Limited

Yesterday was a good day. My fella had shit loads to do he worked all day and all night bless.. he must be knackered today.. Hes got 4 important meetings today so im spending the day alone. Im nervous but have to do this.. for his sake as well as my own...
I used to love my days on my own, i could work paint and do all those bits i enjoy doing,I got over the first lot of problems and went back to life as normal, but i must admit the last lot has left me nervous to do that yet.
I was hoping my mum would come up for an hour or so but no such luck.. shes out shopping looking for furniture for her new flat she hasnt got yet, everyones quick to say "let me know if you need anything", but when you do need someone theres never noone there... lol..
I should have known better for hoping.
This implant thingy isnt nice, the wound is healing nicely but its so fucking big in there it sticks into something inside everytime i move.. bending forward manages to hurt the most as it smacks into my collar bone, I hope this isnt how its gonna feel and hope its only til it heals properly.
I'd love to get back dancing and riding so i can feel more positive, sitting in this place is doing my head in... Im getting through editing today so it doesnt keep looking at me unfinished..but my hearts not in it today if im honest.. Its so lovely out there i keep thinking about the beach and going for a walk, but ive promised ill not do anything stupid..
I feel like ive been dragged through a hedge backwards, my hair is making me feel like shit, I need to sort myself out so i feel better but am not allowed a bath til tomorrow... its the first time in years ive not painted my nails and kept myself pruned and it does make you feel like crap.. I need to find that ' you'll soon sort yourself out girl mindframe.....and think positive
Im going to salsa tomorrow so my fella can get back dancing, its agua on friday and one of the best party nights going, which is gonna be a shit, how im supposed to sit there all night and not dance is beyond me.
It says you can go back to normal activities around 10 days after the op as soon as swelling goes down and stiches are clean..but as the drs said i needed more meat on me to cushion round the implant so im starting to believe that salsa as i know it, may not happen for a while yet..im seeing the dr again tomorrow so im gonna speak to him and see if theres anything i can do to help myself more..
Half of me wishes id have one of these siezures quickly so this thing can do its job and they can take it out, the other half hopes i never have to experience one again.... It could be a day or a year waiting like this so im gonna have to get used to it being in there.. it can stay in for 18 months so i need to shut up moaning.. its there to help and thats how i have to look on it..
Id love to just get in the car and go for a drive today....... i really miss those simple things.......
I get enough warning when these start that i can get myself on a floor or stop what im doing so im hoping the dr says i can get back to some kind of life again.. Its my fella ive felt sorry for, hes not ill and has to fucking sit here all the time.. I love my home but i dont love being shut in it !

Ready

What a giggle today has been. Mandy and Deon have been up and we have been having such a giggle. I've had my pre op this morning and am cooking meals ready for this lot, my sisters taking me into hospital as my fellas working but he will be able to pick me up if they let me home..
My fellas sense of humour is on top form, even Mandy says she would have thumped him by now, but if thats what gets him through this, ill happily take the hype..... he looks a lot worse than i do at the moment, im concerned hes not taking this as well i hes making out.. Hes got a huge stye come up on his eye, and looks like hes got the worlds weight on his shoulders... Hopefully once this ops done tomorrow we can both have some time to ourselves again.. its not good to be together 24/7 like this... hes like a caged animal poor sod..
We have a party to go to this sat at our friends in sutton and im aiming to go although he doesnt think we are.. I know i cant dance or drink yet, but theres no reason my fella can't, After 10 days i will be able to go back to leading a more normal life again ... im going back to riding and salsa and making the most of every minute i can......
I had my heart scanned yesterday which was a relief.. (yes they did find one!)
Its as strong as hell and perfect according to the dr, theres no damage whatsoever with that.. This is an electrical problem by the looks of it, somethings telling the heart to stop..
Roll on tomorrow.. hopefully this will give everyone some answers and relief then once its in....

Calm

Yesterday went well, we were up the hospital nearly all afternoon but it was worth it, I had emailed this lady specialist a couple of weeks back and she insited i would be seeing her and not her understudy so i didnt mind waiting. She was worth the wait and really lovely. She wasnt amused the things she asked the hospital to do hadn't been carried out while i was in there previously and promised she will be working with me until im sorted out. I was given the date of the 12th July for this operation but she said it was too long to wait after the amounts of fits i have had now, she filled in forms and told me she wants it done this week, so i am to sit by the phone and wait for a call... Shes not messing about thats for sure. I havent got much faith in the NHS left after the last couple of months but she was really good and helped restore some.
The hospital now phoned and my operations at 12 this Thursday.. I have been told that my sister cannot come with me now as i may need a general anesthetic and not a local.. not going to know apparently til the surgeon looks at me and knows where hes putting this device in ? I hope its a local.. I want to be able to come home.. not good at staying in that place...
Its taken 6 weeks to see this specialist but shes been on the ball today and doing everything she said she would do..
I did half the dress photos at nannies this weekend so im gonna see if my fella will do the other half tomorrow afternoon now, i know he will moan and say no but.. these need to be done as the whole section needs sorting out and redoing, the ones we did i am really pleased with and dont want to do half a job, I can just sit then and sort out that section while i heal from Thursdays op without worrying i have stock there not photoed.. Im not sure whats going to happen once this is done, its a case of wait for the next seizure and then they will know what to do with me.. so i need to prepare if i cannot do photos anymore or need further surgery, i will have time then to get my model in.. ive already got one lined up ready, whos happy to take over..... I'll then be the photographer until Ryans ready, hes doing a photography course at college and cannot wait to get behind the camera taking photos of pretty models... lol
I may do some cooking this afternoon and see if i can get some meals ready here..

