Sunny days

Don't you just love bank holidays..lol

I woke up thinking it was Monday and id got to go to work so I'm up at 5 and hoovering..oops

My fella came flying down the stairs not so happy and asked me politely to turn the bloody thing off and come back to bed, lol i couldn't i was wide awake by then... so Ive been for a run, yes me, honestly the woman who doesn't..lol i never liked that part in boxing, and stuck to the speed skipping as that burns faster than running, but as its such a beautiful morning, i thought id give it a try...

Ive really got back into doing my exercises and even watched the X factor sitting at the top of my pole Saturday ..lol

Yesterday tuned out to be a really nice day, i did what i liked all day, a bit of sewing, lazing about in the garden and went and bought myself a spa thing to go in the bath, lol its not quite like my friends jacuzzi but that little nozzle thing is wonderful if you aim it properly and i really did get quite excited in that bath....lol so i finished the night off with just 2 kids (the rest slept out) and total peace and quiet, and made a necklace .. so it was a good day for me..

Today i have to do photos all day, Ive been putting them off for weeks, and need the space for Paris so i have a mountain of one offs to photo and list, Ive got 3 days to get the lot done and dusted as Wednesday we leave , I'm looking forward to it, as i can go in search for some Celine Dion concert tickets then, i want to take my friends to see, its in the heart of Paris and would made a great weekend away....

I'm also driving through Paris this time so i get used to driving there.... my fella wants to move to France in a few years, when the kids are older ......lol

So i would need to be able to drive there, to go and visit him......hehe

Have a great day everyone, enjoy the sunshine and the day off....

Stars in my eyes

Ive had a really good weekend, ive spent time this morning giving my daughter a rock chic look that she wanted for her day out, at the fair.. its been really good fun..lol

shes so much like me except she loves pink and very girly things, but shes so strong charactered it does make me giggle.. i cant see her letting any guy push her about, so im pleased she has strong values (except when she uses them to push me) we are both people that dont quit, so it gets quite funny, she gives me lessons horseriding and is a real natural, as she went flying past me yesterday, galloping, when we were supposed to be in canter lol.. she was screaming with excitement , and as she told me her little secret on the way home, loves the wind to blow her hair about ... lol ...thats me alright

Ive got the rest of the day on my own today, its lovely ....

my sister has taken her out for the day, 2 boys have gone with their dad all day and my eldest is never here anymore except for feeding.... what bliss for a sunday.....

I managed to keep awake yesterday and went into a cleaning frenzy on a high, so my house is spotless and peaceful, so im gonna go take a good book into the garden and chill out...

Todays the day i thought i would struggle, but i actually feel really happy today ...

We went to our friends house friday for a meal and to catch up, and as soon as i got there its like someone taking off a weight, the meal was wonderful (and more than ive eaten for 2 weeks) lol

but the company was unbeatable, i really didnt want to come home..lol

well would you, drinking vodka with such special friends in their jacuzzi ,watching the stars til morning..lol

Ive been longing to spot a shooting star for years, and have a stiff neck to prove it, but im glad i didnt get to see one, as that way i always feel that magical feeling when i stand in their garden, and hope .........

I went riding after 2 hours sleep and was buzzing around yesterday feeling like someone put the sunshine back inside me, and its all thanks to them................

Its todays feelings & experiences that give us tomorrows happy thoughts.........

So ill keep looking out for that shooting star .... to make my wish...

and feel thankful that ive got such wonderful people in my life........

Each one of you is a star in my eyes ........

Thank you so much guys xxx

Friendship and love

As much as we all try to think we can make it alone, at some point in our lives we need it, they bring smiles on days when it pours down of rain, and are there when we need them most...

This week for me, is a really difficult one, I'm filled with memories of things I'm trying to keep as happy thoughts, but when its gone it doesn't feel so happy..does it..

My best friend was taken by a brain tumour 2 years to the day on Sunday, its been in my head all week, things he said, the way he lived his life , as a free spirit, it just goes round and round up there...

I always try to wander off alone somewhere with my thoughts so i don't upset anyone around me by being 'quiet' and deal with it in my own way, but i often sit an wonder,' do they still see us '...

he taught me things, that have got me through some of the most difficult times of my life, was able to make me laugh when i didn't want to, but could also raise my temper up with one sentence..lol

yet we remained so close.. he did use me in some ways, but then doesn't everyone, but i gave as good as i got so that was fair..lol ..but whenever i needed him he was there, unconditionally...

I was moving some material about at the unit on Friday and came across a bag, so thinking it was just odds and ends that i store up, i emptied it out on the table ...

I was lost for words , it was a jumper that he used to wear all the time, it shouldn't have been there, it wasn't supposed to be, but was, i wasn't prepared for it, so it did shake me up somewhat, why now? why this week ...

he was the guy who made me see sense, a long time ago, when i felt that i had no purpose left here, and had drove off in a blur of tears, i didn't know he had followed but he had, and after sitting there all night trying to put back any faith i had in people, he talked me round into going somewhere safe...

He never told a soul about that night, but he did make me realise there was so much more out there, and i gained the strength through his words, to fight back...

This was the same guy i wrote about in love-or-lust.html who was to become my most trusted friend, but he had to leave... it was his time to go.......

It doesn't seem to matter how long ago we lose a loved one, it stays there with us, when we have a good day you're hoping they can see and when those bad ones come, we wish were there for us .. its a friendship that never dies...

This year i will be doing the same thing i do every year and drive somewhere i feel close to him and sit there with my happy thoughts and a candle, i don't want to remember his life with sadness as this guy lead such a colourful life, i can remember calling him the worst names Ive ever called a guy, one night he turned up with a woman who was his 'new love' and the next night with her daughter..lol (and even came back after i called him a paedophile) lol so this guy was as free as they come.. but loved for it..

