Get me into there

Its nearly here Estelles all packed and ready to go, so weve spent yesterday stocktaking... so i can at least keep things running as smooth as possible on my own...... it wasnt fun at all

Its been totally nuts at work since friday night, the phones havent stopped and im needing to get back to paris quick ..so it looks like im heading further afield next week ..

I am supposed to be in London at the weekend, but Ive been playing the dizzy blonde at the office and falling about on the floor again but i have hurt my head and shoulder , as i went down this time on a concrete floor, which wasn't so kind to me..., so we are not going anywhere til at least Tuesday that way i can rest up this weekend and clean the house instead ...lol

Ive been scanning the net looking for a holiday, its because its cold i start dreaming about the sun.... a month in that jungle would have been my ideal place, but as im not a celebrity they wont let me in.......... lol

They did it in big brother so why on earth they wont let me have a go i don't know.... im happy to eat anything or stick my head in a hole full of cockroaches, snakes or leeches im used to that anyway.......... and id get a nice tan whilst loosing all that weight.....lol

Im not a celebrity but get me into there...............................please ........hehe

Makeover

Ive decided that as the seasons are all changing, its time i had one too....lol

So ive had a good think about what id like to do and decided its time for me to spend a little time on myself.. starting with my unruly hair..............

Don't get worried here Steve, im not cutting it, just making it a bit more wind friendly..lol

I want to get it spiralled... its now long enough, and after spending hours trying to scrunch my straight hair into anything resembling a curl is hard work ! i hate gunk and sprays and if i saw a hairspray can id run a mile .

So i need a look that looks like ive just got out of bed with style ..lol

That way when i do wake with those birds i wont have to worry about hairdryers or curl sprays just enjoy my day and not spend time fighting with a hairdryer ...lol

Talking to my fella tonight i agree, when women get to a certain age they do mostly go for short back and sides, probably as we have spent years trying to style it and get fed up with trying so go for the easy maintenance option...... but apart from my fella leaving me if i got out those scissors, i actually really want to keep growing mine, i just need a style that's easy to put up when i need it out of the way, and wear loosely down , for when i get on that horse.....lol

Im having a mini break this weekend and heading off to London with my fella but as soon as i get back im booking in to my much neglected hairdresser and getting it done....

Happy birthday

Its certainly been a happy one for the kids...

Today they hit double figures and my house has been far from quiet..lol

Estelle has made the day today, for someone who has no children she has really made my kids birthday special... and spent her day entertaining them with face painting and balloon modelling... She really is such a gem.... and i owe her a huge thank you for today...

They were hypo all day and since they got up so early, have worn me out, so although my partners hitting the wine, im hitting the sack..lol

Weve had a day of fun music and games and far too much food ...lol

They were really pleased and thankful for everything they got and although half of my lot didnt even bother getting them a card, they are happy and full of chocolate cake tonight.. so im happy...

I know its their day... but i look back to the night i had them and am thankful that what turned into a nightmare that night, has turned into something to celebrate today...

Happy birthday to my little trio ...

Free spirited

I'm back from a riding lesson in the rain today........wehhheeeeee wheres my cowboy hat...

What a way to wake up! its better than sex..

The horse was having a fast day (i was warned) so ive just had the most exhilarating ride.

He didn't want to trot, he wanted to run free (i get that same feeling sometimes too) so we got permission from Sarah to just go with the flow.......

My daughter bless got to ride a proper horse today too, shes now off the pony and on one nearly as big as mine, but seems to have found her confidence now , we both really enjoy our girly morning out....... ive even given up vodka Friday nights...lol

Its been a brilliant week, im focused, content and although i still have mixed feelings about my encounter last night, ill take the positives (true or untrue) and use them to my advantage... if you feel positive it usually comes back round... so from today im only wearing sexy confident G strings .........lol

Its the triplets birthday tomorrow, they will be 10 (ive survived to double figures) lol

So we will all celebrate here and enjoy the rest of the weekend.....

