Hope

I'm having a tea break so decided id write my thoughts down as that's the only way ill remember them.... lol... and the same thing keeps popping into my head today...

Ive been to my solicitors this morning ! tomorrow is the biggy... i get to meet up with the dreaded ex landlord legally......... yes I'm nervous, who wouldn't be..

I'm not the type that has to go to court but this was his choice so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and trying not to worry myself into a stupor ...

Ive done everything i can to defend myself so if its not enough then at least i know i tried...

The only thing I'm not looking forward to is facing him on the other end of the table..

Hes not taking his representation as he feels he can deal with me himself........... lol

Ive worked so damn hard when many would have thrown in the towel.......

So well see .......

please everybody keep your fingers crossed for me ...........

xxx

Sun - day

I'm sitting in my garden with a smile as big as the sun .......

Ive got up cleaned my little car and feel so bright today, it must be the sun I'm just happy..

I went through some of my music yesterday what Ive stored over the years and made my other blog my place to listen, i know my music taste leaves a bit to be desired for some of you lol but i love all types and as i remember them I'm going into you tube to see if i can get them..

Some i ha vent been lucky enough to get yet but ill keep searching...

When im working now i can plug myself in and sing to my hearts content ... lol and annoy everybody here..hehe

Ive just been and brought myself some sun loungers so my fella can tan himself up a bit and rest up, i think the last few photos sessions have worn him out (serve him right for buying those crickets)lol

I'm gonna post the photos later so anyone who's easily offended, bugger off and don't look !! haha

Ive had such a giggle doing them I'm gonna share them with my friends, so they can have a giggle too..

Weve had a weekend of far too much wine ! yeah! even I'm hooked now, with plenty of rest and play, and its done us the world of good, although having the neighbours hanging over the fence in hysterics at me in thigh high boots half drunk trying to look sexy (which is impossible when I'm pissed) falling about all over the place in heels i cannot stand in let alone walk, did make me a trifle embarrassed, but its making my fella come back to life so what the hell.......lol

I have no kids today 3 are on the park well looked after and ones down the beach so it really is so peaceful here, I'm loving today..........

My little car needs a good run so when Ive finished the polishing I'm taking her out tonight, were going driving like we used to ,so I'm really looking forward to later..

Enjoy the sunshine everyone, have a great day and take a deep breath, days like this are what life's all about..............

Enjoy..........

sunshine til shadow

Its been a good weekend so far, it was such a beautiful night so we had a bbq ...

I am in my element this morning, i dicovered i have crickets in my garden, that are all singing away to me throughout the night, its my favourite part of a holiday and as my fella knows somthing that makes me horny lol

So hes decided to go get some more today and is buying me a box ful for my birthdy.. to put them in the bambo outside my bedroom window...lol

Most people only feed them to pets, but when something sounds so peaceful its cruel id much rather listen to them playing happliy..

It brought back memories of a holday we had in turkey which was one of those holidays you dont forget...

Our friends are off on their holidays next week, im so happy for them, she really does need a break i can see so many changes in her, so i hope 2 weeks of rest sex and sun will help bring back what is lost ,so she feels happy inside...........

Today we are doing whatever we feel like, weve made no plans and are simply gonna go with the flow (just as i love it) the weathers beautiful so i may get my bikini on and go sunbath somewhere..

Ive been playing my fellas photo game this week and i must admit hes had me in stitches, i cant believe some of the things hes put down, but its making a hell of a giggle doing photos, and putting the fun back into them...

Tomorrow its my turn, but i cant say what im doing yet as he reads my blog so ill keep that one safelty under wraps and surprise him.......hehe

Ah well im not sitting here when its sunny outside..............

Enjoy your day everyone .............

Flashing

I'm feeling good tonight, had a really good day, as usual my grandparents came to visit and managed to put my house in turmoil... lol my grandad is such a character...

He decided today he'd pay Sandra a few nice compliments, so all morning so kept referring to her as a "nice bit of crumpet" lol

I didn't know where to hide, i was crying with laughter, she was the rosiest shade id ever seem her, but found it amusing that grandad took such a shine to her, she did look beautiful today and had arrived with her hair all done, looking totally radiant, having her sisters around all helping is easing up the burdon on her, so shes beginning to glow again inside, we can see it so clearly, and its so lovely to see .......