I take with me lots of memories, that will raise a smile when i need one, its just this time of the year is hard, as you also remember how much you miss them...

So remember if you have special people in your life, think yourself lucky, and let them know how much you care about them today..

After all , you never know when its our time to go...

And as time proves to us, time and time again

Special friendships can last for a lifetime......

Hurricane Dean

God, there seems to be so much happening this week, its madness..

Ive got my mum constantly worryingly ringing telling me about hurricane Dean and what destruction its leaving behind, 7 killed so far but how many lives have been affected with losing their homes and businesses is any ones guess, mother nature can be so cruel sometimes...

If it hits Tobago shes got no chance, my mum lives in a little place with a tin roof and gave up her life in Britain for a simple life of sunshine with the man she loved, so i cant even imagine how they feel that end in the Caribbean just waiting, The last i heard it was hitting Mexico ...

We've been reading up this end on Yarmouth and whats been happening there, so its been a week of bad news for everyone and worrying.. Not good..

Tonight my fellas gone to spend an evening with his dad (its his birthday) so I'm having a night on my own in deep thought, hoping i get to see my mum for her next one....

Gt Yarmouth siege 15 arrested

Fifteen people have now been arrested after a police station in Norfolk came under siege in the early hours from a crowd of 100 people hurling bottles.

The attack in Great Yarmouth happened after police arrested three people in a van carrying sound equipment.

Police said 200 officers then broke up an "unlicensed music event" at a warehouse on Harfrey industrial estate outside the resort just before midday.

Forty-four cars were seized at the event, a police spokesman said. 'Serious risk' The attack on the police station was declared a major incident by Norfolk Police and Ch Supt Bob Scully said: "We acted swiftly to control the situation and restore order.

"What occurred was entirely unacceptable and inexcusable.
"This was large scale anti-social behaviour and officers dealing with the incident were put at serious risk.
"It is behaviour that won't be tolerated."

Two police vehicles were damaged and officers narrowly avoid serious injuries, police said.
Although it has been reported that one officer has a broken arm and another has facial damage after a full can was thrown at his face.

More than 100 officers from Norfolk, Suffolk, Essex and Cambridgeshire police forces took part in the operation, which finally ended at 10 30 BST.

People have been warned to stay away from the Harfrey industrial estate, which is being treated as a crime scene.

(content from the bbc all rights to them)

Ebay and Taxes

THE taxman is clamping down on tax dodging ebay traders by hunting them down using a ‘web robot’.

The £250,000 robot, which was launched in March, is an advanced search engine that targets high-volume traders, such as those that sell goods on eBay, that fail to register for VAT.

HM Revenue & Customs (HMRC) expects the device to rake in an extra £1m+ a year in VAT and to force people to register these businesses

According to a report by the National Audit Office, the Revenue collected more than £1bn in VAT from e-commerce sales in the 2005-06 tax year.

This is expected to rocket by 2010 when the level of sales are expected to hit £60bn.

The number of people making a second income by trading on websites such like eBay has soared.

It is believed nearly 70,000 people earn a quarter of their living by trading on the website.

However, a large percentage of them don’t declare their earnings to the taxman.

Traders of second-hand goods only have to account for VAT on profits, but if they fail to register or keep records, then the taxman could charge them VAT on the full value of the goods.

Sir John Bourn, head of the NAO, said: ‘I find it encouraging that HMRC is well positioned to manage the current risks to VAT from electronic commerce.

‘With internet sales set to mushroom in the next few years, the department faces a challenge to ensure it stays ahead of the game.

Some businesses are inventive at side-stepping VAT, and the department will be equally innovative in guaranteeing the exchequer gets the revenue it is due.’

The Taxman is planning to clamp down on traders who make a living through auction websites such as eBay but fail to pay tax on their earnings.

HM Revenue and Customs is targeting consumers with a large number of ‘feedbacks’ to see how much money they make from the site.

Independent tax consultancy Chiltern said ebay traders often don’t register with the taxman, so there will be tax, interest and penalties to pay.’

If you make a profit by selling goods that you have bought you have to pay capital gains tax.

Everyone is allowed to make a certain level of profit each year, currently £8,500,before capital gains tax is charged.

You are also entitled to a ‘chattels exemption’.

This allows you to sell individual items or a set of itemsup to the value of £6,000 without any CGT being due.

However, if you are an active trader and derive a large part of your income from the site then you are not entitled to either the chattels or CGT exemption.

Watt added: ‘HMRC is said to be using the number of ‘feedbacks’ a user has to determine which individuals are ‘traders’ and are ripe for investigation.

Once these and other traders have been identified by HMRC there is likely to be a sudden surge of investigations.’

A spokesman for HMRC said: ‘If you are trading or making money and profit, whether it be from a workshop or through this online auction house, then you should consider registering for tax and VAT.’

(original article by money)

Theres one thing in life we can always count on ' Death and Taxes.'

pity it wasnt simply death to taxes..lol

Yarmouth Police under siege

Mob lays siege to police station

Police monitor a rave after their building is attacked
A police station in Norfolk came under siege in the early hours of the morning when a group of about 100 people hurled beer and wine bottles at the building.

The attack in Great Yarmouth, happened after police arrested three people in a van carrying sound equipment.

Police later attended an "unlicensed music event" at an industrial estate.
Ch Supt Bob Scully said the arrested people were not involved in the police station attack, but they were linking the two incidents.

The attack was declared a major incident by Norfolk Police and Ch Supt Scully said: "We acted swiftly to control the situation and restore order."

Police are now monitoring the "rave" event at a warehouse on the Harfrey industrial estate on the outskirts of the resort

What is is with people attacking the police, they are there to help and keep this country in order what happens if one of those throwing bottles last night gets burgled or attacked, i bet they would soon want the police to help though......

