Doing It Myself (Not DIY just DIM)

When do you say to yourself enough is enough? I really need go to bed but I'm trying to get this bloody painting done, I'm knackered, i stink, I'm hot and sweaty, covered in paint but not done yet!

My fella phoned so that cheered me up, but hes staying an extra night! which is probably a good job looking round at this place... Why do i do this to myself?

I wanted him to come home last week surprised and love what id done (which he did ) but muggins has took it in her blonde thick head that she wants to decorate the house, am i nuts ? (don't answer that please, i already know the answer)...lol

The kitchen is just about done, just a couple of top coats to the utilities end, but then i have the hall to top coat all over! its a mess, I'm tired and it wont make for good painting as Ive discovered tonight.. more like the 'wonky tonk woman'

The funny part of the day for the kids was mum falling off the worktop (oh yes i can perform acrobatics whilst painting too!) ......they found it highly amusing to see me and Lauren fall in a heap, perhaps they thought they were tears of laughter as Callum came in took one look at us, poured himself a glass of water and walked out as calm as a cucumber !

We couldn't help but giggle even though we were hurting, so i guess it brought a smile to the afternoons misfortune...

Poor Lauren was a bit battered as i fell on her, complete with roller still in hand, head first! Luckily shes bendy and saw the funny side later!! ill count the bruises i have tomorrow when im not so ratty and try to remember, not to stretch while standing on a wet draining board... or better still buy some step ladders and use those!

The hair colour definitely matched the brain cell today.... Oh shit! doesn't provide a safety net, I can painfully vouch for that......

Tomorrow night come what may I'm not going anywhere near a pot of paint, so ill get up early and get this done out of the way, the next time i come up with " Ill keep myself busy while hes away idea" i know what to do... Go riding instead !

Hes going to be away a few days every week now by the looks of it and theres no way i can keep this lot up, Id forgotten how hard it was to juggle, my work, kids, sleepovers (theres 6 up there tonight) packing orders and redecorating as ive discovered today.. I'm dead physically

Probably why my house hasn't been painted for yonks......... (I waited until id forgotten the last time) hehe

I stink, am a lilac shade everywhere, have a bedroom full of moths waiting to pounce, but i just don't care tonight...

......... Ahhhh Sleep is all i can think about...

Sounds wonderfully bliss doesnt it.......... Its 12.29 am so bugger anymore painting tonight...

Im going to bed, hopefully that lot up there will quieten down and let me sleep now. (why do they call them sleepovers, they DONT GO TO SLEEP!) lol

Goodnight all ...

Kick Girl Kick

Yesterday's riding lessons were a total failure, I did my jumping lesson with Jean as usual we were in the outside arena as the sun was in full bloom and lovely, but could i get it right! No is the answer.

I was so annoyed at myself, the jumping and taking the jumps is fine, we are up to 5 jumps but i couldnt get my legs right all the other time..lol

There is such a thing as trying to hard, Wendy said i was doing fine, but you know in yourself when things just wont go so right..

Everytime i tried to get the horses into canter were my legs stiffening up, i can feel them doing it but cant seem to work out how to stop it, its happened before when i first went to red hall, but i felt that part was getting better ~ until yesterday.. one step forward 3 back..lol

I came home dripping with sweat stood in a cold shower for over an hour and went back for my evening lesson with the group, theres a new guy in class whos irish and really excellent at riding, he was telling me he usually does cross country and has been riding a long time and this is the same all round with the ones i seem to be with, so im always the novice girl in the group and the one who messes it all up, i think i was even worse than usual as he was trying to help me..

In the afternoons jumping class i rode Solomen and Jazz, Wendy swaps us about every 15 mins so she can see the reactions of the horses to our riding, mine was easy to see, slow and go slow, last time we were cantering over them all this week i can even get a canter..

I was hoping last night would restore my faith in myself so went back with what i hoped was a less defeative attitude, but i got a bugger of a horse who spent the night trying to buck me over his head..

Its amusing to think of today as he was being really naughty and Kevin said hes known to do it, but apparently i got him on one of his worst days where everytime we went past Kevin the bloody thing bolted and bucked away showing his dislike, acting just like a spoilt brat whilst spitting his dummy out! he really wouldn't play ball.