Ive been out 5 times in a week (that's unheard of) done things i wouldn't normally have done and really enjoyed what the week has brought me......

The best bit of today was showing the proofs of last weeks calender shoot to my fella...hehe (ill be posting those next week)...

He looked shocked at my jumping ones, but looked really pleased and says hes happy ive found something that i love and although it can be dangerous (no more than me on brandy) hes really happy for me and with how im progressing........... and to make sure i save him a ticket on that front row, on my first show...

And that i look like a real lady.....................mmmmm (what in wellies !)

I prefer a puss in boots look best........hehehehe

Guardians

Lol........I got roped into going to see a medium last night with my friend, i didn't know much about it until i got there only that i had to be at her house at 6.30.

We walked into this room and one lady who was standing at the door asked me not to speak or disclose anything, that they would tell me..lol they?

And indeed there were two of them, one who claims she mediates between the spiritual world and one lady who draws pictures of our guides........... i thought Halloween had been and gone..lol

So sceptically i sat there listening to what she told my friend... although i must admit she got her spot on.......

Then it came to me...lol

She started walking backwards and forwards madly (at this point i did giggle) and said i was taking one step forward and one backwards, and that had to change, i didn't say a word just sat there, and off she went into what shocked the life out of me...

She said i had a spirit who walks with me who still holds great love for me, he is male 5'9 tall dark hair and is skinny, he stands there with his right hand in his pocket... bit spooky now, as shes describing my friend to a Tee who i lost.......

Next came.......... he died from cancer, the cancer was spreading everywhere, but he was holding his head ....with his shoulders slumped forward as he was in pain......

And he has a message for you.............

At this point i didn't know what to believe, and was pretty uncomfortable, there was non of this generalising stuff ,that they put the feela's out to people and wait for our responses, i didnt say one word... she just sat there talking about my spirit....

Then came all the stuff apparently he wanted me to know and change about my life (this bits good)

She went on to describe me as the maypole, my family and people around me would come in take a chunk , all day long constantly gossiping about me, constantly taking their pecks together keeping me down in spirit.......(that parts right)

she told me to start telling them NO and tell them what they are doing and how it makes me feel, i have to start putting myself first sometimes..

That i keep searching and searching for something that i don't know what it is.... apparently they do...........lol

My life shouldn't be all up and down from now on and i should have confidence within myself as i can do this, and that now is the time to start again and dont let people mess me about anymore... (im quoting this from my letter she gave me so its a little weird, especially at this time in the morning) ..lol

There are people in my life i don't need to have around me (haven't we all) and my spirit said its time to do that gardening and weed out the ones that i dont need anymore..... (ill get my gloves on then) hehe

and a few more things i cant put into this blog as they were pretty personal and regardless if they are true, come true or not, im not totally nuts here, and am not telling you lot about that part.. but it was very graphic......lol

But she went on for over an hour, one by one without me saying a word, with another lady writing everything down for me to read later....... so it was quite an eventful night........

Her closing speech was that my spirits always been there and is trying to push me upwards and forwards now.... lol

But it had the strangest ending........

Her friend who was drawing away madly up a corner then gave me a drawing of the guy she claims is my guardian.. and F*** me that part shocked the shit out of me it was a guy dressed in west ham colours and looked just like my friend, he even had a wonky nose..........

At this point.........it was time for my sharp exit.......so i went home .............

Just in time for a vodka...................lol

Happy holidays

Its friday.....................yipeeeeeee

Its been a really good week, I was out playing with snow machines and reindeer last night (they are so cute) with a group of our friends and my kids, so that was great fun and ive been roped into going to see a medium tonight, so that will definately be different, so all in all its been a very entertaining week...lol

Yesterday i had to do some pictures, and had to wear a leather corset ! lol but me and Estelle ended up in stictches laughing trying to get into it... i couldnt breathe..lol (but at last i had a waistline)

What started off as i had to model one pair of gloves ended up a complete shambles, i just couldnt stop giggling to do them.. my fella then decided to give up and we went home..oops

Anyway as Estelle told her fella last night she was riding me at work ! i thought id post the pictures so he can see that she was actually trying to fasten my corset... and put the poor bloke out of his misery...... We do work hard yes ........lol

But we have a great place to work and enjoy the fun...