(Original content report by the bbc all rights to them)

X Factor Danniis introduction

Well Ive watched with anticipation, the kids even love watching it now...

Its kicked off with a good twist, the American judge Brian Freeman was asked to step down and help with the live shows instead from behind the scenes.. and they've brought back good old Louis Walsh.... yeah, (you own that stage) ..lol ...Simon missed him bless.... so did i ..

I thought Dannii looked stunning, you can see she oozes class, i bet Simon enjoys sitting beside her...lol

Apparently he has to sit in between Sharon Osbourne and Dannii Minogue so they don't get jealous.... hes in demand, its that bad boy thing...lol

I still think Simon's as sexy as hell, much to my friends jibes, but i bet theres many more like me out there...

Tonight i liked 2 of the contestants very much, the new addition of 14 years and older holds a gem already in Emily, she sings so naturally, totally beautiful.. The thing that i found brilliant was her mum hadn't tried to make her look older than her years (which is a rarity nowadays) so she was put through with 4 yes votes (and an extra from me on the sofa)lol

The second lady made me shed a tear, she really touched me with her story, and herself..

her dad had gone and got her a x factor form (as he believed in her) and when he died she found it in with his pension book, she never knew he had applied for her so she went along to make her dad proud... bless she made Britain proud.. what a voice !

she sang Whitney's " I will always love you" at her audition, like an angel.. we all sat there with mouths open... I am gutted as i cant seem to find out her name yet(but ill fill you in when i do) shes 32 years old and i think one of the best Ive ever heard on the show.. so this is gonna be a good show..

her attitude had every judge in the room all loving her, how can i put it, she shone inside out... no frills, no makeup, just a kind gentle personality that everyone now wants something good to happen to .... including me...

we are told Kylie Minogue's going to give us a X Factor showgirl appearance, so with 2 such beautiful and talented women, you've just gotta watch....

There you go Mr Cowell, Ive given your show the thumbs up, and if you'd like to get some good quality and unique clothes for those female contestants please check out my store WWW.J-LOU.COM .... lol ..

p.s ...........The model comes free with the tops to you.............lol

Roots

lol... im so pleased tonight, ive been to see my dad and grandparents, i never seem to get enough time so tonight i made time.... precious time to me , it meant alot

Ive had such a lovely time, been talking to my dad and grandads been spoiling me rotten..

I took my little car, its back from having new wheels on it, im slowly getting used to driving an automatic lol, although i have to sit on my hand as i keep going to change gear..lol

My dads already offered to buy the car from me if i ever want to sell her bless (no chance) , he really loves it , im over the moon with it.. i may have lost my other little car, but i feel tonight ive got something much better.....the beauty is this car is 10 years old, so its not just people that shine if they are looked after well..........lol

I mustn't tell my fella, but my grandparents like mine better than his...lol (mines got angel eyes!) lol ........ with the devil driving it....lol

but ive come home ladened with gifts for the kids, smiling for england and really content tonight.......

I have a paris trip in the next week or so (as soon as my passports here) and am going to enjoy this weekend, i have lots planned, horseriding tom ! but have got to get a few hours out and go to the beach, my cars not lived in til theres sand in it....lol (it goes with me)

If anyone enjoys getting a video out and likes watching films that have a good story, ive got one for you, its called " blood diamond" and take it from me this is one of the best films ive seen in years, its way up there in stories to make you look at life through others eyes and realise how lucky we are here, it had me transfixed..... so if you want a good night with a dvd go and hire it.... its a must see......

X Factor

Its X factor time again...

Time for Jo to actually take a night off from her headset to watch her 2nd most favourite programme..lol (im a celebrity is great fun watching them eat those grubs) too

Although this could now be my new no 1, as Danni's in it...mmmmm..

Shes so sexy.......lol

I love Simon too though, what i wouldn't do to be in the middle of those two.....lol

I read with interest about Danni's visit to the lap dancing bar, and rather fancied paying that place a visit, some people have all the luck, especially that dancer...lol

Anyway i took a real shine to Ben last season, I loved his look (his long hair) and his rock style husky voice, he used to make my hair on my arms stand up...hehe (god thats pretty sad really)lol

So can you imagine how excited i am now Danni's in it..........I love Kylie's music, but think Danni's far sexier in her mannerism, she has that x factor all of her own........ (simons seemed to notice too!)lol......

Anyway we are going to get a song from last seasons winner Leona on the first episode so ill be watching with interest, she has an amazing voice, the girls so talented, but as she seems really nice and down to earth well look on her with nothing except admiration.......she has mine...lol.. you go girl........

As for Mr Cowel lol......... God I love Him ......... Hes got such alluring eyes , hes the bad boy we all cannot help but love, but want to put in his place (wouldn't I..lol) i have the perfect place for him too, somewhere nice and warm..lol

Anyway i don't like TV normally , I'm not into sit com's or soaps, (why are they are all so miserable?) but i do enjoy watching talent get discovered, its nice that someones dreams are made to come true, especially mine watching Ben and now Danni.........oh yes............lol

Diet Coke .. The best just got better

Hes back !! we haven't seen Farin (our diet coke bloke) all week, but today had a little surprise waiting for us...him ! hes working at the yard all day today and tomorrow........ lol

God we love working here...lol

He actually came over this morning and sat with us while we had our break, so me Julie and stelli sat there all with these huge smirks, this guys is a real gem.......

Not only has he a body to drool over (stelle's words) hes really impressed us now too with his personality, he is lovely.....

I found myself staring all all sorts of things i probably shouldn't have been... but those shorts....who could blame me..lol

We've found out a bit more about him, hes single, totally charming and made us really giggle this morning...............

So its as the advert says, the best just got even better....