I managed to stay in the saddle so im proud of that part but came home nearly in tears as i really was trying so hard ,yet everything i did lead to the horse sticking his head down and his arse up in the air as far as he could get.... hehe

Walking him back to the fields i was giving him a real good talking to, I refused to give the horse a mint for the first time and hope i dont get him again! but knowing Kevin and his sense of humour, ill be lined up on him again next week ! Bring back Jack eh... even hes good compaired to Shamus last night...

I hurt in places today i didnt know i had muscles, and am lined up for 3 back to back nights of salsa starting tonight so hopefully that will go better than yesterdays performances at the stables... The ironic part is i wish i could go back today and try again, i know where i went wrong and will have to wait til next week now to see if i can get it right. its just the same as this people thing i struggle with..

Im not just bloody soft with people, its horses now too........

Give me a deserted island and my fella anyday...

At least i dont need a whip to get him to ride................hehe

Sunshine and showers

Its been quite an eventful couple of days, we've both been working like mad this end, none of us particularly felt very energetic but we've got it done, thankfully.

I have got the paint tins out but sadly that's only as far as ive managed, i keep looking at them so who knows tonight may just be the night..

My fella has a meeting tonight so its the perfect time to get busy, ive been given tamiflu so have to stay indoors until tomorrow, i thought i was really tired last week and was riddled with headaches and aches and pains but just put it down to low iron and a period but the drs think i had swine flue... well that just goes to prove my theory on myself ! i am a bloody swine then.......hehe

Today we had a phone call and the unit that i use to store my machines and endless things we need here but need to make room to bring home, has been broken into.. im praying my sons drum kit isn't one of the things that's missing, it was his Xmas pressie that we struggled to save up for, we moved it into storage for a couple of weeks along with a fair bit of the kids stuff so i could get their bedrooms sorted out, i haven't decorated up there since they were one and it badly needs a coat of paint, I know times are hard but stealing in my books is disgusting.. If you want something then you should bloody work and save for it! I have to and teach my kids to do the same thing so its not going to be nice explaining that what little bits they did have have been stolen...arseholes keeps coming to mind today.. but as my fella said some things can never be taken away eh ! and id rather have my kids and fella than anything materialistic... Sometimes its not so easy though to stay optimistic and i have to kick myself back into reality when my mind goes off wandering into forbidden things called holidays....hehe

My mum phoned last night from Tobago screaming that her fella had been eaten by a shark! not the normal "hello Jo, how are you all call" What on earth do you say to that one? it sure was a long night... Thankfully he was found safe but struggling with cramp after 4 hours treading water by the coastguard. Hes captain of a boat out there and scuba diver instructor, they were out looking for lobsters and something went wrong but it did make me think, what would happen to mum if anything happened to Lem? shes built her life out there around him .. i wouldn't like to think of her out there alone thats for sure, hes a big bloke and known on the island not to mess with, so mums safe with him, im not so sure it would be like that without him standing beside her though.

Anyway its time to cook and pick up that paintbrush, my fella will be arriving back soon with his guests so its time for me to make myself invisible..........

Yes im going to pick up that paintbrush too tonight and get it done !

Tomorrow the suns coming to visit again and im not being stuck in here all weekend again, last weekend was bad enough i didn't see my fella at all, as he was doing the course during the days and working online when he got home, so this weekend im dragging him off the computer and taking some time out together...

Have a great weekend everybody, enjoy the sunshine............

Running In Circles

Its been a manic week, so much to do but I'm slowing getting through it all.

Monday was riding which turned out to be a really exciting night. I was riding Jack again, who's turning out somehow to be my favourite horse, yes hes a nutcase but if you get him in a good mood hes amazing, its just sitting outside and waiting for the other riders he doesn't seem to like much, neither do i ! its like playing chess riding him, every move has a consequence so you have to think fast! a friend who's usually in the later class came early and joined our group, she was only coming over to say Hi and was riding Pip but Jacks ears went straight back and he started stomping his feet about again, its the only time I'm nervous on that horse probably as i know its concrete underneath, Ive learnt to keep him well away from anything now, I don't know yet if they will let me ride him yet in my jumping class, but id like to try so have mentioned it, Ive been told he loves to jump so I'm prepared for hard lesson but will make sure i think ahead and stay focussed, even if i have to work up to him its worth the wait, i enjoy a challenge and would love to feel how he jumps..

Only 3 of us were there for the horse care course afterwards this week, i wasn't sure of what we were doing but was still looking forward to it, it turned out that we were all going to try lunging!