I let Estelle go early today as i was in the mood for singing and didn't want to put her through another day of me singing away in headphones ....... im really enjoying having my music back........ but i don't think anyone else is, strange that........ lol

I seem to have a dizzy head on this week , Ive entertained everyone by falling on the floor at random..... which is strange, as i feel really well, but the dizzy blonde jokes really can stop now you guys, (and whatever it is youre putting in my tea) lol

Tonight I'm now going to enjoy myself and go do some photography...
my fella has wrote a strange list and every night i get to pick a number and do whatever it says on the list ........hehe .... so I'm looking forward to seeing whats in store .........

And they say small things please small minds........
....... I'll tell you later......lol

Flight

I was engrossed in a conversation last night about growth ....

I'm not talking about size I'm talking about a person growing in spirit to the point where they can feel themselves flying inside..

Its a feeling that each one of us are special, that whatever you set out to do you can achieve, a feeling of such happiness its unsurpassed, a feeling that your souls flying inside totally uplifted and free..

Being totally connected with your spiritual side and able to feel, experience and enjoy everything there is in life to feel without worrying ......

I had a friend round last night and out came the wine, i wouldn't normally drink it but i actually felt i wanted to try it, so its a first for me, so 2 bottles later we stumbled on this conversation and Ive now discovered i actually do like wine ...

She started it off by saying how she sees me, i was pretty shocked, the way she describes me i don't see myself as, or feel anything like she seems to see me, why? ..

why cant we feel it and why do we always see the bad in ourselves, not the good ?

To me she oozes confidence, seems so alive its infectious ... this is someone who really will make the most from her life ...no doubt

She also makes me want to, I'm not in fear of getting older... in fact I am looking forward to every moment, some think when you hit a certain age you have to behave in such a manner and you cant do this, that or the other, as you are simply to old to act like that, i don't believe that..

I missed 10 years of what some class as the best part of their life, to me it wasn't I spent years being abused brought down and controlled until it got to the point I had nothing left , I wasn't growing i was dying..

The older I become the happier I seem to feel about age, it really doesn't matter, we gain knowledge, experience and friendships as we go along to add to what we already have so its all great....

We can all look at ourselves in the mirror and frown about the bits that don't hold up so well and see the marks of age taking shape, but does it really change you as a person ... no...

No matter what you do it wont hold back the clock , you should be happy you're getting old .... many don't get given that gift ...
to just enjoy whats inside them, as that's the part that stays alive ..

Have you ever heard the saying the eyes don't lie, its true, whats around the outside may look completely different with years, but the sparkle will stay in them if you are alive inside...

Work stress, problems, its all takes its toll , although you feel like you're jumping hurdles, later you realise that certain events & past moments have affected the way you feel and little by little they strike at your confidence, bringing it down......

I remember a girl I knew once who had a younger partner he used to joke and say that he would trade her in for a younger model, why ? if he wanted someone younger he should have moved on and not kept her spirit morally down with his supposedly funny jibes & jokes that constantly reminded her of the fact she was getting older, they did eventually split for him to move in with his younger model but, what he hadn't bargained for was he had grown so old in his manner of ridiculing people and couldn't keep someone younger if he tried, if the mind dies then the rest follows suit shortly .... so it all kind of backfired on him ...

What this goes to show is its the mind that keeps you young, so instead of worrying about what you like like in that mirror work towards making yourself feel good inside, that's what we take with us through life ...

What we were talking about last night was, what do you need, feel, want, to make and keep you feeling alive inside, what makes some people feel they can really fly.... without wings...

For each of us its different, what works for one, may not work for another, its that unique way we are each made up that controls what it is we search for, what makes us complete...

While i lay in bed last night it was running through my head, society cant deal with free spirits, they try to keep us down, for whatever reasons it may be, people use words envious, jealousy, but i am the kind of person that gets hurt from that, I don't cause hurt, its just not in my nature, be it friends family whatever, I always have tried to do whats best for them, if someone was picking holes in themself and you could see they were down, wouldn't you try to bring their confidence up, tell them they are sexy and how special they were, help them to try to feel good about themselves again, assure them that they really do matter, or if someone had less that you did and you were able to give without thinking, just so they wouldn't have to struggle quite as much, would you ? .........

If you even had to think about it, then you need to look in and feel how they feel, that's the problem nowadays nobody feels anything.......except the bad stuff ... its sad...

I'm now thankfully back on my journey learning what i need to fly, my way will no doubt be different to some to what makes me happy, i don't care about the material things I do care about the feelings, and want to experience my life in full, I'm not ready to sleep and rip holes in myself anymore, i am what i am and I'm happy with that...