Estelle's now singing the Queen - don't stop me now ...(farin-height song...lol) happily as shes typing away(shes even put a request on radio Norwich) so this could be serious..lol

Ive never known Stelli smile so much and i think tomorrow could be even more fun.. lol

Hes working in our bit all day clearing the shingle and things outside our front (well i had to get someone in, and he is local.. lol) and it does need some attention.. I like to keep my girls happy, as im happy then.......... it also makes this a great place to work...

Happy working day all you ladies out there.........

It certainly is here...........lol

One Bitten Twice shy

Ive just got a call from my sister, who works for me..

She just took my niece horse riding to the stables where i go, but got the days mixed up..oops

Bless she pulled up in the car got out with my little niece and started to walk towards the stables when the guard dog came out....

they are usually locked in a spare stable when we ride, but tonight theres no riding so the lady let them out, on long ropes as normal, not knowing my sister thought today was Thursday...

The dog ran towards Julie and bit into her leg and as guard dogs do it wouldn't let go..

so she threw my niece onto the car and tried to get away, by this time the lady who owns the stables came out frantically trying to get the dog off her, its bitten Julies arms and legs so she now has to go to hospital to get stitched up, bless.....

she rang to ask me if i had any spare cotton ! how sick is that....lol

The lady is so apologetic its untrue, and its sad that to days world isn't honest enough that she needed to get a guard dog, as a few months ago someone tried to steal her horses so she had no choice, but i think she was worried my sister would prosecute..

Its like my sister said, its her home and her business and she loves her horses, so had to protect them as best she could, my sister shouldn't have really been there, so shes assured her nothing will be done, shes a lovely woman always helpful to us when we ride and I'm really glad no one was seriously hurt....

Ive given her a few days off but also offered to swap her job of packing and come sit for the kids 9-3 instead.. for her to reply " id rather sit for that guard dog!" lol

Week 4 of the school holidays eh..... nearly there............lol

Forbidden Fruits

Its been a really funny day, Ive been scrumping......oops

what started off as a easy fruit picking day, ended up having us girls in stitches laughing..

I took a bag out from the car with what i thought was my wellies in it and decided id go get the kids some fruit so we could do some cooking together... bad idea...

The bag turned out to be stiletto boots, not wellies !

So as id promised them i thought id take my chances, and wear what i had on.. flip flops

I have never got myself into such a pickle, i climbed over OK but my hair got caught in the thistles..lol so i was a wee bit stuck at the top of a 6 foot fence (barbed wire one too) doing a Kate bush impression with Estelle killing herself laughing so badly she couldn't stop to help..lol

I eventually got some hair back and got over ! and she followed, talk about the blind leading the blind...........lol

It was complete madness, but very funny, Ive ruined my flip flops, am covered in scratches and thorns, but i did manage to make the kids laugh as i came home a nice blackberry shade .... it doesn't come off very well does it !!! lol

The nettles were bigger than i am, so i was trying to stand on them as i went forward with Estelle getting whipped behind as i lifted my step.........lol

We've decided we definitely need more clothes on next time, so if anyone has a bee keeping suit i could borrow id be really grateful..lol

The man who owns the land said i was welcome to take whatever i wanted and if i could cut down anything to clear a path he'd appreciate it as hes elderly and cant look after the land anymore... so i said id help all i could and cut the blackberry bushes back..

What i didn't have the heart to say is i would need Tarzan ................lol

So if you see a blonde woman (with short bits) running lose with a machete don't panic...

Its just me pleasantly going fruit picking ...............lol

Faith

Where do i start....lol

Today i have been put firmly in my place, nicely..lol

Over the last few weeks ive been a little concerned about my partner...

hes started his new job and is really enjoying it , but the guys not been honest with me ..

He told me he hasnt earnt a penny over the last month that the sales hes had, were all hijacked and that hes been working 50 hours a week because he likes it..lol ?

I couldnt understand why so have been trying to talk to him at night, totally baffled to why he would work somewhere for fresh air, hes been working long hours and weekends too, so it made no sense to me, to be honest i thought he was being such a mug (well wouldnt you) lol

So tonight he pulls up home early, beeping a horn all the way up the road, with another car.... its for me........ yipeeee

With a smile as bright as the car, im over the moon that i have a car back but thats not the best bit..

The cheeky sods been winding me up for nearly a month, saying he hasnt earnt anything to see if id still be behind him, and not moan, even if i thought he was wrong (i did a little though) hands up..lol

So tonight i have been put in my place ... good and proper...lol

hes got paid for every car hes sold, plus bonuses.... (dinners on him now, no way am i cooking)...lol

Im so pleased, i was really worried and thought a year working with me had changed his personality, that hes letting people walk over him (like i do sometimes i guess lol) but hes not..

Hes restored my faith in business, that people can be fair and honest, if you are kind, fair and work hard and the guy wants him to stay so he can now have 2 days a week off with me...

I dont quite know whats happened up there today, but its so welcome, we said we would sit and discuss his job once hes been there a month and see if we are both happy..

If you had asked me yesterday i would have said no, but ask me now and ill smile, (eating a take away) and look outside..

very few people surprise me, but today 2 people have, a guy i thought was out only for himself, and my partner for getting me on the worse wind up ive ever had... seriously

I will slap him later, but ill also thank him, as he meant well..

So much negative stuff has happened throughout the last 6 months, a little more made no difference.. but he wanted to make something good happen, when i was expecting nothing...

and he just did.........

we never stop learning do we....

PostSecret

Detox drink

Lol..... look what ive found...

Estelle brought me one of these into work this week as i was a bit down and thought this may help me...lol

Ive never heard of it before, but im now a fan..