Kevin showed us what to do and in turn we all had a go, it was one of his beautiful horses Wesley that we lunged hes 3 and so elegant, but hasn't even been ridden so for the last week they have been working on getting him familiar with the reins and commands, the first part went lovely Kevin was brilliant and so was my friend when she took over from him.

It was then time to change the reins so Kevin called me over, i was nervous i wont say i wasn't, the horse is huge and wild in that respect but i listened carefully and tried my best to sooth and talk to him as he was doing his circles, it wasn't all smooth sailing as when i first started he didn't just speed up into trot he took off ! thankfully all those Fridays walking the horses in and out of those fields paid off, I didn't panic, instead dug in my heels and tried to get him calmer and more happy, Kevin told us afterwards hes fine one way but as soon as he runs the opposite way he gets a bit temperamental..lol that's an understatement, you can feel the power down that lead its amazing, the hardest part i found was keeping the whip up and working in a triangle, you are concentrating so hard to make sure he doesn't run in towards you and keeping his balance going well there are a million things running round up there in your head that are all needed to be in use at once. I really enjoyed the night, came home aching just about everywhere as usual but went to sleep smiling, it had been a busy but really good day.

The rest of the week has been working and what seems endless kids stuff to get through, its coming up to summer holidays so all the paperwork needs to be in and i have to get organised before they break up. Ive spent hours filling in all the high school forms out by the triple batch, after a while it gets really frustrating, the uniforms are now ordered for next week and I'm slowing getting there.. today was quite a comedy day as i had 2 school plays to sit through, packing and posting orders before i left, straight into a meeting at the high school, then onto the college for my eldest sons diploma and to see his tutors ! i was knackered .. It seems so strange that the triplets are moving up to high school in September, they still look so small. or is that me just being a typical mum? they are all really excited and looking forward to telling everyone they are nearly teenagers....hehe

My fella wasn't in the best mood and didn't want to go to the school play he moaned sufficiently enough that i just went on my own without complaint ( its easier that way sometimes..lol )the poor cleaners had to direct me back to my car though, as i had walked past the same lady 3 times! how could i have got lost in there, its embarrassing, some things never change for the better do they! my sense of direction will always be useless.

I'm sure that's the only reason i did OK with the lunging, the horse only needs to run round in a circle, it would have been a different story if id needed to find my way round a course! ....lol

Men !

I'm having a good old rant tonight, just to clear the air of all these blue words i keep wanting to shout at my fella....lol

Why is it men accuse us women of talking too much? its not us, its them !! he honestly doesn't stop or shut up sometimes..hehe

(its our 16th anniversary next Saturday too) aren't i that kind considerate partner sometimes..lol

Tonight i was promised a meal together, time out and off the computers and what do i get ? on my own again !!

"I'll be just ten more Min's Jo" which was only 97 Min's ago and hes still jabbering away on Skype, thank god they called him.......

The dinner (smoked haddock) is still sitting in the fridge, Ive taken the kids out to the fair he promised to do the parental duty with and attend with me at the school, I was bored silly on my own, the kids kept shouting "please come here mum, look at this" (that means i need some money) so when i ran out i decided id come back and leave them to it, i want to go throw a bucket of water over his head at the moment as im tired and hungry, so decided its better to talk to you guys instead and calm down...

is throwing things allowed if it doesn't hurt them? or shall i put it down to just being tired and go sit in the bath with my headset..

its been a busy week, neither of us has stopped and i know we both need to (ok well i need to, he has other ideas)... trouble is getting him to switch off - he really loves to work and loves what he does ! so i guess i should stop being a grump and just cook the meal for him...

He had a really good meeting today and landed himself a brilliant website to build so is on a high, i am really pleased for him and proud of what hes done as this beauty will also be a second income for us both as we get a percentage of anything that sells , but since he got home at 3pm i haven't managed a word yet, as i cant get him off that phone, its past 7pm .....

I love his company so even for an hour, so if hes not out of that unit by 8 I'm off ! I'll pinch the car and go off wandering somewhere in protest, probably to the nearest fish and chip shop as im starving..lol

It is a case of all work no play this week, I understand why and accepted that without complaint so buried my head into J-lou and the website blog and allowed him time, but once i get him inside the house tonight I'm hiding up those keys so he cant get in to get his laptop out, that way he will have no choice but to spend some time out with his grumpy partner ....lol

Anyway thanks for listening you guys ! i feel better already and you've just saved him from getting wet................hehe

Iron deficiency - Out of Steam

Ive been confined to home today.. how boring is that !