Learn

Decided to play dot to dot last night with the ambulance guys, another morning of waking up covered in heart monitor stickies.. they asked me to leave them on overnight in case i needed any more call outs.. I hate this.
Im torn between the devil and the deep blue sea. My fella said as soon as i started to feel unwell i have to let him know, the packing took me all afternoon, i was really tired by the end of it and really grouchy, one of the parcels wasnt paid by paypal and a couple of important letters were in with my book so i couldnt send the kids with the parcels as normal, there were too many for them to carry, so my fella said we would go together, i just wanted to sit down by then, and couldnt.. As soon as we returned and pulled up in the drive i started to feel unwell, the blood just drained from my arms and head again like emptying a swimming pool quickly, I just sat there shuddering with cold.. I came in layed on the sofa and hoped it would go away, all the way through my fella kept asking me should he call an ambulance, he was really not helping me relax, he wants them to be here when i get these so we get ecg readings, but i dont know if its gonna be a full blown one or like last nights milder form without the chest pain.. you get about 10 seconds of that pain starting and and being unciousous thats all.. its so hard for him i know, but i have to keep calm not panic, I really dont know if its gonna escalate or not til it happens.. Thankfully last nights episode did leave.. The ambulance crew were bloody brilliant and sat here with me til he finished his shift, they wanted to take me in but said the same things likely to happen again, ill be sent home until i see this specialist on monday. The ambulance crew are better than the hospital guys by far.. I got upset which i dont normally do with these but they really helped to calm me down and reassure that he was here with me whatever .. He also showed my fella not to panic or stress me out by keep asking me whats happening... That could indeed make these worse and escalate them .. I keep asking him to just sit with me and hold my hand, im trying to stay calm and find a nice place in my head, if you sit there waiting and reporting back every second of what it feels like, surely thats concentrating on the wrong parts... Im sitting in my woods surrounded by blue bells in my head, feeling the breeze on my face.......... and thats how i need to think..

Counting

6 today to go! I don't normally look forward to seeing a specialist but im hoping this lady on monday will answer a few questions we both have, It will also give my fella some peace of mind when this implant is in as he wants to know what he does when i do go out cold is right.. I look on it as it must be or i wouldnt be here writing a blog...
We took the kids to the charity day yesterday, well the afternoon part anyway, they loved it, we didnt do the whole day as it would have been too much.
I didnt do any classes but at least my fella could, that made me feel much happier, as i felt i wasnt stopping everything then for everyone else.. Lauren made a friend and the boys even did tbe regaetton so a good day had by all. I had a few dances when we went back last night for the evening party but kept it sensible.. Its amazing so many men asked me, i didnt think anyone would once they knew id had another seizure but they are good buddies and did.. That made me feel not quite as much the fuck up as i feel at the moment..The stupid part is everyone keeps saying how well i look.. its sods law..
Today im catching up on the packing as i didnt post out Friday and wished i had of done now.. My little helpers are Lauren and Callum, reluctantly by the sounds of it .. whats the betting they get wrong before the first parcel is packed!
They think as soon as they do one job that, that is it for the day, its taken some serious work for my fella to get it into their brains that they need to all do their share everyday.. Making their own bed doesnt count for taking the pressure off mum, although i think in their eyes it does...lol
I noticed a few smiles coming from the girls at that point...lol

Wired up

Just back from the hospital being wired up.. im not sure how im gonna hide it up tonight but im going to salsa regardless.. I will just have to wear something baggy.
Its chinese for tea as my fellas bringing it home from work so today im getting the packing done and may take myself off out somewhere. I'm really looking forward to another long weekend.

I've been looking at places to go camping and have found the place i'd love to go first.. its so pretty, surrounded by woodland and a lake..
My mum keeps telling me to book up one of the salsa weekends now.. We havent been able to go before because of the kids but shes happy to move in here with them, so im thinking of booking the castle one i keep looking at longingly and surprising my fella nearer the time.. Its has a 4 poster and jacuzzis in each of the suites which i know he would enjoy... They all bring rum and carry on partying in the rooms, so its on that list of to do things and may come sooner than i expected.
The drs said this morning i can go to salsa as long as i dont overdue things tonight.. im so pleased this monitor is on, at least i can do some normalish stuff now.. if its gonna happen then its being recorded.. that in itself brings some comfort. Ive got the best specialist up there, the nurse confirmed this morning and she is confident she will sort out whatevers causing these.. Its not gonna be easy to to sleep tonight as i have wires hanging out everywhere...

Bright

Im feeling so much better this morning, my hands are warm, i actually feel like my energy's coming back! There's gotta be something in these raw vegetable drinks..Im drinking so much water at the moment and really starting to feel benefits i haven't felt before, I never did drink water, just bloody tea.Even that's changed now I do still drink some but its green tea with honey now, it costs me at least a tenner a week now in honey, even the kids are pinching the stuff...
Im growing so much stuff to eat here, its all still tiny but its coming on well, looking out there this morning i cannot help but smile, im really feeling glad to be alive today.
My fella has been totally brilliant with me, i made the mistake last night of staying up later than anyone here as i was talking to my mum online, i went through to get more water and must have shut the fridge hard as the next thing i knew was steve flying down the stairs looking totally panicked.. he said he heard a thump and thought id hit the deck again..... God if i make that sort of noise when i go down i must have been in trouble..lol
he has now from yesterday gone back to work to try and put back some kind of normality in our life.. he has been making me litres of lemon water to drink in the mornings before he goes to work bless, its like the roles reversed....... He came home last night and took me to wroxham for some chips! The drs are saying to put salt on my food at the moment and up my intake so i enjoyed eating them beside the river.. it was such a beautiful night..
Im aiming NOT to hit the deck anymore and am doing what i should have done 'a long time ago'.. it took something like last week to knock some sense into my head!
looking after that 'Ferrari'(lol..) and giving it the right fuel for a change... vitamins and iron that it doesn't seem to be able make by itself from my food... my coeliac stops me getting any nutrients from food but i can get them from fluids, so its vegetable smoothies and strange drinks in between meals.... Leading up to these attacks i was sick every day for over a month and they couldnt find out why, so that leading up with mums shocking news did tip everyone over the edge.. My heart is not damaged thankfully the hospital results are back in for that so its a big relief, its blood pressure that stopped it not a broken heart.....
Today my daughter has promised to help me with the cleaning (yet to believe it though) as i havent tackled this place in 10 days so im hoping to get 'some' done today and make some bread this afternoon.. im turning quite strange, like hugh from river cottage im wanting to make everything from scratch now and loving the results of growing my own and a simpler lifestyle... Id bloody love to be his next door neighbour... Now thats one place i would move to tomorrow....
Right time to crack on in 1st gear of course.. im not aiming for 5th just yet, just taking this at a slow pace now and seeing what the day unfolds......Id love to go to salsa tonight.. perhaps ill go and watch just to say hi to everyone...