Its called yoga Bunny detox and its lovely......

its been sitting in my fridge gently cooling so when it was looking at me earlier, i thought id give it a go..lol

its a natural drink, no nasties, loaded with echinacea (good for colds, aids your bodies defences) and ginseng which is just about good for everything (including stimulating things..lol)

It also the cheapest Psychiatry session ive ever had...lol

Its official then.............im cured...........lol

Totally balanced..........

Undiscovered

We went out for the evening and had a really good night...

It started out a bit of a mix up as id gone in my flip flops and usually shower, swim and get changed for the evening there, but the pool was closed...oops

So instead we went out into the garden, where i could hide up in in a bush somewhere discreet...

We saw our friends at the start of the night which was wonderful, as due to my fellas job we don't get to see them as often as wed like (but im working on that one!) ...

So we had a meal when they left and a good talk about the future, so im a lot happier this morning things will ease up a bit, i work hard and don't mind being superwoman for a month or so but it does catch up with you as you lose time for yourself..... and yourself is important..

Some friends we used to see up there came in a little later, so after a few more drinks, i did go off and get changed as we decided to gatecrash the wedding there... what a blast, ive never done that before......lol

I sat in the garden listening to the singer (she was brilliant) and when one of my favourites came on, that was it, i wanted to join the party... but thought i may stand out a bit in flip flops and a riding t- shirt so i did make an effort to blend in a bit more.. although im not used to putting make up on at the end of a night ! lol

we knew a few in there, so no one asked any questions, so it ended up a really good night, badly overdue at that.... dancing away and enjoying the free buffet...

When we got home we had a houseful, my niece and her fella had turned up to see her brother that was sitting for the kids so again out on the garden we went til the small hours of the night..

So i do seem to have drunk rather a lot of alcohol this weekend....oops

The good part is i was given a talking too....hehe

but he is also dead right, with what he said, so its kick started me back to where i should be

he says I've lost my inner glow because its getting buried with work and the bad stuff and because i am a strong character i should fill it up with the good stuff, and be myself and he is right...

I found a part of me last night, at someone Else's wedding, that i shouldn't have been to...Tut Tut (god the bride looked grumpy though) very pretty, but nevertheless grumpy, she was talking to me in the toilets (i told her i was a friend of her husbands)...lol but she didn't seem best pleased he was out in a bush with the bridesmaid (they were just having a ciggy) i did just take a small peek....lol

the mad woman who runs a Mexican bar has invited us next week to a party, and ive said yes, so my fellas gonna go down to working 4 days a week (not 6) until hes properly trained up, so i can have a bit of a life after work and also get a day off to go do all that girly stuff i never seem to have time for anymore....

So i went out for a quiet night ended up finding my personality i haven't seen for a while, and having a brilliant night...

I'm not lost ...... never was (as James says)

just undiscovered.............. lol

Principles Of Lust - Enigma

Like a bird

My days just got better......

I had a brilliant lesson, really enjoyed myself this morning, Lauren was excited too, the sun was shining away with just a breeze so it wasnt too hot, thankfully, next week they have moved us to 10 in the morning, so its even better as ill be first out and the horses will be happier... lol

I just got a call from my partner and hes got me another car !

its coming tonight, so im really excited, it means i wont be stuck indoors anymore...yipeeeee

Its not like my other little one, but im happy as it has 4 seats, so i am happy ...

Ive struggled a bit since my fella went to work full time as ive been lumbered with all the work and house with kids but this morning i can definately see a positive for him working there now..lol

Someones just gave me back my wings ...

Classic chill out

I spent an evening last night, in the garden (yes i am weird)lol

but it was amazing....

I lit the whole place up with hundreds of candles and stuck on my classic chill out album..

The thing that made me giggle was the street seemed really noisey earlier on, and the moment i put on that album it all went quiet, i had a neighbour ask what it was over the fence, so it sounded like most of the couples around where i live ended up in their gardens too..no kids, no pets just peace and quiet and ambient noises coming from my garden stereo..lol yes i do have one,

You could hear a pin drop ...

It took me back when i heard one track to our fantastic holidays weve had, i remembered laying on my lilo floating about in the sea, with the sun on my face not having a care in the world... no work , no pressures just relaxation and over indulgence of food, drink and rest...

and the same thing happened last night, without the lilo ..lol

It was a beautiful night, i sat there watching the garden twinkling away...in my element

I could feel the stress just easing away, by 2am i was wrapped in a blanket, singing my head off (badly) and preparing to spend the night out there..lol (that may have something to do with too many cocktails)....

But its done the trick.... i feel so much better today...

The suns on my face and theres no work today, the hardest part of today should be keeping that horse on 4 legs....

Have a brilliant weekend everyone, go out and buy some candles.....lol

Soulmate

It holds many powerful meanings,

Yet we all search for it....

What is a soul mate.....

and how do we know if we've met ours.......



Its our search for the other half of one's soul, complete compatibility, for which all our souls are driven to find ...

Ive been in love with a guy I would have done anything for, we shared so much together and connected in so many ways but in some ways sadly we didn't...

it was the love and lust thing, but nothing further

I didn't feel safe with him, which only a woman can understand... i believe, its a word women whisper to each other, as we all know exactly what it means ..

Safety, security comes when you can feel so close to a person you trust them completely, you trust their words if they tell you not to worry and feel security when they are beside you, as this person also brings you strength, whatever happens if you need them they are there, unconditionally...

I didn't have those feelings, i had the love and passion, but not the trust or belief in him....

Searching for our 'soul mate' means we search for someone who is compatible in every way, some people believe all men and women have their duplicate opposite... someone who shares the same soul, whether there is one person or if there could be more than one...i cant say...

we walk through life day to day, searching for that person who understands us without explanation, hears without words, who we feel without touching..... he or she, is out there...

There is a belief that some souls are literally made to be our mates, for us both to play an important role in each others' lives... sometimes we cant explain strong connections to people we just know they are there, so who are we to argue history....