But as Estelle is leaving for her American holiday on friday, i am going to miss the fun..

and wish them both a very happy holiday... see you guys in a month...........

God its going to be boring in that office......lol

Home again

We just arrived home, thankfully, i dont know why i was so worried this time, but i was...

Paris went well, we got there after 9 hours of driving, spent 3 hours doing what was needed and drove home, so although it was a 16 hour long drive, i get to spent hours talking to my fella and we really enjoyed the conversation..

We are both really tired tonight, i have no excuse,as i was just a passenger, but my partner was superman, i dont know anyone who drives the way he does, he just takes it all in his stride, but i did stay awake this time to make sure he kept entertained, i wasnt about to sleep when i was so nervous on this trip anyway..i couldnt sing sadly as my voice has gone ... sulk... so i talked for England

We had a lovely little place to stay in, the bed was comfy wasnt held up with celotape... and the place was really beautifully lit, so it was just what was needed after that drive, and better than sleeping in that car park like last time..lol

Our conversation this trip was all about feel good stuff, not work !........... thats a first.........lol

What we need to get ourselves back to feeling good and getting back to best, i am going to cover for my fella and visa versa... all this works fine (as its done now) but how long do you put yourself on that backburner before you need to kick start yourself again... that times now... or you get too stuck on Coronation street and stuck to the sofa like a toffee wrapper...lol

So tomorrow we start... if i do what ive said , ill reward myself.....( have my belly button peirced).............and ride a horse up a beach on my birthday...... lol...

My fella will be rewarded beyond what im inclinded to mention in a blog, without embarrasing him... (but i will post photos!) hehe.....

And we will both feel so much better than we did last week..... the biggest positive...

So the trip was very worthwhile not just in material things, but also spiritual........

It was really funny driving home as we were about 30 miles off from Norwich when a silver car came flying past us with a girl hanging out of the window waving arms and head about, we both laughed as i have a habit of doing that exact same thing (and slapping cyclists bums up burma road on the way home from work... ) yes it was me...

So if you are one of those cyclists that wondered why some blonde woman , waving a blind stick was hitting you on the bum, now you know why lol.......... its just something that keeps those long journeys entertaining....lol .....sorry

and bugger me when we stopped at the traffic lights if it wasnt Estelle with Simon.........

so if you see us girls on our way home from work..... be ready...........lol

My travel bugs contagious...........

Weekend break

Its been a brilliant morning..... what a way to wake up.. ive been with Lauren to our photo shoot on the horses........... i don't know who was more excited her or me, i was up at 5am and watching the clock............lol

The horses behaved so well for us, even if it was normally their day off, i fed them polos, gave them a huge kiss and hoped that made up for it...

We did trotting, cantering and jumping with the photographer not threatening to quit...he was smiling away, so thats a first, and i get to keep my head.......hehe

I also got to dress up along with my horses with tinsell witches hats and giant rabbits.. so it was a real giggle, riding Sorrel wearing red devils antlers...... lol

I got to ride bare back with Lauren sitting on the horse with me too, so that mum and daughter bond is getting stronger by the day now, we were giggling so much as she held the leads on my horse as she is only used to a pony, so when Sorrel put his head down she went flying over his head, kicking me in the ribs on the way over..lol

youll all get to see the photos next week complete with boot marks..........lol

Its been such a really lovely weekend, but ive only now got just over an hour to prepare the house and kids before we leave for Paris..........

I was so deep in thought last night in bed,i couldnt sleep, its the simplest things that make me feel happy, and this weekend doing simple things has really made me feel like a different person... the one i used to be....

