female felines

lol......... women ...we have so many faces and this picture says it all .....

sometimes when you get so bogged down with work and stress ....

it makes you behave in a strange manner ........

she looks like she means business and has had a difficult week too ...

women are very much like cats in many ways .......

strong, independent, sleek, cunning, curious but loveable esp when we purr in contentment .......lol

but watch out when annoyed ...... lol ........those claws are sharp .......

sat night

Had a Saturday night with a difference last night .......

we went out with some friends and went ten pin bowling ........lol

i had to giggle as Ive only been once before years ago, but what a giggle ...........

We started the night with a meal and toddled across to the alley...

i must say i was a bit apprehensive at first, but i shouldn't have worried .........

i really enjoyed myself and it was nice to be doing something a bit different ....

it made me realise we have been stuck in a rut doing the same things and working ourselves silly ...

id forgotten how good it was to actually be back out in the thick of it again..........

the music was brilliant and was playing all the stuff i haven't heard since my borrowed ipod went back .........

they turn off the lights and we all bowled to lanes all lit with a subtle purple glow ..........

i won the first game much to someones annoyance lol , lost badly the 2nd with a score of 69 ! ouch...

then came back to give them all a run for their money, with apparently a really good score..

and i managed to keep the ball in my own lane ....... which was good after so many vodkas ...lol

we finished the night with a quiet drink talking about all sorts of weird and wonderful things .......

i feel much better this morning and I'm glad we went, it started off said in jest but made a really entertaining night, full of fun (aimed mainly at me) and my dirty score...lol

next time were visiting a gallery..... not exactly as it sounds though ......... but that's the fun of sticking everyones want to dos in a box..........

you never know where you could end up ...... lol

' What a Feeling '

What a relief !! Ive done it ..........

Ive managed to do everything i needed to do today..........god i am so pleased ...

this has been such a stressful week Ive had so much to do and have been waiting for the time i could say..........

I've finished.....

Ive put in enough items into the new shop to make it look presentable, i have all the extras ready to add nightly and i feel like screaming from the top of the roof .............yes !!!

it got to the point this week i was in tears with tiredness and didn't think i would get it all done in the time i had .........

but tonight I'm being rewarded for my effort with a meal a hot bath and a full night of glorious sleep ...........

phase one is now thankfully complete, phase two i have completed ready, but the final call is down to the people who believe and love what i create ........

they know where i am and the emails are coming thick and fast, Ive even had sales today from a shop that's not open yet...... so i couldn't possibly ask for a better start than Ive been given ........

its been one of the hardest weeks physically Ive had , my skin is crying out for sleep and my house looks like a bomb site................. but for tonight at least......... i couldn't feel more relieved............

i get to rest now for a day or two, then off i start again on the next one ......

i owe a huge heartfelt thanks to you that made this all possible..........

for building my tunnels and standing by me when i most needed the help ...

without you this wouldn't have been possible .............

now its my turn to show everyone what i can do with the gift Ive been given ........

everybody deserves a fresh start and the chance to feel how i do tonight .........

Thank you so much .................... i wont waste it .........xxxx

Undressed to de stress

My best intentions have gone to waste again .......

ive tried so hard today to hit the goals i set ...

even to the extent of sitting here with the window wide open blowing sleet on my face ......lol

but i just cant seem to do it ....... im typing backwards and struggling to stay awake now ............

although ive done myself proud today... and achieved over 300 new templates from scratch ....

so im doing whats best tonight and getting myself some sleep ....... before my typing gets so slow it stops........

i can get up bright and early and start again ..........

along with those wonderful birds ........

if i keep pecking away little by little happily.....

it'll get there before the weekend arrives .........

and enjoy some much needed chill out time in the snow..........

xxx

covered by coldness

Today i have a really busy day...........

i lost half a days work yesterday that i couldnt afford to loose...

so today im making up for lost time ...........

and staying focussed on what i need to do ...