These souls are thought to have created a connection in a past life and have chosen this lifetime to help each other heal ...

How do we know when we meet them? and how do we know if its them? it is as they say...
you just know .....

The feelings have to be two sided, its no good you believing some guy is your soul mate and stalking the poor fella to death, when he doesn't feel anything for you, except you should be locked up..lol

It has to a mutual feeling from inside out..... so we mustn't get confused here, its a love that goes beyond just love , and a feeling this person completes us..

Its like music sometimes we all hear songs we feel 'must have been written for us' cutting words that sink so deep, right to the core of our very soul's..
this person does the same for us in all areas, its someone we feel we've known all our lives, who understands us, you feel totally comfortable around them, that never have to be anything except yourself with...

I watch every morning an elderly couple pass my house, every day they are there dead on 8 holding hands to fetch the morning paper, the love these guys have makes my eyes well up, for years they walk past, yet every day is like their first, i have no doubts they are true soul mates, just way they look at each other, makes the day a brighter one for me..

So whether we can all get to feel the same is down to us, it may be a case of luck or indeed fate, but whatever comes, never give up the belief theres someone out there made for you, i spent 9 years with a guy who abused me physically & mentally yet every night when i went to sleep i never lost hope..

I wanted my knight in shining armour to come and rescue me, away from all the pain, from the miserable life i had, but knew he was out there somewhere, i just had to find the confidence to free myself up and hope he would find me....

But regardless to whether he would come, it was the hope that made me strong, it gave me that ray of light that i would get up, bath and try to be the best i could, just in case is was today i met him.... and as strange as that sounds it worked...

So if you do or don't believe that person is out there for you, bury your beliefs and look at it as your ray of light..

A little hope that just might grow into something life changing..........

Soul Mate ...

If you have found a smile
that is the sweetest one you've known,
If you have heard, within a voice, the echoes of your own,
If you have felt a touch, that stirs, the longings of your heart,
And still can feel that closeness, in the moments you're apart,
If you have filled with wonder, at the way two lives can blend
To weave a perfect pattern, that is seamless, end to end,
If you believe some things in life, are simply meant to be,
Then you have found your soul mate,
your heart's own destiny.....

Emily Matthews

sunrise

Good morning everyone, the suns shining again.......

I actually took a night off and just sat and watched a movie, i don't watch TV usually (prefer music) but it did make a nice change...

Well i cant wait to see what today brings..lol

Ive got feeling Stelly will be arriving early today (we were given a hint at what time he gets into a work so im gonna try make us late to see if she gets a little flustered..lol

I have loads to get into today and am looking forward to the day... esp those breaks..lol

We were talking yesterday at why we all look for such different qualities in people, my mum always said i go for the strange guys..lol i don't think they are strange...lol

I do however feel its really important to feel the substance of your soul, and go with whats inside ...

and it wasn't my fault they dressed strangely...lol

My sister brought me a photo in of the first guy i ever dated he was called Daryll James Worley (sounds posh doesn't he lol) he wore bright red shorts, blue air wear and a cropped yellow t shirt with 'slickers jazz funk' in black marker pen on the back... lol

but my god couldn't he dance (that was about his only talent, and he wasnt nice to me either..)

i can remember him coming to pick me up and my dad told him to go away and come back when he got dressed..lol he didn't like him much ! he he

I also had a guy that asked me to get engaged , my mum really, really , really, liked him (wonder why) whos dad just happened to be a millionaire and Keith was due to inherit the sweet business (Waller & co) a few months away but although he was a nice guy i wasn't comfortable at all with him, so as soon as i knew , i flew..... id only get fat eating all those sweets or worse still diabetic...lol

all he talked about was money and used words i cant even spell in conversations, so i stuck his ring in a toffee and posted it back to him , my mum was horrified and didn't talk to me for a week, but thankfully he found someone who had a much sweeter tooth and who was more suitable(dead in the head) ( and i prefer sour sherbet lol) so i obviously don't share tastes most women would.... lol

Well they don't usually like to eat chips on a market, feeding the birds or enjoy spending the night on a car bonnet watching the stars, and i do .... besides i get really nervous if i go anywhere posh,(drink far to much vodka or brandy and use all the wrong knives and forks..... so prefer to be around people that I'm comfortable with....and accept me as i am ...

Anyway enough gabble its time for work...

Have a great day everyone, enjoy that womderful sunshine........

P.s. Ive got the cokes.........lol

I just wanna make love to you ...lol

This ones especially for Estelle and the diet coke bloke ... lol

We Got Him ... Diet coke bloke

Yeah...............I got a photo....lol

This is Farin ... hes our diet coke break guy...

Sorry we had to use our mobile phones to grab this one as this guy is quick... but not quick enough !! lol

You can see what we mean about him though... hes hot!

We like him better than the one in the lift on the coke tv advert, his legs are definately better and hes got a sexy smile....

There sits estelle playing "i just wanna make love to you" on her mobile loudly, and the guy still manages to give us a smile....so hes also nice...

Thumbs up for this guy, hes now joined my website blog and our wall of flames....

Would be even better if he would just let me trim those shorts a foot or two....................hehe

enjoy... sadly all our jobs are full at the moment......

and theres now a waiting list .......lol

Anyone for a coke girls ............. break time .....lol

Hard shingle (sorry i was asked to change the title)

Lol..... well its what they were delivering this morning....

We are back working hard trying to look not interested through mobile phones, still trying to catch this guy..

I even bought some paving slabs today too ! lol ....

They have all been in to the yard except the one that we want ...hehe

hes due in, so were working late today...lol

As you can see all 3 vans are in except the landscaping one (which is his)....

The guys all keep laughing and have now given us permission to show his face as ive promoted their business in my website with trying to get this guy on camera...