And as for my friend we intend going out having a giggle and causing mayhem...

After all life is exactly what you make it..... and what you make of it ...lol

Blowing candles

Its been another lovely day today, im feeling happy and not at all stressed i dont quite understand why, but all i do know is its lovely......

I had my sister come to visit last night for the 1st time in a year, it was quite emotional, her daughter is now expecting a baby so she came to talk to me, im glad she did, i had forgotten how much i love her, ive never been held so tightly as she did last night, it took me back a bit...

My spirit seems to be finally coming back, everyday im getting better, gaining strength and feeling positive ... it definately helps having the sun shine .....

Today is my boys birthday (12) he is so happy and got some lovely cards with the wrong age on ...(thanks to me) ooops but at least he has my sense of humour and has found it funny ....

My sister got him a room guard which managed to have my hair on end in terror this morning, he'd set it up and not told me... so in I go to make the beds with the whole house empty to hear a man talking to me and screaming at the top of his voice to get out !! i couldnt see the damm thing as hed hid it up........ lol ....thats the quickest i ever flew down the stairs in my life ... but when i finally managed to get my heart out of my mouth the funniest moment ive had in a long time.......

The day seems to have got funnier from there.... lol

Ive had one guy asking for close up shots of my bum (so he can see the material better )lol and at least 3 pervy emails so its been quite an eventful day ... with a few giggles ... at my expense as usual...

Tonight will be a real giggle, Creanes coming round with a bottle or two, so im looking forward to her funny stories and a good night all round.......

Its nice to finish a day in the same way it started ... full of laughter.......

Tranquil

Saw this picture and as its been such a beautiful day, I thought it would be a perfect way to end it.....

Ive really enjoyed my day, ive had my headset on listening to music all day as i worked and its made light of the hard work i had in front........ and it really made a difference...

Ive been subjecting my helper to singing all day and thoroughly enjoying myself .......lol (although im sure she didnt feel quite the same)

Tomorrow is my boys 12th birthday... so its going to be a good day......

he doesnt want a pressent !! only for the world to be happy (well thats what hes said lol) probably so he gets a better present as id be proud ....so hes learning from his dad well...........lol

Im now going to finish the night off with a brandy (which im halfway through) and a long hot soak in my tub.....

Im so pleased with myself today ive done more than i thought possible, but also have some time left for me ............

now thats not something I dont get to say everyday ..........

some kind of wonderful...............

Refreshed

Ive been up since 6am i didnt feel like sleeping its nuts i know but im so peaceful i just wanted to go do the stuff i enjoy....

Im sitting here in the garden listening to the bamboo rustling away in the breeze, in an overlarge jumper with my tea, just watching the birds that are waking me up in their own wonderful way...

I just had my morning visit from my friendly stork, hes looking for his breakfast as usual and just sits there looking at me, probably in disbelief that i actually get up to feed him ...

My house is so quiet, i know later that will change, so for now ill enjoy the peace, someone up there must be listening for so many sales yesterday have now allowed me to take a proper weekend off , my first for months, i really cant thank them enough....

The weekends been lovely im starting to feel more like i used to inside, ive decided im gonna polish up my little car today and start as i mean to go on....

Ive got my radio on and am listening to my music,thinking about the wonderful people i have in my life, I wish every weekend could be as good as this one ....

Inner Vision

I got into my car last night to go for a drive and clicked my tape deck, i haven't played it since i got my car.......

It was really strange but so many feelings started to appear with each track, music is very special, it can change my mood in an instant, certain songs seem to put me back into times when i was glowing inside, so my strength comes from it, if i was to be shut away on my desert island with only one thing, it would be my mp3 player id take without a doubt...

On this tape were songs i haven't played for so long, and i felt so different to how i did when i made the tape up, i think this is my problem ..... its what i want, miss and need ....

Ive got so swept up in trying to do whats best, that I'm being forced into non stop working, i don't want spare time talking about what we will do when its all done, there doesn't ever come a point when you catch up with everything, so that's the problem......

That's also where me and my partner differ......

He is passionate about work and finds it wonderful to push himself to be the best he can, which is great, I'm all up for that, and always try to do the best i can, but he needs a cut off point where enoughs, enough, so we can just be ourselves and enjoy our time ...

Why waste time talking about it, when you can do it, if life's for living ...then live it...

I was reading his blog last night and for every point he put across, i have an opposite feeling..

I don't want to be hemmed in to spend my quality time working for the day when we can sit back and relax, ill be dead and buried by then...