I layed in bed last night watching the snow..........

drinking hot chocolate, watching it cover the garden in a blanket of sugar ...

how beautiful does it look in the blackness of night ....

im quitely content today, a crisp fresh start to the day........

just like that beautiful cold snow ..............

im feeling fresh and invigorated this morning...........

that if i get whats needed done today...........

ill get to go out and have some fun ...........

in that flurry of wonderful whiteness............ lol...

growing

Its an important part to me ......

the freedom to be myself ......

and be loved for who i am ......

its what builds the person inside .......

and helps to make me grow .......

im growing through knowledge and experiences ....

that tomorrow i may be a better person .........

Images

Saw this on my visit round the globe tonight...........

Totally beautiful, the picture really captivated me.....

ah well..........

coffee breaks over .....

back to work for me ....

its another of those all nighters again..

except tonight i have brilliant company to make it go faster ...

floating thoughts

Ive now been working solidly for 17 hours.............

flat out.... without food....

far too many coffees........

im too tired to eat ..........

so tired i cant think straight..........although i am also blonde.......

and so badly needing my bed.........

goodnight everyone ........... xxx

Rain drops

The rain pounds relentlessly against me...

Caressing me as intimately as a lover....

Every cool drop touches my body.....

Setting it on fire with desire......

The rain a universal lover......

Belonging to whoever wants it ....

Holding them at that moment.....

And for that moment only ........

Each drop touching my skin .....

Bringing it to life with excitement ....

Whispering words of understanding ........

They belong to everyone, yet no one ..........

The wild frenzy of the pounding drops ............

The surging torrents reflecting emotions ..........

Bathing my soul, drenching my skin ........

shes like the wind

Mother nature shes such a powerful woman...

we were giggling yesterday as we were struggling to carry 6 mailbags of parcels to the local office...

it was one step forward and two back .... with many smiles ......

by the time we got there we looked liked the wild women of Borneo....

In the queue everyone was moaning away at how windy it was and that we should all stay indoors, safe and warm ...

mmmmmmm .......really ......

life is about taking chances, whatever the weather ...

its what makes it fun ... or would you rather stay indoors and miss out on all those smiles ....

laying in bed last night, she was still making me giggle...

I had left the window open and woke to find the bed sheets 5 feet off the bed with me laying totally uncovered, which looked to me like i had an invisible visitor....

its quite uplifting ......... to feel and experience things that you dont expect at certain moments ...

smiling away to myself i slipped back into sleep.........and had the most wonderful dreams ........

this morning i feel bright and invigorated ........

what a wonderful way to start the weekend ...............

Its in those stars

Is it me or are those stars shining extra bright tonight ....

sitting under them alone, i couldnt help but feel totally overwhelmed......

its like something inside me i thought was lost has come back to join me....

it always takes my breath away........

but always gives something special back .......

tonight it was such a beautiful sky, so full of hope ..... dancing away in the midnight air...

millions of wishes, thoughts and dreams ...

collected together it makes us feel so small against its greatness .... yet strangley so safe ...

wrapping its arms around you ..........

if you listen closely you can hear your thoughts echoing through the night air....

and all the answers you cannot find ......... coming back to you, so bright and clearly .......

its where i sit when i feel that somethings missing .... or where i go when i need a friend .....

it knows everything about me, yet holds my hopes and dreams along so many others .......

the thoughts and needs which we keep inside .... our innermost secrets .....

every star holds a thousand dreams ... rocking us gently to sleep ......

a hand that keeps safe a million emotions ... a special moonlight diary ................

we all have wishes up there....

theres also another wish that joined the dancing tonight ...

that all those wishes and hopes come true ................

Brown Eyed Girl: Dirty Dancing

Brown Eyed Girl: Dirty dancing ...

The Ultimate Perfect Free Valentines gift
Turn them on and make it a night to remember
make the night special and enjoy being a woman
learn how to dance step by step at home just for him or her

time for an orgy

No blog tonight .........