So although travelling to Paris worries me alot, because of driving there and back safely,(they drive like looneys) so if i do happen to get my calling today ........... at least you all know i went smiling............ lol

I even managed to get all my work done ! yes im up to date with everything ....(i cant quite believe it either) lol

So from tuesady its normal hours, and so much more of this lovely simple stuff.......

Im going to sit under a snow machine next week and stroke a reindeer.............hehe

Bonfires and Bangers

We went out tonight and took the kids to Corpusty for their local bonfire and firework celebration....

We had a totally brilliant night.. the kids really enjoyed it and i was really pleased it hadn't changed from the last time we were there..

It starts off with the locals all dressing up taking the guy and a parade all round the village, most of the people were outside the pub all enjoying the character of the night, everyone seemed so friendly..

There was a guy playing his guitar singing brilliantly through huge speakers to the dancing town centre so i had a dance with the kids on the green and one by one we went through the hot dog and jacket potato stands..lol they certainly know how to throw a party there, it was one of the best bonfire nights ive ever had..

Theres non of this pay on the gate lark, you just put into a collection pot whatever you can afford so families are encouraged there,as you don't need a mortgage to get in, not like some of the big displays where they charge you per adult or child, ive been to these displays and just like they have done to Xmas they have taken the fun away from what we originally celebrated and over commercialised everything... this is what its all about, everyone joining in and celebrating together, my kids were playing with the locals and in their elements...

We were joined by our friends as they phoned to see where we were going ,so came with us to see if it really was as good as we remembered, the verdict was unanimous... it was .....

The fireworks were the best ive ever seen and the funny guy on the mike went to town as they were in full display and had everyone cracking up, it was just lovely and like stepping back into time...

I took my camera and watched my sons face drop as he really did believe the guy was a real man who the village were setting fire to.....lol (well he is small and i do use the word guy ) but after he knew he seemed to really enjoy his night, i couldn't work out why he was so quiet to start with...

I have to be up early tomorrow, i have to be ready for the riding photos by 9.15 (which is not going to be easy getting my daughter out of bed and dressed to ride..lol but all that fresh air has worn me out so im going to enjoy the rest of those fireworks from my bedroom tonight...

So next year for any of you that live close enough to Norfolk, check it out..it really is something special.. especially if you love getting into the true spirit of things....

I was mesmerised by the grand finale.. it looked like a meteor shower raining down on us and lit up the sky in the most breathtaking gold waterfall, the best bit about sitting round that huge fire for me was watching the flames light up a pitch black clear sky to show me all those huge smiles my kids were hiding, some moments are priceless and tonight was way up there.......

Saturday

It was a late one last night so im struggling to wake up this morning, im trying to squash everything in so im organised for when we make that long drive, i want to be able to come home bang in for 2-3 days and then be in front.......lol that will be a first..

So i worked all night til the early hours and made a good start...

I was singing my head off so did actually enjoy myself....im not sure what my family thinks though..lol

But it was worth it as i am actually on target and rearing to go.......

Its riding this morning so im up a little earlier than usual, i woke up, opened my eyes and thought Saturday.......yes..........lol

Time for breakast shower and get my butt into gear........
I saw this crystal online and loved it and as it stands for something postive i thought id share it with you all ...

Have a great weekend everyone.........

Tied up

Had a lovely night last night, the kids were engrossed in a witch film so the house was as quiet as when they went on holiday..lol

Its Friday again........ yipeeee the weeks seem to fly by but i think most people just want to hibernate away from the cold anyway....

Ive got a brilliant weekend lined up, i have friends visiting tonight, horseriding tomorrow morning and Corpusty sat night ,its a proper old fashioned display, but its great for character as everyones so friendly there...