I live with someone who loves to get up in the middle of the night to work......id much rather be studying more pleasurable things...

We were having a conversation about how i felt ,and why i was so down and out it came, the reasons i was trying to find for that empty feeling that grows bigger by the day... i think i finally discovered why ..

Its a feeling of not being in control of my own life, I'm getting frustrated and wanting that part back that's being killed off .......

I'm not feeling positive inside, its not the fact that things have been hard, as long as i feel like i am control of my life I'm OK... but its feeling out of your dept and not being able to explain it...

I'm one of these people that value simple things, sitting on the beach or feeling the sun on my face, its priceless to me, the rest is just food and bills that enable us to live freely, and i don't want anymore than i am already lucky enough to have already, if the bills are paid and you have enough to eat live and enjoy yourself why lose out on the good stuff .......

I watched my aunt work to live, she became a multi millionaire true, but it didn't bring her happiness, in fact it brought her sorrow, her husband got ill and took himself to bed and never got up again, all their lives they said how they would work for their retirement, but he never did, so all their life was missing out on the good things to then end without experiencing them...

I don't want that, i want to enjoy every minute as i go along, so if it all went tomorrow at least id go smiling inside, i 'll do the work but also switch off and get back to basics, its a balance.....

I think the work needed now is self worth......... its pretty low at the moment on my list...

and needs to now take priority .........

Girls day

What a beautiful week its been, it really makes a difference to feel that sun on your face, everyones happy....

My friend is back with me today so im so pleased, her mum is recovering well and the sisters have all flown in to help, so someone up there must have heard what i was wishing for...

I have an urge to do something really radical today so ill have to try and behave myself, i want to go have my hair cut off and restyled but my fella is kicking up, says ill look like a pixie if i cut it short,and wont let me touch it, so i have to find something else now to entertain myself...sulk

maybe ill go and get my belly peirced..........hehe

I hope this feeling passes soon i really feel so full of mischief , i went to the garage last night to get something and hung out of the car window whisling at someone walking past, so think i may need a day off soon .......

My fella thinks its funny and is winding me up far more than usual but ive got a good one ready for him tonight, so well see ........ lol

characters

Had a really good night last night, Creane came round with a bottle of wine .....

Shes so full of fun and mischief we are so similar...lol

When she left, me and my fella were talking about characters, and why some are so bubbly when others are just settling for a life of boredom....

We went out one night with Creane and Silvia, and i have to say it was probably the best night Ive ever had in a club...

It started as a pub crawl with Silvia, giving lap dances for drinks, it didn't matter who was there as this girl was just so full of energy its untrue but she was one of those girls you wanted to be around , she was infectious...

We got on a bus to head to the club as shed flagged down the driver to stop, he wasn't supposed to but did and what a giggle, there were us girls pole dancing all the way down the bus hanging on to the handrails with the driver not knowing whether to stop or join in..lol

the club was manic but brilliant, i ended up happily drunk and decided i wanted to hit the podium with Crane so we did, and next thing we knew some guy was taking pictures of us , she told me he was the manager and would hang them on the wall (not that i really cared) i was far to busy enjoying the music, but what she didn't say is we would be all over the website, with my dress being tugged off by Silvia and creane doing her Christina dancing..lol

I think it took me about a week to feel human but i didn't stop laughing all week, Ive not been able to get on a bus since and not giggle........

Shes now hit 25 and is at an age where shes becoming so confident, she probably cant see it, but it shines through, just a bottle and a good conversation showed that, and it was great to see her again...

As for her want to do list, lol wed probably be arrested on the first night there, but what the hell im always up for fun especially if it includes a pole and some music............... lol

see you soon and welcome to my blog ......... i bet you've been sitting up all night reading this haven't you? ........hehehe

Don't be a stranger bring a bottle and well do the cooking...........

warmth

My thoughts tonight are with my good friend.... Sandra

She needs everyones love and prays tonight.....

her mum and sisters both have cancer, her mum yesterday had both breasts removed, so i can only imagine the pain her family feels...

her dad died less than 5 months ago to the same illness so sandra now has taken on the role of main carer....taking everyones worries on her own tiny shoulders....

I really hope someone will be taking care of her, she is one of lifes true spirits and the purest gentle soul ...

she touches the lives of everyone she meets and makes our lives so much brighter ...

tonight my love and prayers go out to her .......

and im praying someone up there hears them ...

This is one lady that deserves to have a guardian angel looking over...