Estelle is constantly hiding behind the toilet peeking round (see picture lol)

so ive got to put the girl out of her misery and get him framed up on our wall of flames...

we have some wonderful pictures there now (except this guys legs) so have a lovely spot all ready for him...

Now theres a bet running too, ive got til friday to post the photo or ive lost the bet..........

im not even gonna tell you the forfeit, its too terrible to mention...lol

Diet coke break

lol ... we saw him today, he knows we are up to something and was grinning from ear to ear when he drove in the yard....lol

Me and stelly both flew in to get the camera and phones and when we came out he had got in the van and just sits there grinning at us, the other guys were cracking up, so someones told him we want a photo... and hes enjoying winding us all up.... lol

Im determined to get this guy on camera, before that sun goes in and he takes those shorts off, and hes determined not to .. so hes just got better to us...lol

So were setting up something a little bit special up there for tomorrow, its just after 1pm he comes back to the yard so well be ready..lol

His smile is as good as his legs so im gonna get the whole shot now, hes got all my girls intrigued and all working quickly to get that tea break on time, so im all up for a giggle...

But his smile said it all today .........hes not giving in lightly (which makes it all the more fun too) coming to work in a cut off shirt and jeans like that is asking for trouble...

and he wont be able to get in that gate tomorrow if i lock us all in there..lol hell just have to get out of that van, and come and ask for the keys, wont he....hehe

Come on Farin, its diet coke time............lol

The Gods Envy Us

Lol...I love this dialogue ...

Week ends

Well its been a weekdend i wont forget in a hurry..lol

Things are getting back to normal thankfully, although brandons has now got his leg in bandage, it swelled up badly through the night and has gone black so theres no question that the guy didnt hit him in his car...he did

Ive kept really calm, sent my fella off (as he wasnt so calm) and sorted it out, the old boy was shaken up and denied the accident to his daughter, so she was only standing by her dad (as you would) but ive shown her the bruising and she has no doubts now either so thankfully weve sorted it out nicely, i dont want to get wrong with my neighbour, but neither will i be walked over anymore so im happy with the comprise (he wont be using the close to reverse around anymore) we dont use it as its a tiny cul de sac so theres no need to drive up there period...

So were still friendly shes trying to help out and brought sweets and books last night to cheer him up and alls well that ends well, it could have been so much worse...

I didnt end up going out ,i had a quiet night in instead so im wide awake this morning...

Ive also worked out those mossies dont like vitamin B !

ive been taking them every morning as my ceoliac is not good and the mossies stopped biting me straight away, my fella was bit again al night (over his feet lol) so hell be sharp footing it at work today ..lol so if you want to try it go ahead, its just standad folic acid or b12 and the little bliters dont like it......... so if anyones getting eaten alive this week (like my fella) hit the chemist !

Hit and Zimmer

Right whoevers playing jokes on me they can stop it now...lol
I sit in the garden for the first time today to get a knock at the door, my sons just been knocked over by a car in the close..........
Hes ok a little shaken (and milking it) but its left me in an awkward position...
It was my other neighbours dad that hit him...oops
So the close is now at war as 3 people witnessed him speeding in to reverse run over my son and drive off and park his car before he comes to see if hes alright.. not good
The guys 78 and ive seen him drive ! but i am trying to sort it all out peacefully, as his daughter is badly getting wrong with the women in the close trying to defend her dad, as he claims he didnt even hit him ..oops again..
im not screaming at anyone just thankful noone was hurt and have just brought the kids indoors... the old guy is shook up, and will not reverse anymore without double checking where the path is im sure .....
Time for tea !
anyone got any brandy.................lol

Tanning days

How beautiful is this weather....

I spent an afternoon as usual putting the house back to good , bores me silly but I'm the only one that does it here so cant be helped..lol

We went to a few beaches last night, started off at Sea Palling, waxham, Happisburg, eating far too many doughnuts and candy floss, and finished up in a pub garden watching the sunset... bliss

It was so warm all night, a perfect night for swimming (so i did..lol) with the kids telling me about the sharks in there with me..lol

But it was a really nice night, just what was needed after this week esp Friday...

Im not allowed to work today Ive been told ...lol

So im gonna do all those little bits i didn't get time for this week and later this afternoon I'm gonna go out again....lol

Well you've got to make the most of it today haven't you , its gonna rain tomorrow.... so they say! lets hope they get it wrong again.......

I may also have another car coming very soon... (sooner than i thought anyway), my fella had one came in yesterday at his bmw place and they said it had Jo written all over it, shes gold and has 4 seats....he wont let me pay for it though, as the guy there sold mine and my fella has said hell take this car as wages for the last 2 weeks... i think he still feels bad mine was sold, but it wasnt practical anymore, as hes working i need a car to take the kids to the sitters house and you cant get 4 kids in a Z3 roadster..lol (i did try, i got 2 in the front and one in the boot ! ) lol

Happy Tanning everyone .........

Good news... Davids been allowed home this afternoon.. hes strapped up everywhere but up and about on his feet...
His shoulder was dislocated and his arms all plastered up but Ive got my happy neighbour back.... im so relieved
Hes got to rest up now as hes supposed to be going on his boat in 2 weeks for a holiday with his sons, so im gonna make sure i keep an eye out and hes doing what hes told (never!) lol....

Horse riding was very eventful too today....
I seem to be practising a lot of first aid this week on people ... no more please...........

A girl was thrown off badly during my lesson and it shook our other 4 horses up badly that we were riding... so Freedom decided to go up onto her back legs and do the black horse advert (talk about scared) i swore many times very loudly ...lol .... but stayed on (with the help of that saddle and white knuckles) my neice said she though i was a gonna ! thanks for that...lol
But they took them all out of the lesson and cut it short today, as they were concerned about their erratic behaviour (esp Freedoms)... they were probably hot and upset! bless ...
So i gave Freedom her Polo and booked in for next week .. hopefully it wont be too hot for her then, and noone will be thrown off ..