Welcome 2011

After a much needed break I find myself here for another year, fresh hope and starting a new year.. Lets hope 2o11 brings some good stuff.

I lost a very dear friend on Christmas day, so that hit home pretty hard, so Christmas here has been a bit of a blur non entity, I felt sorry for my kids bless they had such a miserable time.

I'm looking forward to kicking up my riding and restarting salsa, its been 6 months with no dancing thanks to my fella taking a job which took him away from home for months on end.. To top that were still waiting to be paid for it! Christmas came early for this guy..

Ive really missed my salsa and hope the new year brings some sunshine now..

It was a year of operations, illnesses, work work work while juggling a house full of teenage hormones triplets who don't like each other very much and the hope that they would for once clean their bedrooms... Welcome back to life in the madhouse!

Its been too long since Ive been the brown eyed girl.. I feel more like the black eyed one looking at the bags under them this week...

I'm hoping i can change that now and enjoy a new year..

Ive missed my friends........

Back from Hibernation

After taking some time out, i feel much better in myself.. Quite a bit has happened which i will fill you all in about as i go day to day now.. sorry i wasn't in if you knocked guys..

Where do i start? Christmas was fine, it was quiet and peaceful (ish) my fella and me laid low and enjoyed some time with the kids. I bought one of those Wii games which has managed to keep them entertained,with a fit plus board for me and Steve to get some exercise with.. still the kids manage to beat me with it though, i didn't think i was that un-fit..

The new year has brought so much work, we don't have to do it no, but i want this year to be different and need to get down and dirty to get it, so many nights when we would of been out salsa'ing we've both been working away, hes worse than me and has thrown himself into it, although its not easy at times, i know why hes doing it so try to make the best of everyday and anytime we get together.

Riding has been a blast, I'm still managing to go every week as even when my fellas working, my eldest sits for the rest so that parts good, Phil has taken over our classes and managed to make every week exciting for us all, 3 weeks ago i had my first fall.. and boy it was a cracker, he was giving me the smaller horses to ride as he said my size allowed me to ride both, but as you lot all know me i didn't feel safe on the smaller ones and felt too close to the floor so i asked him for Jack back for a night.. The dreaded black horse who's always in a bad mood..lol

Trouble is i love the horse and rode him alot last year.. well to cut a long story short he was beautifully behaved for me all night cantering round and everything, until the last part of the lesson where he cantered down the straight bucking all the way down :( i managed to stay on for most of it, but he threw me up against the bottom wall .. i did get back on him as i know if i didn't it would cause problems, but he started again, so i changed horses for the rest of class, what i didn't realise is id caught my sciatic nerve and couldn't stand up when it was time to get off.. so i spent a week hobbling around with my fella taking the mickey.. talk about black and blue! it comes with the territory so something i have to get used to.

Ive been back since and loved it just as much as Ive always done, Jack has managed to scare me though which is something i need to work on..

Our salsa has suffered badly as my fella also needs an operation, he was struggling towards the end of last year but thankfully is booked in for Feb/March, once hes had his operation i know hell be back and firing on all cylinders, i really miss my friends there and salsa..

Having said that tonight is the salsa party at the Staithe.. Ive been sulking most of the week as i thought my fella had to work all weekend. His partner is away on holiday so my fella has to send off the data every night for him, i was so pleased when he said he didn't have to work this weekend, it means we can go to the party and hopefully once Mark is back restart salsa again..

Its been a bit like hibernation here, January hasn't been much fun, but in my fellas words, its cold anyway so e may as well work now and take some time off in summer...lol that's his way of getting me to think positive.. which strangely works most times.

I am really looking forward to spring now though.. so who ordered more white stuff this morning?

There are lots i want to do this year, I'm learning day to day what i need to do to get there and putting just enough in to keep myself sanish...

The kids are getting older now, everything slotting into place with them and thankfully calmed down, so perhaps this year my blog will have some of those good things in it..

We will see......

Sunshine and Clouds

Its been a blurred few weeks, I haven't blogged as i simply haven't had anything good to write, Its all been work for me and being ill , so I'm now on a mission to sort myself out. I missed riding and salsa so badly, but by the time evenings get here i wasn't in any fit shape to do either, so its been a time Ive also reflected on whats important to me and how i can change things for the better to find a happy balance of what i love and have some kind of life back.

Its started when my fella sat me down to speak to me, i was getting pretty down even when i wouldn't admit it to myself, so many changes and balls to juggle it seemed like a never ending pit of 'need to do' stuff.. He was constantly working away so i was trying to help the kids with homework as well as run a business, i was ashamed to call mine...