Naturally

Its been a really peaceful but busy morning.....

the orders keep coming and im starting to feel more positive about myself again...

the site has officially today hit page 1 on Google for women's clothing.................. yipeeeeeeee

We are now no 1 world wide for sexy tops ........omg

but its getting seen at last, and the hard work is all starting to come together...

Today I'm sitting in the garden (yes with a laptop, sad i know lol) but I'm working on stuff for me and enjoying my music, i have teenagers here tonight for a sleepover so i wont get much time later as they'll have me cooking at all hours in the night...

my boy is officially a teenager on the 24th April so I'm getting ready for all the late nights, but i really do love having him around he is such a good company and is growing up so wonderfully well....

hes always happy and seems so popular (judging by the endless phone calls and visitors) he is real joy to be around and has inherited his mums mischievous streak, so we do really have some fun together........

I have finally also got back my oasis too.............. im pinching myself to make sure its true...

But i can now escape when i need to, and go sit in that steam room til i disappear, and start to add to what ive somehow still managed to do at home, so as my minds now getting back into gear, ill try and keep up with the body and hope my soul follows suit.......

i haven't seen that around recently ....lol

smiling

Its nearly the weekend .......yipeeeeeeeee

Were getting through the dreaded school holidays and im still smiling so cant be bad...

Today i am going to do some photos, sadly im being shut indoors today but if i get this out of the way i can then get back outside, so im happy to be doing them...

Ive made good progress with the website shop my end, the customers cant see it yet but once ive fisnished it will all be on show so im hoping they will like it as much as i do, im really enjoying writing the descriptions again as for ebay its a waste of time nobody reads anything in there! lol

Its not quite as bad as i first thought on bbay(b for boring) they have at least left some doors open and it will be cheaper to list as you wont need 2 catergories, so its not all bad , it has hit at the worst time though as i had just got the shop all revised and looking good so to have spent all day yesterday having to revise it all again, but i finally finished again at 1am this morning so thats it if they play about anymore with catergories i dont care i am focussing on the website now as thats worth the effort........

My nanny has just been to visit me today for her weekly cuppa and marchmellow wafers (lol my treat) and bless someone finally handed in her handbag, they found it over mousehold heath the cash obviously had gone, but at least she got her cards and bus pass etc back, and her keepsake which we still dont know what it was apparently is still safetly hidden in it so she looked so much happier today, its lovely to see it, so whoever handed it in im very thankful to them, its made her day and restored my faith a little more in society too........

Ive been told im gonna need my wits about me for the next few weeks as the hand that i feed is now gonna start selling up against me on ebay, and as money isnt enough what i can give him, best he earn his own, hell finally see how hard it really is on there now and is welcome to it, im moving over soon anyway i have exciting new bridges all built ready................ and im happy that ive pulled the best out so well see how it goes for him, ive been here before with dave so im not gonna let it upset me anymore, this is a cut throat business and ive learnt that all right....

As my new journey starts ill let you all know, but the websites being kind to me and has given me enough promise that im ready to make the steps i wouldnt have done last year...

Yesterday i had an order come through from a half cousin of mine lana, lol

so i rang her to catch up, and ive now got an invite to go to Nottinghill to stay with her for a weekend so im looking forward to that, she dates a famous singers guitarist so im gonna have a night out with a difference ...lol

Im finally going to start taking some quality time back, im going to rejoin my oasis tomorrow so although ive been like a hermit crab for months ive done what ive had to and now can hopefully start to have some time out, i got a bunch of tulips and a text message from my fella yesterday to say thanks for all the effort and that meant a lot, as i know it wasnt easy what he said, but if it happened again tomorrow id glady do it all again if it meant others can smile inside as thats all that matters most ...........

todays gonna be a good day as im now leaving off a computer, tomorrow the sun will hopefully be shining again and the weekends finally here, what more could i need .........

relax

What a beautiful weekend its been, the weather couldnt have been better ...

Im feeling a little better this morning, although i have a tummy the size of britain at least that explains my eratic behaviour this week, he kept saying it was p.m.t but i wanted to thump him...

We had a lot of mail arrived saturday that i hadnt opened so last night we went through it all and the last letter we opened which we thought was a bill wasnt......

In fact it was good news.... it looks like my partner may have finally secured the investment into my company that i was hoping to have last june ........

This means that all my hard work hasnt been in vain, i would be able to do what i wanted to do for the last 5 months....

Its gonna take a few weeks yet to finalise the paperwork, but thats fine, so far so good .......