I'm having an orgy ........

under those stars ......

surrounded by candles ......

men and women all naked together ..........

sensually erotically and very passionately enterwined ...

giving and receiving pleasure in a frenzied mix of lust ......

of course ........ its in my head only .........

well i can dream cant i ........

that's the stuff i dream about most nights .........

well ok then ............

So I'm having an early night ! .......

dont tell anyone will you ! ........ lol

A wish came true

What a difference a days made .........

I've made such a difference ! i feel so good inside and i know I'm going the right way...

everything seems to have slotted into place beautifully today and its getting organised...

Ive now got my second wind too, i was so tired this morning but now I'm full of energy and rearing to go ....

the unit is ready to take all the stock, I'm keeping up with computer work and my house is finally again becoming a home ....

the candles are lit I'm playing my enigma and putting everything back to where it was ...

Ive been feeling cooped up working full time with my partner and I'm sure he must feel the same ............and that's the best part of our day today ........ hes now got his own job ....

no more are we gonna work together yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

as much as i enjoy his company, hes a total pain to work with .... the boss !!! oh yes sir eeee

i can now be free to do what feels right and go with my instincts .............

without being so lovingly pushed as only he could do so nicely .... hehe

he now has his own job and workplace surrounded by trees and fields, he really is so happy today ....

the last year has taught us one valuable lesson.........

there is such a thing, as having too much of a good thing ........

i value my Independence greatly and value his just as highly as mine .....

its important that be both continue to grow and not live in each others pockets.........

we've both been down that road and shouldn't just be someones other half ........

were are both whole people ..........

partners in many ways but both able to work and grow as individuals ..........

i love seeing the changes as he gets stronger and becomes the person inside he was meant to be .... and enjoy seeing him excited by things that life has offered him ......

i wouldn't want him to be anything but free, free to choose, work, decide and enjoy every minute of his life without fear or needing to ask ........ he is his own man and should make his own decisions ....... and be able to go with his flow ..

working together has served its purpose thankfully hes no longer doing a dangerous job and I'm not waiting for that knock on the door !! so its helped us both greatly ...

tomorrow i am doing a little bit more, and by wed ill be ready.......... what a difference a few hard hours work does if you get stuck in ...... especially if its for the right cause.........

I'm so excited for him ........ he now has a beautiful workplace able to be his own motivation and enjoy his freedom ........

as for me ..................

ill pack his lunch give him a huge kiss at the door as he leaves for work ..........

tell him to enjoy his day and that i'll see him later............

and ..........

put those bloody flags out !!!!!!! hehehehehehehehehehe

.................lol ..............................

Night moves

Tonight I'm thinking about the moonlight ............


i cant see the stars they are hidden behind the clouds ....


i have 3 days ahead of me you wouldn't believe so i need as many happy thoughts as possible...



i am moving premises, after work ...... under that beautiful moonlight .....


its nearly as bad as moving house , amazing how much you store up without realising it ....

my shop is now ready to fill and once again I'm revising templates....

was setting up a blog yest to hopefully send people to the website shop so although to many it look like I'm having fun, I'm working on whats needed ............ focused .....

i have a plan that hopefully will help so had to install everything into place in my spare time..

I'm very tired , every day life changes so i have to adapt with it daily.....

Ive been through far worse and I'm hoping that there will be a light at the end of this and it becomes a fresh start for me........

I'm missing my friends today...
gonna work through the night tonight and get it done......

I'm missing my music too ! i get quite fired up when i listen to particular songs and it makes me type quicker .....lol ......... so boy couldn't i have used that tonight ......

thankfully though my guests have all arrived home safely ... I'm happy they had a safe journey..... and sent them both my love whole heartedly ...

i was told that they were both very tired and struggled with the workload at my house ...

i can relate to that today ........ they have such a different life ....

tomorrow is actually a today i am not looking forward to ...........

but once its done i can carry on with my journey.......

strange relationship

Yawn ......

Spent a night last night talking to someone online....

i didn't start off the night like that, but i received an email and just had to take a look to see if was really him !!!