I decided i wanted to change my website so have now started to do just that, im really enjoying this side of it and its bringing back the reasons why i love it so much, its part of me and always has been, over the last few years Ive had much of my fellas influence involved with my business, as he used to work on the roofs and got to the point he couldn't do it anymore, part of it was his good friend falling off and dying in front of his son, it hits home, they had 4 kids just like us, so it could have been me getting a call just like Simon's wife did. The other part was it was such a physical job and a fit mans world, he would come home soaked through to the skin and be so physically exhausted theres only so much of that a person can take and although the money was good he paid for it in many ways....

We decided then whatever he wanted to do, we would take the steps needed and indeed the risk, and he would learn a new career. Partly as i was treated so crap by several so called website builders and SEO people, he started on his journey of learning all what he could in that field.

The last 30 months has gradually been a build up of the workload hitting heights non of us imagined, we work all day and feed the kids then out come those laptops and off we go again, the lights always on here, regardless if its 4am..its no way to live though.....

I used to moan and feel if I'm honest a bit left out, i didn't understand his new world, but knew the things he was learning would be invaluable both to him and me, so we persevered and found ourselves living on my income for the last 2 years which meant things were a real struggle here, the kids never moan and always tell me i work too hard, but for them i would do anything so you try to smile and be strong for them, sometimes it wasn't easy though.

i tried to look on it as a new future and new adventure but when you are trying to hold up a home with 4 growing kids in it, its not cheap..

My aunt has been i have to say, my guardian angel... shes helped me through thick and thin and is always here for me on those days i wake up feeling exhausted before i even start, she knows just by the tone of my voice when i need help and always manages to make me see some positive in everything, that part of me i felt was lost somewhere buried in the mountain of where was my life heading and how can i get back on track?

I listened when my fella needed to talk, tried to tell him it wasn't him when everyone around him called him stupid and told him to go get a paid job... but we are now coming out of the other side of the cloud, its been one hell of a journey and although Ive had some challenges in my time, I think apart from when the triplets were born too early and the stress and worry we both felt, this chapter in my life comes a close second..

It all came to a head over November as i spent week after week being riddled with migraines as my head simply couldn't shut down, i was asking it questions no one had answers to, including myself... I know now why they call us dizzy blondes........ I slotted into that category perfectly......

Now hes gone off into the big wide world on his new venture things are starting to make sense again, he wont be second best at anything, so has learnt his new job inside out just as i hoped he would... We were living off what takings i took through my site and stock levels were hitting the floor, theres nothing worse than watching something good, disappear slowly like that, i have worked my arse off and worked on this site for nearly 10 years, its my baby yet i felt like it was being strangled......

Over the last couple of weeks, Ive managed to start again in regards of my work, i have found a part of me i thought id lost and wake up again excited about whats to come, the stock room is looking amazing again and has huge promise as everything she takes goes back into her again now so everyday when i wake up i think myself lucky that my fella learns quickly and somehow through all this there was light at the end of the tunnel..

I finally started back riding last night, but for the first time i felt my nerves a little uneasy, would the horse pick up on what i was feeling and was this going to be my rude awakening , but thanks to some bloody good people up there and my teacher Phil they have managed to restore my confidence and i came home totally happy.. My fella had cooked me a surprise meal which was an amazing steak in pepper sauce and I sat there fat and happy, like the cat who got the cream,with the biggest smile on my face and felt something i havent felt in a while 'contentment'..

Tonight we are bribing the kids with a video and getting some salsa tracks on, we both really miss our friends there especially Sharon and Richard as the whole salsa world had become part of us, we have both forgotten our moves so are going to make a start tonight and practise here, hopefully we can rejoin our class again on Thursday and start to find some kind of normality and balance back..

The best part is my fellas partner has now been handed the keys to his new place, so they now have an office that's a stones throw away, and for the first time last night, in i would say over a year my fella came home without his laptop ! Its his new rule of the house and was promised when he said about this new office.. It means no more weeks of working away, just an occasional trip when needed, and my fella and me back on that road of learning to be Steve and Jo again ..

We have had to make big sacrifices and part of it meant we lost ourselves there for a while, but just like my website when i look at her everyday now, its all looking so much better and exciting ..

The futures bright and starting to bring the feeling, that this has all been worth it........

Now we just have to listen to ourselves and dig out that part of us the work load burried..

It takes a cloudy season to make you appreciate, just how good that sun feels when it shines on you doesn't it?

Hopefully now i will have some good stuff to share on here again with my friends too...

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Going Home

Ive had such a brilliant night at the Staithe, everyone was in such high spirits tonight, the atmosphere really was unbeatable.


I had some amazing dances with my fella, so doing a few extra classes this week has paid off, his confidence in Cuban style soared, as you feel like you've come home after all the other lessons, its like walking into a place where you feel you belong.................


There was loads of people there tonight which was brilliant as quite a few of our friends there are away on holiday at the moment (lucky buggers!) but the ones that are back all looked amazing and full of life, so its gotta be good hasn't it?

Ive been invited by Annie and Liliana to go see their horses, so next week as my fellas away from Tuesday onwards, i may take up their kind offers and go for a drive (ill probably get lost of course) but hes away for 4 days so as long as i can find my way back before Friday i'll be ok...lol Im really looking forward to seeing them both..
Annie brought a new chap to salsa whos a farrier, so i was in heaven learning all about that side of the horse world, salsa and riding apart from my family of course are the most important things in my life now, more than ever im turning to these things to escape society, i dont seem to be judged there only made to feel welcome.. and occasionally bucked about abit.. but i can cope with that...lol

Ive come home tonight to another bomb site, hammocks everywhere of course, but do you know what, I don't care!, ill get up early and clean up the mess, it was worth it not to have missed tonight! im on such a high !