I moan sometimes about the way my fella works, but what a gem, it may have taken a few knocks and bruises to get there, but it looks like he may have got there for me in the end ..........

At last i may be able to slow down a little and relax ........

That beach is getting closer.........

Lifted

I spoke to my sister today after receiving a lovely text message with a photo of my newphew in it, with the words ' as you havent been to see me yet, i thought id send you a photo before he is a toddler'

It did get to me and thats obviously why she sent it, i rang her and thought it was only fair she knew what i had on my plate so hopfully she may understand a little more why i havent visited or been anywhere..

for start off she doesnt work, but has a car and hasnt been to see me either, i work full time, have 4 kids and am struggling to find enough time to wash my hair let alone go to hers and listen to how hard motherhood is and how she misses my mum and wished i could fly her home to visit ....mmmmm .. im good for something then ...

I have my vat bill in that needs paying and have to work extra hours when the bills come in, but to punish me for not having enough time when im trying so hard and my door is always open is cruel...id welcome them here and really enjoy the company, but they never come.....

Its easter weekend i am working, but im also painting eggs with the kids in between and doing my best to keep them happy, so im trying to keep them entertained and happy and so far it seems to be working well ....

I had a talk earlier with my fella and as things are looking brighter im getting back my oasis next week and a few things ive badly missed so although the last 2 months have been very tough im glad i have dug in deep and am getting it done....

At least i know never to take anything for granted.... so ill enjoy it all the more ...

Tonight im taking a night off, instead of salad which is all we seem to eat, im having chips... lol proper home cooked ones with fried eggs sausages and bacon...and enjoying every bite, then im gonna have a bath , turn myself back into the woman i havent been lately, light my candles and watch a movie......

Have a great Easter weekend everyone ................

birds call

What a difference the sun makes ...

We were all up at 3.30am this morning sitting in the garden with a cuppa, my partner and eldest are both working today but were so chirpy i had to giggle...im not used to company that time in the morning but it was lovely...

I have my sunshine working with me today helping me put straight the kids rooms and endless dens they keep forgetting to put away.. i had forgotten it was easter holidays til last week, and nearly died when they said they were off school now for 2 weeks .......

Its not been a problem so far as they seem to understand what im doing and why i even had one make me tea yesterday and offer to go to tescos for me..due to the lack of crisps ...lol

Anyway its a beautiful day, i am looking forward to some kind of weekend and nearly there....

just another day

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I cant wait to get back to normal this end and start living again...

It feels like everything good has been put on hold and im up to my neck with getting everything looking nice..

Ive been told i have about 2 weeks of this as theres so much been put on my list i dont know where to turn next but im the only mug who can talk to computers here, (swear at them more like)

so day by day im working through the list, ive done a full stock take and am now getting organised at last to how i normally work, but my god i need a break, im so tired its untrue...

my fellas out working everyday, ive managed to cut the kids lose and let them play outside on the park, its not fair they suffer as mums got to work all through the school holidays, so im trusting them and hoping ive taught them enough to stay safe ...

I dont want a life on hold cause of a website shop, and i dont want to end up chained to this so im doing whats needed and then hopefully getting back to being me...

I havent got much nice stuff to blog about, as all ive done is work , the websites really busy so while its mad, im working round the clock so i can have a week or two away from everything, and over indulge on sex food rest and too much sangria...

Back to the grindstone,T breaks over..... god i really could sit in a hot bath, listen to some music and relax.....aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

not a hope in hell there...............lol

Peaceful

I think i was over tired yesterday ...lol

Thankfully a good nights rest has now left me feeling much brighter...

I woke at 4 to get my fella up for work and did something i never normally do ...went back to bed..and got up at a more reasonable hour ...lol

Ive been keeping up with my excercising and have now started to speed skip again , so im hoping around another 2 weeks or so ill finally be ready to rejoin my kickboxing group..

im so looking forward seeing my friends again, it feels like ages since i last went so i have a lot to make up, but as i have to keep the belt i was awarded i had to make an effort and not walk back totally unfit as i would have really struggled, so im happy at least the work hasnt stopped everything, besides which the kids dont get their pocket money if mum doesnt do her sit ups every day..lol

they take turns to sit on my feet and hold them down for crunches, so i knew by making that their new job they wouldnt let me get away with not doing them...hehe

This week i have a busy one ahead but looking at what ive acheived with this mornings much clearer head makes me realise i am getting through it ...

anyway its a beautiful day im making the most of the sunshine and am working but in the garden with my laptop, so things cant be all that bad, can they..lol