Its the horseriding calender photos then Sunday morning and Paris in the afternoon.......... I was just going to send my fella but hes bending my arm and wants me to go, so who am i to argue there...so its going to be a busy weekend........lol

No Skeletons

I had a great night last night, i got to spend some time reflecting on the last year and somehow it does seem to settle you inside...

Ive met some lovely people since i started with the group, friends i hope to stay in touch with, people that have inspired me, and helped me to spiritually grow....

You are not judged there, when so many seem to have their own opinions , there it doesnt matter.....

We lit a candle each and everyone made their wishes, the wish i made even surprised me..lol

But it came from the heart........ let the negative stuff stop now, and help me get back to looking for those positives in people........

So as today is the start of a new year, im gonna put back that spring in my stride, book up Paris for next week and hope that this is the start of better times..........

Unwinding

It was a better day today, Estelle's been singing to me at work and the sun was shining away so it was a nice day.....

The kids went off happily this morning and it feels like ive walked in to a different house, its strangely silent (which im not used to ) i do hope they are having a great time ...

I had visitors at the unit today my friends Sarah and Nikita came to see me from riding so i was really pleased, they spent an afternoon at the unit going through the clothes and left with a bin bag so im pleased they liked it, i had to giggle though as when they came into my office the first thing they spotted was my fellas picture hanging up on the wall that our friends presented him with for his 40th.. so as you can imagine it isn't that tame...lol but i had hung over the top of a certain part of his anatomy a 'show me your tackle badge' (to protect his modesty of course) and both girls lifted it up while he sat there! i know i shouldn't have laughed but its the first time this week i did....... i just couldn't stop.............lol

Weve came home to the same tidy house i left this morning, im getting dinner cooked for me and just had a long bubble bath, so im making the most of the next couple of days.......

Tonight i am doing something really nice and doing absolutely nothing..........lol

Couldn't we have this one day a year instead of all those mothers day chocolates...lol

we never get to eat them as the kids always eat them and leave the empty wrappers...

And a day of peace sounds like the perfect treat for all of us mums out there......as it really is a rarity in a house like mine..........

I can even find the remote !!!!!! lol

Weekend round up

Its the day my kids go off on holiday, ive been packing for England and trying not to forget anything they will need.......

Its been a manic weekend, im still not right but trying to pull myself out of it...

Saturday wasnt an easy day, my daughter dissapeared for 3 hours with me sobbing my heart out looking everywhere i could possibly think of, the neighbours were all out in force and so many things go through your head its untrue..

She was playing in our close as shes not allowed any further than that but wasnt there when i went to check, talk about feeling sick, i hope i never have to feel like that again... shes a good girl and always does what i ask if shes playing with her friends so when they said they hadnt seen her all day i went nuts..........

Thankfully she was in her friends house, and her mum had sent the girls brother round to tell me where she was and hed forgotten to come and tell me, so although it really shook me up it was all ok......

Ive decided that im gouing to spend the next 3 days getting myself some rest and having some time for us with my fella, its all been stress, stress, stress........ so thats got to change today..

My eldest is going to stay with my siester for a day or so and im gonna get back what the last few weeks have taken away..

I wasnt well enough sadly to do my calender photos on the horse yesterday , but thankfully they have put my day back til this weekend, so ill still get my change to feel that wind in my hair.....

Knocks and falls

I think Ive had one of those weeks, its not been a very easy one to say the least...

I am the type of person that appreciates those simple things, i don't do stress well (i don't usually let it get to me) and am happy with the quieter things that life can bring.. like the sunshine, watching stars or being near the sea, that to me is as good as anything you could buy and id choose that anytime......

Ive had a pretty hectic few days both with my head being like a spin dryer, chasing my bum to catch up with photos and getting the gear listed and it seems to affected me badly this week.. i just cant get it done...

Whether its because i feel like I'm banging my head up against a wall sometimes or sometimes it would be nice to be just given a break... but i also know i shouldn't even think like that as theres always someone else worse off....... but for the first time in a long while i feel mentally drained...