I was doing well today too, my horse is too fast to be behind any of the others, so i got to lead today... so although i didnt like her loan ranger impression much, up until the accident she was great to ride ......

Time to clean the house up and get back to normality (whatever that is this week) lol

I want to go to the beach .........

Sandy Thoughts

Have you ever been to bed to wake and not feel like you've had any sleep..

You'll know where I'm coming from then....lol

Yesterday was a really difficult one, i had so many issues to sort out and get straight in my mind but i gradually got through the list...

We had a really good night though with me hitting the vodka putting the world to rights...

I did get a really lovely peace of music sent to me though by my friend Darius, (which was beautiful ,thank you) and am going to try and persuade him to submit some of his poetry to roses blog

http://roses-definitelybeautiful.blogspot.com/ as he writes so well ...

Today i am riding its the one thing on Saturdays i really look forward to now, so although my fellas working today and Ive got the kids, hes taking a day off tomorrow to take us out, so im happy......

Were going to the beach tonight, my sister and her hubby may be coming too, so it could be a really good giggle, its been ages since Ive met up with her... i wonder if shes up for camping..lol

Ive been thinking alot this week about a holiday, my sister goes away soon and then Estelle so i may go book something to slot right in the middle...Ive also got Paris to do again in 2 weeks so I'm gonna stay an extra night or so and ship the gear back, that way i wont have to sleep in a car again, theres a show on that i have to go and see, so im gonna surprise my fella .....lol

The update on David is they are doing a full body scan today, i spoke to his parents last night and am going to visit him later, but i have to go water all his plants this morning and feed the fish, his fish let you feed them by hand, so i really enjoy sitting there by myself and forgetting i really live in the noisy house next door...lol

Have a great day everyone, make the most of this beautiful weather..................

Blue Lights

I'm so glad its Friday..................

Its been such a challenging day today.....

It started off with me getting called out of bed early by a lady from up the street, she goes in to cook my neighbour his breakfast as hes poorly, and couldn't get through the door so came after me worried.. she was right to

Bless, David was unconscious behind the door and had fallen badly when he blacked out, so the poor guy was in a real mess, I've been to help him before when its happened but today was the worst Ive seen him, i was trying for over 40 mins to get him to wake up and he couldn't move when he finally did, we covered him with a blanket got him into recovery position, but he was so cold, i was really worried, but the ambulance service was totally brilliant, i really cant say enough good things about them as i saw first hand what these guys have to do...

Davids a large chap and is really heavy but had hurt his head, neck, back and shoulder but they were so careful how they moved him, we ended up with me on all fours behind him trying to support his weight with the 2 guys trying to lift what felt like a dead weight, he has so many conditions, bless, that try to take away his Independence but the guy keeps going , he really is a credit to all people who look at themselves with pity, hes worked all his life in the special services who seemed to have installed survival techniques that us ordinary folks just don't possess...

They've taken him to casualty and are scanning his brain so hopefully well find out what causes the sharp pains in his head and what makes him black out...

Its hitting home to me as i lost someone i loved dearly to a brain tumour, he was never ill and used to always help me when i got my migraines so when he was healthy one day and dead 6 weeks later it really hit me hard, this was a guy i had loved and trusted and it left a huge gaping hole behind... its 2 weeks away from his anniversary so today's events i think made me think more deeply, as no matter what happens day to day, it all makes no difference when its that easy to go ...

My thanks go out to the NHS staff today and all their hard work, without them many of us woudnt be here to blog...

I hope the people today that helped David and so many more like him realise how much we value them and the wonderful jobs they do ...................

So a huge thank you goes out to you guys .................

Diet Coke Bloke cont......

We've sat there in anticipation all morning waiting, we watched the other 2 brothers pull in to collect things, but no sign of him .............. the girls have had 3 tea breaks today too..

But we had to finish early as my sitter had to leave at 1pm, then as we were driving through the village we spotted him... he was on his way back to our yard !!! and wearing those shorts ! lol

So we now have a new lunch hour slot, dead on 1pm from tomorrow, the camera Ive left all ready and tomorrow we are on a mission to capture this guy on film...Ive warned his brother and they are happy to help ..lol

so with a bit of luck we can post a photo tom and see if you all agree with us ..............

I've also got another friend at work that comes to visit me (its a baby deer !) so working now is getting better by the day..lol

Eye candy.. Diet Coke Bloke

Lol............... were enjoying the view today....

where we work theres only one other company a garden supplier...mmm
Theres 3 brothers that run it and we've met 2 of them (who are both nice chaps) but the 3rd brother ..
WOW.............................
Hes got the hottest legs weve ever seen on a bloke, tanned skin and wears shorts all day at work.. oh yes............
Is is us or is it extremely hot today.... lol
Im gonna get my camera out sneakily later and get a photo, this guy should be seen... and mounted (on a wall of course lol)

So for any of you women out there (like us) who likes to see some eye candy while you work...keep checking...

His name is Farin ... hes too young for us (of course) lol but nothing wrong with window shopping is there.. lol it makes the day far more interesting...

Yesterday Estelle asked him if he does Topiary (hedge trimming) the poor guy thought she was serious and came over to see what we needed clipping, with Stelly playfully saying we have a bush each that we would love for him to trim.................lol

I couldn't say anything as i was crying at the time laughing... im gonna take some scissors out today to see if hell let me trim up his shorts a bit (a foot) ...lol

it makes a change to get our own back on the guys , so keep checking and as soon as i see him ill run out with the camera.......... hes got legs.... and knows how to use them !