be ready...........lol

My travel bugs contagious...........

Weekend break

Its been a brilliant morning..... what a way to wake up.. ive been with Lauren to our photo shoot on the horses........... i don't know who was more excited her or me, i was up at 5am and watching the clock............lol

The horses behaved so well for us, even if it was normally their day off, i fed them polos, gave them a huge kiss and hoped that made up for it...

We did trotting, cantering and jumping with the photographer not threatening to quit...he was smiling away, so thats a first, and i get to keep my head.......hehe

I also got to dress up along with my horses with tinsell witches hats and giant rabbits.. so it was a real giggle, riding Sorrel wearing red devils antlers...... lol

I got to ride bare back with Lauren sitting on the horse with me too, so that mum and daughter bond is getting stronger by the day now, we were giggling so much as she held the leads on my horse as she is only used to a pony, so when Sorrel put his head down she went flying over his head, kicking me in the ribs on the way over..lol

youll all get to see the photos next week complete with boot marks..........lol

Its been such a really lovely weekend, but ive only now got just over an hour to prepare the house and kids before we leave for Paris..........

I was so deep in thought last night in bed,i couldnt sleep, its the simplest things that make me feel happy, and this weekend doing simple things has really made me feel like a different person... the one i used to be....

So although travelling to Paris worries me alot, because of driving there and back safely,(they drive like looneys) so if i do happen to get my calling today ........... at least you all know i went smiling............ lol

I even managed to get all my work done ! yes im up to date with everything ....(i cant quite believe it either) lol

So from tuesady its normal hours, and so much more of this lovely simple stuff.......

Im going to sit under a snow machine next week and stroke a reindeer.............hehe

Bonfires and Bangers

We went out tonight and took the kids to Corpusty for their local bonfire and firework celebration....

We had a totally brilliant night.. the kids really enjoyed it and i was really pleased it hadn't changed from the last time we were there..

It starts off with the locals all dressing up taking the guy and a parade all round the village, most of the people were outside the pub all enjoying the character of the night, everyone seemed so friendly..

There was a guy playing his guitar singing brilliantly through huge speakers to the dancing town centre so i had a dance with the kids on the green and one by one we went through the hot dog and jacket potato stands..lol they certainly know how to throw a party there, it was one of the best bonfire nights ive ever had..

Theres non of this pay on the gate lark, you just put into a collection pot whatever you can afford so families are encouraged there,as you don't need a mortgage to get in, not like some of the big displays where they charge you per adult or child, ive been to these displays and just like they have done to Xmas they have taken the fun away from what we originally celebrated and over commercialised everything... this is what its all about, everyone joining in and celebrating together, my kids were playing with the locals and in their elements...

We were joined by our friends as they phoned to see where we were going ,so came with us to see if it really was as good as we remembered, the verdict was unanimous... it was .....

The fireworks were the best ive ever seen and the funny guy on the mike went to town as they were in full display and had everyone cracking up, it was just lovely and like stepping back into time...

I took my camera and watched my sons face drop as he really did believe the guy was a real man who the village were setting fire to.....lol (well he is small and i do use the word guy ) but after he knew he seemed to really enjoy his night, i couldn't work out why he was so quiet to start with...

I have to be up early tomorrow, i have to be ready for the riding photos by 9.15 (which is not going to be easy getting my daughter out of bed and dressed to ride..lol but all that fresh air has worn me out so im going to enjoy the rest of those fireworks from my bedroom tonight...

So next year for any of you that live close enough to Norfolk, check it out..it really is something special.. especially if you love getting into the true spirit of things....

I was mesmerised by the grand finale.. it looked like a meteor shower raining down on us and lit up the sky in the most breathtaking gold waterfall, the best bit about sitting round that huge fire for me was watching the flames light up a pitch black clear sky to show me all those huge smiles my kids were hiding, some moments are priceless and tonight was way up there.......

Saturday

It was a late one last night so im struggling to wake up this morning, im trying to squash everything in so im organised for when we make that long drive, i want to be able to come home bang in for 2-3 days and then be in front.......lol that will be a first..

So i worked all night til the early hours and made a good start...

I was singing my head off so did actually enjoy myself....im not sure what my family thinks though..lol

But it was worth it as i am actually on target and rearing to go.......

Its riding this morning so im up a little earlier than usual, i woke up, opened my eyes and thought Saturday.......yes..........lol

Time for breakast shower and get my butt into gear........
I saw this crystal online and loved it and as it stands for something postive i thought id share it with you all ...

Have a great weekend everyone.........

Tied up

Had a lovely night last night, the kids were engrossed in a witch film so the house was as quiet as when they went on holiday..lol

Its Friday again........ yipeeee the weeks seem to fly by but i think most people just want to hibernate away from the cold anyway....

Ive got a brilliant weekend lined up, i have friends visiting tonight, horseriding tomorrow morning and Corpusty sat night ,its a proper old fashioned display, but its great for character as everyones so friendly there...

Its the horseriding calender photos then Sunday morning and Paris in the afternoon.......... I was just going to send my fella but hes bending my arm and wants me to go, so who am i to argue there...so its going to be a busy weekend........lol

No Skeletons

I had a great night last night, i got to spend some time reflecting on the last year and somehow it does seem to settle you inside...

Ive met some lovely people since i started with the group, friends i hope to stay in touch with, people that have inspired me, and helped me to spiritually grow....

You are not judged there, when so many seem to have their own opinions , there it doesnt matter.....

We lit a candle each and everyone made their wishes, the wish i made even surprised me..lol

But it came from the heart........ let the negative stuff stop now, and help me get back to looking for those positives in people........

So as today is the start of a new year, im gonna put back that spring in my stride, book up Paris for next week and hope that this is the start of better times..........