I know sometimes we have to allow ourselves to hit a lull to then appreciate those good days, but last night i honestly sat here in tears, angry with myself for letting things get to me so much, but also not knowing what i needed to do, so i could feel better in myself......

So tonight ive sat here deep in thought, still pretty tearful, but as the kids are up i have to face away and look like im working as usual........... i need a holiday (that i cant have) but have a good compromise coming as my kids are having the holiday for me this time, Monday with the school, so i guess it will do the same thing and allow me relax a bit... and ill be happy knowing they are all having a great time...... so that parts good

I don't often get ill or run down, so whatever it is that's making me feel like Ive done 13 rounds with Tyson, i hope it soon goes, so i can get back to feeling more like myself again... im not used to this, and neither is anyone around me, they all keep trying to talk to me, when i don't want to talk..

I am grumpy, sore to touch just about everywhere and thoroughly p***** off .......lol

And its not how i wanted to spend a weekend ....

So I'm going to turn off my website tonight, grab a bottle of vodka (im out of brandy) and give myself a genuine reason to why i have a headache from hell..........

I don't normally give up and let the everyday things get to me, so tomorrow Ive got to wake up, pull my boots on, and sort myself out.....

I'm hoping riding will put this week behind me ....

and put back the smile that's missing.......

That will also be another experience...........

horseriding on a hangover............. lol

Virtual worlds

I think ive finally discovered why i am so tired today, ive been poluted with someonbes unwanted bug...lol

My boobs have swelled up to the size of melons and i ache everywhere, thats not fair !

I had the cold and cough last week i dont want something else now, except perhaps a night with a bottle of bubbly and some good conversation (a sexy woman would also be a plus) my kind of naughty girly night in....

My fellas a bit down in the dumps this week, ive tried everything i can think of to cheer him up but its not working, and ive ended up feeling like shit myself...

men eh! lol..........

So ive left him at work came home and boiled myself in the bath trying to get warm, i am now more comfortable and decided as i dont like my reality world at the moment im turning to my virtual one..........

Now there i have no cold no aches just a mind for whatever mischief i can get myself into..... now that really does make me feel better..........lol

I can chuck sheep, or fish buy drinks for everyone and breast rub all my top friends there and not get slapped happily..........hehe

You can see why these sites are so appealing now cant you....

Warmth

Ive been sitting here tonight trying to choose the photos for the images we took today and i am totally brain dead, i promised my fella i would work til i finished and i finished as i said, but what i haven't told him is i am cold to the bone tonight and struggling to stay awake........

I did so well today got 40 lots of photos done of items you really wouldn't want to be walking around in this weather in, did my usual work plus its half term (need i say more there)... but slowly and surely, (boobs and feet first) that colds crept in..lol

Ive hit my brick wall tonight and just want to go to bed quietly, so im leaving him to hopefully put the kids to bed for me and im taking up a brandy to warm up~ as a well earned night~cap (its the only thing you'll ever hear me say, i'll wear in bed).....lol

Do you ever get a day where you've worked your butt off and sit there later regretting it....... thats exactly how i feel tonight, tomorrow i have to do it all again...... but at least i have some leather gloves in that lot, so parts of me will be warm at least....

So as my fella is sitting here engrossed in the football tonight, im going to quietly slip away and leave him to it........

I was rearing to go when i got to work and still am rearing to go now... i guess...

To bed.........lol

I'm going to snuggle under that duvet and get myself warm for the first time today.......

I'm totally done in today........another day tomorrow eh....

Half term

Its been a good day today peaceful in one way, but manic in another..

I started off really chilled sitting in the garden this morning, with the whole house sound asleep and by the end of the day, i was cleaning and throwing out anything that didn't move...lol

I'm not quite sure how it started out, i just couldn't settle today so what started with me emptying a small cupboard went through a whole house...

I'm happy tonight ive done such a good job, but asking myself why .......