I was supposed to be doing something different but yesterday proved to be another day of passing out on everyone so I'm not allowed out to play !! lol

No seriously i really wasn't well, all day i felt dizzy until eventually i passed out again, god Im giving all those jokes about dizzy blonde's so much ammunition....lol

I did speak to a Dr whos suggesting a blood transfusion now, this just gets better...... now i have bad blood too ? if they cant get the iron into your blood then they will give you blood with iron in it..

Some days im fine but then some days im waking up feeling like ive drunk a bottle of vodka and it isnt nice, i had to miss salsa Thursday because the same thing happened, perhaps i really am just dizzy....

I had no idea anemia can be such a pain, the fainting is one thing but when i wake up i have a stinking headache, pins and needles in my face and cant see clearly for hours, so if anyones got any good ideas to try, please pass them on.......

Meanwhile my fella and Mark are in Birmingham (looking very smart in their suits i must add) and im stuck wondering what to do with myself, i had the day planned but don't want to worry my fella so i promised id stay at home and take it easy..........god isnt it boring !! lol

Tomorrow im doing photos so im looking forward to that , looking at all that beautiful stuff all hanging ready and not being able to get it listed is frustrating......

Get me into there

Its nearly here Estelles all packed and ready to go, so weve spent yesterday stocktaking... so i can at least keep things running as smooth as possible on my own...... it wasnt fun at all

Its been totally nuts at work since friday night, the phones havent stopped and im needing to get back to paris quick ..so it looks like im heading further afield next week ..

I am supposed to be in London at the weekend, but Ive been playing the dizzy blonde at the office and falling about on the floor again but i have hurt my head and shoulder , as i went down this time on a concrete floor, which wasn't so kind to me..., so we are not going anywhere til at least Tuesday that way i can rest up this weekend and clean the house instead ...lol

Ive been scanning the net looking for a holiday, its because its cold i start dreaming about the sun.... a month in that jungle would have been my ideal place, but as im not a celebrity they wont let me in.......... lol

They did it in big brother so why on earth they wont let me have a go i don't know.... im happy to eat anything or stick my head in a hole full of cockroaches, snakes or leeches im used to that anyway.......... and id get a nice tan whilst loosing all that weight.....lol

Im not a celebrity but get me into there...............................please ........hehe

Mums Joining Royal Mail's Strike

Tonight I'm having a rant..... so i hope i don't offend anyone, but its been quite a day.......and i am very tired...lol

It started off with me working on my own today (which i don't mind) as my girls are both ill with the cold bug i gave them, oops... i don't tend to take much notice when i get ill, as i know i have to keep going anyway, so i went to work normally Monday although i was feeling a bit under the weather but sadly passed it round the office, so I'm still working away and everyone else is off sick.. (that will teach me) ... and if one more person asks me where their parcel is i am going to kill them..lol i am posting everyday but can someone please tell my customers there is a strike on....lol

So today i decided as no one was at the unit, id work from my home computer as its super quick so since 6 this morning Ive been hard at it , trying to get finished, so i could clean up the house... that's the bit whats negged me out a bit.. why am i such a mug sometimes?

My kids have managed to trash my house in 24 hours again, they even went to the extent of hiding crisp packets up under the tv....... so after moving the house about and finding cups wrappers and just about everything you wouldn't want to imagine, i totally ache.....

I tried to get my head round the fact that i was actually pushing myself so hard today just so i can do exactly the same thing again in 24 hours and it had me thinking....

So after speaking to my fella who wholeheartedly agrees they are taking the mickey, i took off the TV plug.... the one rule i do have is no TV in the mornings until they are breakfasted washed and ready to leave for school, if they get done early then i have no complaints, but my god the mess this lot is making i could have thrown a party and it would look cleaner...lol

So the list has now been written and mum has turned over a new leaf in regards that they will now start to help out, well they will if they ever want to watch TV again...lol (that's so mean i know) but it has to be done.....

My eldest is now hitting his teenage years and has that wonderful go slow syndrome.. whatever!

So one by one again Ive sat them down explained that although she was once on TV superwomen doesn't bloody well exist ! lol

I have a lovely new chart hanging in each and every bedroom of one chore each per day they can do for themselves, to help me (like hit the laundry bin would be a great start) and please can they not screw up the ironing which i spend at least 8 hours a week doing on the wardrobe floors ...

So im sticking to my guns on this am totally fed up with 'de ja vu' everyday as believe me i hate any kind of routine, but have to clean the same things every day even when no ones used them? and i would then have more of that wonderful time other people seem to talk about ( what my lot havent heard of) time out..............