I got to dance to my favourite track again (Willy of course) i hear that air raid siren and thats it, but this time my fella was really up for putting some attitude into it, and boy cant you feel the difference.... it was brilliant..
Theres some great events coming up starting with Ingham street fair next weekend, we get to dance on the streets again! (and the party afterwards! oh yes mojitos..lol) the Dance Cuban party on the 28th August , leandro will be there! you have to see this guy, seeing is believing in this case, hes world class.. theres so much stuff to do, so for anyone that wants to learn to dance, come along and join the fun....

Im going to sleep one very happy lady tonight and have finished a week off in the best place we know, its like that saying goes, you always save the best til last..

And tonight was definitely worth waiting for...

We are in now for the weekend, so im hanging up the dancing shoes for a couple of days, but to everyone thats doing the weekender in Bournemouth, have a great time guys and enjoy those mojitos....
Its been a brilliant week.......
my feet are killing me, i have blisters everywhere but my spirits flying high...

Lord Mayors Procession After party

Last night we went along to the talk for the Lord mayors procession after party, talk about watch in owe, the dancers were all so amazing i spent most of the night with my fella just watching them all.

From what we heard the day went really well, so a pat on the back and congratulations is well deserved for all those people that worked so hard and took part in the first Cuban salsa show.

Sharon told me last night that Leandro Charanga is coming to the Staithe on the 28th August to the Dance Cuban Party along with Sacha who will be helping out with the music so its one event everyone should be adding to that diary.

We watched Leandro last night and couldn't believe what we were seeing ! he has such a unique style and had everyone transfixed, its an art form in itself to watch what this guy does and his style its so beautiful, yet cheeky, his moves were unlike anything Ive ever seen in salsa before, at one point he had a lady turning, to then end up with her in the air balanced on his foot! it was something else to watch, so I'm really looking forward to the party now, theres going to be so many good dancers there its a night not to forget my camera.

Mother Natures Gifts

Its been an amazing week, the suns been shining away for us so we have been trying to enjoy it and get some life back!


Monday morning i spent packing for the website ready for 2pm when it was my jumping lesson with Jean up the stables, we both really enjoyed the class although feeling hot was an understatement, i had Solomon who is a biggy and Wendy took us to the outside arena to do the lesson, it was lovely to be out there with the sun shining on us but very hot! i completed my first triple jump and came home wailing like a banchee, poor Steve i couldn't shut up, he was trying to look interested honestly...lol


Dayle had come to visit and cracked up at the state i came home in, im always happy when im doing something that challenges me though, i dont care how dirty i get, its half the fun, id been wiping my face (i was sweating like mad) but forgot i had black gloves on, which do tend to bleed when they are wet..hehe No wonder people looked at me when i was sitting at those traffic lights, i thought they were just being friendly...hehe

Monday night we all went out a family, our Friend Mark turned up and handed me his car keys!! yipeeeee he went with my fella and some of the kids in our car, so me and Ryan pulled down the roof and were both smiling for England, it was hard when i lost my car, but Mark lending me his has given back that feeling i used to feel when i went out in mine.. i know its not mine and so do drive it with caution, but its just so lovely and i get to wear my cowboy hat again.... poor thing had cobwebs on it! We went out and had fantastic meal by the river and ended up walking up the river banks for hours so me and the kids could feed the swans..talk about peaceful, it was a wonderful way to end such a great day..I took so many pictures of the swans they ran off at the finish..lol

Tuesday it was my fellas birthday ! I had made sure he wasnt working and arranged a day out, we just wanted to chill out and enjoy the sun so i prepared a picnic and set off, we headed for waxham but when we got to Stalham it was so overcast we turned back, after driving just about every coastal route we could find we decided we would just drive round til we found where we wanted to be, it worked! we found a place thats just round the corner from ours that we didn't even know was there, talk about beautiful..


We were there all afternoon, lazing about in a field full of daisy's eating and chatting away, its been a long while since we unwound like that so i thought id make it a memorable one and misbehave myself..lol

There wasn't anyone about and he says its the best birthday hes ever had..

No one deserves a break more in my eyes so im glad he will remember it smiling...hehe

We got back just in time for the kids coming home and decided to make up jugs of sangria and do a BBQ for them, they have all been great kids and supported us when we worked constantly so it was lovely to spend a relaxing night just eating and singing the night away, i told them they were allowed one glass each then soft drinks but i noticed those jugs were getting rather low..lol the kids were also very chilled out, which made me giggle as they all said it wasnt them drinking it !


Mark popped round with his gift for my fella of pink champagne and a bottle of wine from every country round the world so my kitchen looked like a global hangover..lol it also made me giggle as i noticed a bottle of vodka and orange juice in amongst it, and my fella doesn't drink vodka, but through 'man eyes' it was to make sure my fella had a memorable birthday !


what are you saying then about me and vodka ? .....hehe


Wednesday the kids had been given a day off school to practise for a play they are in ? well thats the excuse they gave us parents, so we headed off picnic intact and went to Waxham! it was overcast but still lovely and warm so we spent the afternoon enjoying what is a rare day out together as a family..


I was talking away to my fella when i realised he had fell asleep so being the nature lover i am i decided to keep myself occupied! i honestly dont ever get bored as ill find something amusing to entertain myself with....

EVEN IF IT IS USUALLY AT HIS EXPENSE....lol

Thursday i worked hard to try make up for the time we had taken off and made myself feel better as i did well, but i haven't been skiving and have been doing all the packing and emails etc before bed, so although we had time out it worked as i found that balance that usually manages to elude me.. And discovered im an aunty again to a beautiful baby boy (congrats Becky) im so proud of my sister!

Last night we just about finished off our last bit of energy and went to our much loved Salsa !