I know the little ones will wreck it this week, its half term so not the best time to go into one i suppose...

So Ive poured myself a nice drink, just got out of a lovely bath but am totally shattered, so im going to turn in early with my drink and my candles ....lol

We've tossed the coin tonight to who's getting the kids tomorrow and i won !! lol.. so I am going to work happily and leaving my fella with the wonderful job of entertaining the kids.. hehe

Its a good job its only for one week, hes only just recovered from the last 6 week one , but theres a light at the end of this tunnel and a week tomorrow the triplets go on their first holiday with the school............. so its a few days of freedom for us and the perfect reason to get us through the next week smiling ........

I hope.........lol

Showjumping

Back as usual from riding with my smile permanentaly embeded, it was so good today...(yes i say that every week , but it is..lol)

Lauren is now kitted out completely so shes happy, although we still cannot get her to canter, shes still leaning backwards when she trotts so were just allowing her to build her confidence and not pushing..

Im on such a high..... i just want to shout, grab my cowboy hat and go..lol

The lessons are building well and im now happily able to do most things except what im itching to do..show jump......

Ive done a few really low ones, but today i was told at the end of the lesson ive done so well im now ready, so next saturday i start properly to learn something ive always wanted to do since i was small..

I cant explain the feeling riding gives me every week, im itching to get back there and feel so at home on that horse..

Next sunday is calender day so i get to take my hat off (ive got a posh one now!) and feel that wind in my hair cantering up that field...

Zorrel is the horse i will be jumping with too, so talk about happy........i am glowing today inside out......

My fella looked a little concerned when ive told him, and i know theyd love to wrap us up in cotton wool sometimes, but im not that kind of girl...

I bounce back from most of lifes crap it slings at me, so lets hope i bounce as well if i fall too........

And get straight back on that horse..... lol

Enchantment

Ive had such a brilliant day today, its not the work (i didn't want to work today) it was my evening out last night that's made the difference ...


After picking up my friend who gets as lost as i do , he decided he was going to map read and not drive...so i got the job driving to find a place in the middle of nowhere, which is normally a joke..lol


After nearly driving into a few hedges and yes ill admit getting lost at one point, we actually found it..... wonders never seice to amaze eh! although my driving was extremely bad......lol

We ended up in a place where 'enchanting' was in my head all night, surrounded by such great people the whole night for me was amazing... Ive been smiling all day........


We went to Waxham last year , got caught in the most beautiful storm Ive ever experienced and that's stayed with me all year, and i think last night is another of those special nights where you feel so peaceful will also sit alongside happily..



I couldn't sleep as i had the roundhouse in my thoughts, its beautiful ambient atmosphere with its little fire crackling away and flickering candles , it really was like being in another world..........one which i prefer.. It just goes to show we dont need tvs and all those mod coms, some of the simplest things in life really do make my day....

Its experiences like last night that make me happy inside, i can honestly say i feel bright invigorated and totally at peace with myself today, thanks to our friends there..


So many wonderful characters yet everyone blending together in harmony, its known people say i always look for the best in people, but i think im right to ..


Last night confirms to me that there are very special people out there, who accept you for who you are ... are are happy for me to sing away and be myself..


Listening to Roses giggling away as i was trying not to pee in my boots is something that's made me smile today, but the highlight of my night?


Was the night sky so full of stars that you couldn't help but look up at in amazement, standing in the middle of that meadow in pitch black, it was breathtakingly beautiful, Ive never felt the sky that alive before, its like our nights with our chant friends all hold something magical in store ...


Like those stars and rain and feeling at one with myself, i felt last night like i was coming home...

its a strange feeling, but one Ive embraced, its a feeling like you belong in that place at that time..


Our friends are moving to London so we sent with them our brightest blessings..


And last nights enchantment with such wonderful people have left me with the brightest spirit....


Its my first experience of being at the roundhouse....


But one that will definitely stay with me...

Thank you so much for making me part of it................