So from tomorrow theres no collection of dirty washing from under the beds, no sorting of anything out unless its tidy, and no backing down............

And if you see 4 kids walking to school next week with crinkled clothes you'll know they didn't play ball and help out as they have promised... And ill be on the next plane out to Togabo......lol

Burning Candles

Ive finally got through all the images in the site, so at least the first part is done..I'm so pleased.. yipeeeeeee

Deep apologies for not posting..

By the time Ive finished its been about 2am every day and then Ive been back on here by 5.30 in the morning, I'm totally shattered and today its caught up with me..I'm feeling pretty crap and have a terrible migraine..

I wanted to get the photos sorted out and set myself deadlines that were impossible (that's what my fella said)(its a blonde thing, so ill do them regardless lol) Ive had had to push myself really hard, but at least i got them done.. lol so wasn't impossible was it ! hehe

The last five days have been a bit of a blur with cheese sandwiches, and no sleep ill admit ....ive also been making sure my fellas not feeling left out, by all this work ....and burning just about every candle i have..lol .....so today i feel like ive run out of wax........don't tell anyone will you..

My grandparents are coming to see me and I'm working from home so i have wonderful company with Sandra, I'm banned from the office as my headache is really taking its toll on my typing , so dosed up with nasty pills I'm now starting my next phase of plans..lol if i cant type ill make flash players... i am adamant that this will all be done and dusted so i can get some kind of life back, so its a worthwhile cause to throw away sanity for 2 weeks and dig deep..

you'll know when I'm finished as the blogging will start again........

God I'm starving today........

Wednesday

I think today realisation kicked in for me, to what i really have to do here..

The glitch in the images has now been found and i now have to work through the website one item at a time, putting back all the images one by one....

Its gonna be a long week.. but will be worth all the work i hope..

So ive sat down today wrote myself out a list of priorities of where to start and tonight im starting.. it feels better that way than looking at a mountain and not knowing where to start..

I was putting in the 4 images and the thumbnail was loading in lovely, with the other 3 photos, but when the customer viewed them from the front end, the main image dissapeared.... its been a real hair pulling out week.. but thankfully weve solved it, i do now have my enlarge tool back too, so thankfully people can now see the garments clearly, thats why i have to reload the pictures in , so everything opens up large, i sell on image and had to get it right.. noone realises how much work these sites are but i know im looking at a minimum of 2 weeks work on top of designing any new gear, adding all the new clothes in before any photos are done and keeping the orders packed and posted ..so i hope the kids are good for me and dont give me a hard time at home with it...lol

The good news is when its done it will look brilliant, and im really happy with how its going so far..

Im missing my friends today .. its probably as i know they are there and enjoying that lovely sunshine and we usually go away on holidays with them, so im using that as my goal so at least when they are back i am not gonna be bogged down with work constantly as i have been lately...i cant even get out to enjoy chant tonight, so im feeling a little sad...

Im always the first to say live life to its full, but i also appreciate that sometimes we have to just knuckle down and do our best, the sunshine will come later as they say....

Anyway ive ordered a take away tonight and am now going to carry on with with getting it done...

So if you want to see how its going the links in my favourites bar there ___>

Some of the images are not large yet and a few are not right, so please make allowances, its only just been rehosted...

Balls

Its been a really long day today..

Ive finally found the glitch in the system that's making my photos go silly so can now at last start loading..

My fellas just arrived home from work to start the photos (or so i thought) for me now to get told hes watching football... i could really kill him sometimes..lol

Ive got ready and have been sitting here waiting with all the gear lined up so I'm not to impressed with the sudden interest in football...lol

The worse part is i really wanted to go out tonight, and couldn't, as i was asked to work tonight round the clock til i got it done......... it was to get me in front so i can relax a bit more and start having some time out... so I'm now working alone tonight and going hell for leather as I'm rather annoyed with it......lol

I'm gonna sit up all night and get the jeans and new stuff in, so when I'm asked next time i will already have my work done and ill return the favour......lol if he wants to photo ....I'm going out...hehe

well if footballs that important, I'm sure i can come up with something equally as good....

I'm told its cricket too starting next week, so i should be able to have plenty of time out......lol

Anyway i hope you all like the site, Ive done the front page now ....

Just how i wanted so just a few more hundred to go.......

Someone pass the brandy please...........

I could really do with chilling out tonight...........lol