That place last night was buzzing! it was like everone was on holiday and totally brilliant, doing regaetton trying to keep up with Sharon's routine had us all in stitches, theres such a good spirit and atmosphere up there you cant help but come home full of excitement, I love being part of that and love the friends we have made up there, we are all trying to arrange a beach party next! so if you think you are gonna get a quiet evening up Waxham one night and we get there first, think again! lol

Its gonna be a summer of sizzling salsa and a few more days off for my fella! ive never seen him look so peaceful as he did when he was sleeping last night, so this week needs to be what we learn from..

Mother nature holds so many wondrous gifts, the sunshine just added to its beauty..

Its given us something back that work took away, and has me looking at what i can do with the rest of it now..

Thank you to you people that have made this week such a special one...

xxx

Burning The Candle At Both Ends

Its been a totally brilliant week ! so much has been happening hense my lack of blogging...lol

Where do i start?

Sunday; We went to our friends house for a BBQ with the kids, it was a real giggle i ended up staring in my kids version of a home movie with a dinosoar as my leading male but thoroughly enjoyed myself , The weather was glorious so we all made the most of it and stuck on Shakira, dancing out on the patio ......I would show you the photos but i looked like a chicken ! lol

Monday; Was the all day and night Dancecuban fiesta party day ! OMG This i have to say has got to be one of the best parties ive ever been to, we did class, after class trying new things, my kids were all up on stage doing regaetton with Sharon! that was brilliant even the boys loved it. By 6 i had to pop home to shower and change and drop off the kids, that was the hardest part of the day sitting there waiting for my eldest to come home at 7 was deadly i honestly wanted to go to sleep ! talk about a lightweight !! lol

We went back for the evening party without the kids so could enjoy the mojitos and they didnt let us down, the whole event was one not to be missed, so much atmosphere that place was so alive, we were treated to drumming with Jose and his group, Ariel did Orisha and then had everyone lined up in a mass of excitement and regaetton, i will never forget that night, I had some brilliant dances with my fella not to mention some of the guys there, they are the ones i used to look at it owe and would hide up or pretent to be changing my shoes when they even so much as looked at me, now we're dancing with them ! it was totally amazing..

Tuesday: I woke up again with a dreaded migraine, serves me right for doing so much the last 2 days, using energy i didnt have but decided id find it anyway , I paid the price.. Id still do the same tomorrow though and wouldnt have changed a thing, sadly i missed my riding as i wasnt fit to ride, the day was a blur of sleep and elephants in my head...hehe

Wed; I finally started to load in the new gear ! its taken me days, we were either out with our friends or me in bed in between so i was glad to see the site filling up again..

I wore one of my new silk dresses to the salsa evening and have never had so many compliments! im getting better at being able to wear dresses now and enjoy wearing them to dance in... some of the girls have ordered them so if we all turn up dressed in the same we will just join up to do rueda !! lol where theres a will theres a way, dont they say.. :)

Thursday: Again back to salsa ! my god are my legs killing me now, I had the most amazing dance with a young man who certainly knows how to shake it..lol My word that danced pushed me but apart from standing on him at the start (nerves) i got through it and went home knackered and completely on a high !! a few of us girls sat outside under the stars last night to cool off, it was breath takingly beautiful , the moon was so low it felt like you could reach out and touch it ! Thursday nights are amazing up there, we have such a brilliant group of friends, it feels like you're part of something really special.......

Today; Im a wee bit stiff i will admit ( understatement) but have managed to get through the housework and orders, so im gonna try enjoy the sunhsine, my house is empty (and very peaceful) the kids are all out and my fella is in a meeting for the afternoon.. lol Ill tell him ive been really busy of course, but go sneak out in the garden to do some sunbathing..hehe

Tonight we are out again ! theres a salsa night at the Talk not to be missed ! so im not gonna..lol

Tomorrow im aiming to hit the Keir and Rompe the night away in style... so by next week i should be feeling so fit ! .................

Fit to drop of course.... lol

Have a brilliant weekend everyone...

My Week

Its been a lovely couple of days. We took the kids to the beach Sunday which they really enjoyed, it made me giggle as whatever they are doing they kept popping their heads up to make sure we were still there, We went and sat in the dunes away from the wind which was lovely, its the first time this year I have seen the sea! just listening to it made me feel peaceful..
Last night was riding, my god was i excited ! I missed last week as i had to have some iron injections and wasnt allowed to ride or drive, god did i miss it.
My fella was a gem and took Lauren to her class for me so i could carry on working as i wanted to be off the computer last night and was up against time, usually im running on monday nights trying to get her there and be on time myself but its worth all the hassle though i really love being up there. Next week im planning on doing a bit more, its been a hard couple of weeks with the work so im rewarding myself and doing more of that stuff i enjoy so much.

Last night i was riding Fudge, hes a lovely little chap and was well behaved for me we got to put the horses out in the fields again after the lesson, that to me really hits home springs arrived, taking off their head collars and watching them run free round those fields is priceless, i end up getting home later and later now which considering i ride at 6.30 makes me giggle as i still get home at the time i did when i was riding at 8.30 ! Kevins got us all sitting on barrells next week which will definately be one for the camera..lol
Im booking a hack now its warmer and asking claire if she'll take some photos for me, Lauren went out on her first hack last week and didnt stop talking for a week! Im so jealous i cant wait to head off through those fields...

Today im doing a little bit of everything, a bit more listing, slot in a bit of gardening and finishing with a spring clean in my home, my fellas gone out so the musics up loud and im willy'ing round the lounge ! hehe no i havent spelt that wrong its my favourite salsa track at the moment....
los Campeones de la Salsa
Not only does he have me shimmeeing round the lounge today looking at him has made me rather hot too !
Anyway have a great day everyone......................

Dont You Remember

What a week its been, It was riding monday with Kevin and the girls, my word i knew id been sitting on that saddle for two hours...lol

He was getting us to do stuff we havent done before like trotting round on our horses standing up !! its harder than it looks but the lesson was such a great one, I love the group hes put me with we all have a giggle and torment him throughout the class, it also gives me something to work at as these guys are all so much more better than me at riding, so it pushes me on to do stuff i wouldnt normally get the chance to do, im really pleased with the way im progressing and always wake up mondays jumping out of bed, well it makes so much difference when you know youre looking forward to the day to come...

Ive been working on samples all week which had made the week fly by again, the custmers seem to love them so although its more work just listing ones its also interesting for me, so guess what im doing again this week..lol

Last night it was dancing our cuban salsa time, i seem to get worse now every week talk about look forward to Thursdays, the best part is were getting to do this twice a week from next week too! I cant wait..... Sharon and Richard are doing another class on Tuesdays so guess who put her name down for that one..hehe its not just me I know half of our class are also going along, its going to be in acle so for any of you guys that want to try/or already know some salsa that live nearby or in Yarmouth come along and join in the fun... you wont be dissapointed..

Last night Sharon worked on tapping and on getting the women to use their hips to really bring to life the movements, I have to giggle to myself when anyone mentions hips, what the hells happened to mine, im sure im smaller? im getting wise as im now sticking on long tops (baggy ones) with big hip belts over to try and make it look like i have a little part sticking out there, but for whatever i lack in curves ill definately try hard..

We did the normal class last night and then Richard bless decided it was time for 'here come the girls' time and he stuck on two regaetton tracks, that stuffs addictive ! theres not a face in the place without a beaming smile and the guys dont seem to mind either................lol

Richards made my week complete and has given me that track i was after ' Dont you remember' so i gave myself a little treat and bought myself a brand new mp3 player, its a samsung one and sounds unbelievably wicked, so track no one is now that followed by all my favourites that ill be wiggling away to throughout the day, if ive got music in my day im always happy, so to get that song thats been going through my head all week is brilliant, theres something about it that brings out my fun head and i just cant help myself when i hear it.......

As usual i took my camera last night so theres plenty of shots to show you what you're all missing..

Tonight were off to our friends house for 'meals on wheels' and of course salsa dancing thrown in somewhere through the night so im taking it easy today and just doing what i have to, blaming royal mail for the slow service today.................hehe

Tomorrow i start photos again, which im greatly looking forward to.. its gonna be a brilliant weekend......... I just know............

Creative Day

Is it Friday already....lol wheres the week gone..

Its been another good one again, im doing all sorts of stuff this end now but im really enjoying myself..

I set myself a challenge last week so today will be spending the day on a sewing machine, im looking forward to this..

The kids have just left for school, my fella has left for a very important meeting and im left with a sink full of washing up and a trail of kids stuff that just miraculously got there by itself again..lol

But today ill get done quick as i know the days mine to do Jos stuff, they will only wreck it when they get home anyway, ill tell myself that one and bypass a few of the jobs...hehe

I have to say im so proud of my kids, yes they are messy (i was too at that age) they argue (so did i with my sisters) but they are all kind hearted and never fail to tell me how much they love me everyday when they walk out of that door, it makes every morning special for me..

I came back from salsa last night to find pictures all over the kitchen... Brandon had been designing clothes ! there was also picture of the dress i was making on my manequin, i was pretty shocked just how good he really is, he may not be top of the class in writing but his drawing skills are incredible...

Theres so much going on at the moment i cant say my lifes boring...

Ive decided im finishing the dress today as it cant sit there forever, i was intending to wear it when i eventually did tie the knot down the beach, but my tastes have changed so im going to stick it in the site instead, i have bags of stuff that never got finished and my challenge is to work through every garment and finish the lot ! lol my fellas been helping me sort out whats what so im going to get my creative head working again and do something positive with it ..

Last night we were with Sharon and Richard at the Staithe for our salsa lesson, my legs werent quite as bad as last weeks (i couldn't do anything right) hehe.. but our night was cut short sadly as my fella was in pain and couldnt dance as he usually loves to , so we learnt the routine Richard showed us and are going to spend some time this weekend getting that right, its the healthiest ive felt for months so a great way to keep that feeling..

Today i also need to book tickets for the salsa night at the Talk http://www.dancecuban.net/section/1/articles/reviews-on-cuban-groups-and-events/la-cuban-ritmo/ theres a band coming that noone wants to miss on the 7th February (including me..oh yes!) so along with a group of our good friends we are going along, theres so many good gigs and events happening at the moment.... so much to look forward to is always good in my books...

Im excited this morning for my fella, hes got probably the most important meeting hes ever had, so my thoughts and love are sitting in that seat beside him today..

When i told him that this morning he laughed and said " That means they will be asleep then like you always are in the car" .... lol

Have a great day everyone, when i finish this dress ill post a photo for you all to see...

Hot Salsa Nights

Last night was belly dancing and salsa.. oh my word what a brilliant night We had it was such good fun...

The belly dancing showed me how stiff ive become over xmas as although i havent got much hip didnt i struggle to get them wiggling, i was as stiff as a board from riding the night before so couldnt get the coins to jingle on my belt..lol (im gonna cheat next week and make everyone giggle with my fellas xmas pressie he got me....you know what im talking about dont you Sharon and Stell.... im gonna wear them just to see if it works..lol

We had great fun in the class and instead of Lorraine taking it easy on us (as i hoped) she certainly made up for my weeks off and made the class a testing but good one, by the end of the lesson i was starting to already feel knackered and id still got a 2 hour salsa class to get through... serves me right for cramming so much in this week..lol

The salsa though i didnt have to worry about, thanks to the hip shaking warm up, i wasnt as bad as i thought id be, its been a while since weve done cross body style and although i was told im moving cuban style (hehe) i did really have a go and really enjoyed the class ..

I got to partner some great guys last night and had such a giggle in the process, deriks back to classes now full time so i made sure i kept grabbing him, hes such a nice bloke and brilliant fun we spend half the time trying to stop laughing as i sing to him as we go along (badly too).. my fella was kept entertained all night but looked more than happu as i couldnt get near him ... lol one lady was chatting him up and believes hes single, so i left him to it but had enormous fun watching him turn red.. hehe

We finished the night off in the bar (no vodka though) a group of us all got together to catch up and see what things we could plan for this year, between us we should be able to come up with some great nights out.. the last time we were all together was on the salsa boat and as that feels like such a long time ago now we have lots to catch up on....

Last night I slept like a baby, I felt so happy when I got home and didnt eat the fridge as i used to do. I was happy that we picked up where we left off with last years fun stuff, so will keep this feel good feeling and make sure im there every week now..

Tonight i have a cosy night in planned, im putting the kids to bed early grabbing my fella loads of candles and having a long soak in that bath (yes together) hes promised me i dont have to sit on the plug as usual so its a date.. We're cooking something nice and enjoying a night in..

As tomorrow it all starts again........... my favourite night of the week.. oh Yes! Stalham and Sharon and Richards cuban class.. I may be a little stiff at the moment but we're going to try sort that out tonight by dirty dancing round the lounge, so will be back to full force and ready to salsa by tomorrow.. I cant wait......

I actually think i have salsa withdrawl syptoms today as i just heard shakiras hips dont lie and felt my spirit soar, its like feeling the sun on your face from inside out...

It may be cold outside but these hot salsa nights bring warmth, fun and so much more than just dancing..

Who cares about the weather eh..... not me today..lol

Back To Life

Its been a manic start to the week as i expected, trying to get everyone back to school and finding that enthusiasm to start work again....I took time out from work for a change and actually got myself well and rested up all ready for the new year..

Yesterday was a busy day, i have all sorts of plans for 2009 starting with lots more salsa and riding so last night i went to the stables to kick that one off....lol It was snowing when we walked the horses down and although cold, it was totally magical...

The group is such a laugh, there were 9 of us in last nights group which is the most ive ever been with, with me spending most of the night watching the guys arse in front of me....lol i know its not polite to stare but he had the tightest jodhpurs on ive ever seen and i couldnt stop laughing watching him rise and trot, it did start and finish the night hillariously funny for me.. jodhpurs really are a no no for some guys! hes so posh but was so nice to me, i actually felt guitly knowing id been sitting there behind him in hysterics..oops ...lol

Tonight im taking on the belly dancing and salsa class all in one night again ! ive missed my friends over xmas so arranged to meet up with Stelli and go shake some hips that i havent got..lol I know im going to ache tomorrow but im starting how i intend to go on so 4 hours of vigerous dancing should start the ball rolling and hopefully start getting me back into shape...

I hope this year i can start finding that confidence to start more of the armwork and body movement, im fine when ive had a vodka but cant do the spins very well then..hehe so i need to push myself a bit more now..

I had to giggle last night when i preparing for riding the triplets were obviously all tired from their first day back to school as one by one i watched them all fall asleep on the sofa, so i covered them up and then went to get dressed , when i came down my fella was out for the count, its not easy sometimes to find your get up and go, especially watching the snow fall outside knowing you are gonna freeze, but somehow as soon as im up the stables i just come to life, the best part for me is wrapping the horses up ready for bed and knowing youve done something nice for them...

Ive met some really nice people there, they are all such characters but i think thats why i fit in so well, nobody judges, just tries to have fun while learning something good.

This year i am trying to do more jumping, im crazing Kevin , him and claire are both amazing, Ive always wanted to be able to ride well enough i can go off up the beach ... No amount of money anyone could offer would better that for me, its been a dream for a long time to go cantering off up that sand, so instead of just dreaming im going to try and make it happen..

Dance Cuban Xmas Party

What a night we all had ! ive got a mojito hangover............lol

Last night was the http://www.dancecuban.net/ Christmas party.... Oh what a night !

The mojitos were flowing, everyone was dancing the night away in true cuban style with the best bunch of people you could ask for...

Sharon and Richard thanks to all their hard work really gave us all a chistmas party to remember...

We did everything from the conga.... not the type you typically do at weddings, this is far more sexier and so much fun to do everyone in that place was up and shaking the dancefloor, it really was such a brilliant night..

I havent danced for a couple of weeks so was a little stiff to start but with Richard dancing son and Ralph grabbing me for my first cuban salsa dances it soon made me realise what ive been missing.. My fella was on fire last night and completely wore me out, its a good job i had extra iron this week i will say, how many spins was he throwing me into............lol

Ive woke up for work today feeling like ive been on holiday, my energy levels are up my smile is fixed to permanent today and thanks to everyone at dance cuban im going to be smiling all the way through xmas..

I also want to thank Sharon and Richard for my beautiful flowers and my fellas gifts, You guys are so thoughtful and kind. you havent just taught us dancing, youve also made us part of a community that is very special to us and everyone in it..

Salsa really has changed everything, ive gone from someone who felt like she was falling to bits last week, to a girl who wants to take on the world today, and its all thanks to you both..

Im sure im not alone here when i send you all my love and wish you both a wonderful, magical xmas..

Last night was made magical because of you guys and a great bunch of people we now call our friends..............thanks guys for such a memorable night..

Cuban salsa is the best thing weve done in 2008 so heres to many more salsa parties in 2009 and sore feet (cuban style of course).. hehe

Happy christmas ..........rompe! rompe! rompe!.................