Yep..... it was...it is...lol

i was emailed by a man who wanted to add himself onto my friends list...

well you cant just let anyone on there can you ...

apparently i had placed in a spot someone who i would most like to meet ..him and he saw it ....

he emailed me a lovely letter, about the clothes i created and said he liked the way i expressed myself ...bless.... he wouldn't say that if he saw me on brandy !! hehe

he talks in words that Ive always been able to understand, and his lyrics to particular songs make me feel incredible....

Ive told him about my best friends and that someone has a gift for writing music, who should be heard .... and hes promised to listen ...

I think this man is so good at talking to women as he loves men !! hes married to a man .....

his man .... which some say was a waste, i think hes strong and doesn't bend to what others try to make him ... so its no waste as hes really happy inside ...

last night my luck did start to change, i also had my bracelet on !!

i got to spend a night with my favourite artist.... Darren Hayes ....

the man behind the words ...

principles of sadness

Tinged with sadness ....

that i could love someone ....

yet feel so hemmed in ....

now they are on their way back at the airport loaded with their wares to fly back to the sun ....

im now trying to put back all thats missing, and recoup the funds i didnt have to give ...

time to get my candles out and blow the dust off them ....

i feel sad ....... that i felt so sad ..... dont know when ill see her again even if ....

what should i value most my freedom ....... or my love ...........

now its time to get on with what i have to do ....... more work .....

the mp3 i borrowed has been taken back ....

so ill have to think of happy thoughts while i get it all done.....

i have a mountain ahead of me today.... and have my hiking boots on .....

they may not be sexy, but im up to my neck in crap ...

and i have to look at it as its only a job ......

its a way to enable us to live a little more freely...

and enjoy those days off ..... just a little bit more ........

i had a parcel arrive today it was my bracelet, the one i saw in my sleep ...

the man who sold it to me wrote me a little note explaining what it means ....

its a protection bracelet .... to bring many happy blessings ....

it is so beautiful..... fits like a glove ... so for whatever reason it came to me ......

it couldnt have timed it better ......

(im getting u one , looks like you could do with it too xxx)

Chill out time

Take the shackles off my feet so i can dance ....lol

Sorry im singing away to myself tonight.....

just a few more hours til freedom .....

its nearly here, i can taste it ....

as much as love can be forgiving... it can also be imprisoning ....

ive got my candles ready, the pole is gleaming and calling my name and my spirit is flaping away getting ready for flight .........yipeee

on my wall are fantastic images of the only people we love to be around ....

its those happy holiday shots that have kept me smiling ....

as much as i love my family and care about them...

friends are our family we choose for ourselves ....

i need back my candles and enigma now .....

and enjoy the way i love to chill best....... lol

Good Friends, plenty of vodka on ..... ice .......

lol ....

puss in boots

been on my weekly tour of my planet surfing the web again....

what a journey tonight ive had .... mmmmmm

came across all sorts of places and weird and wonderful views .....

this one i found the most stimualting....... and a little wet looking

my kind of thought to end another good day and very busy day ....

black studded, high heeled and totally sexy ...... complete with gift wrapping too !

stuff that dreams are made of .........

Wax Works !

Its been a really good day today, Ive not been to bed for 48 hours but it doesnt matter ...

it has something to do with you get tired and your head slows down.. lol

sometimes it can be a blessing.. like today ...

had a fantastic shoot on the dunes got to watch the sea for a lovely part of my day..

my photographer made me giggle though

as he must have had 15 layers on !

and still said he was cold

( do to lack of sleep of course )

but my coffee with brandy did the trick brilliantly to keep me warm inside .....

there i was being watched by a loving couple on the beach smiling waiting to see what i was gonna pop up in next !

as they past me the lady was giggling away and said she couldn't work out if it was her eyes as i seemed to be a changing colours !!

i bet she really had a flask like mine too ... lol

but altogether it was just what i needed, to feel un crazed, and peaceful so the wind was a small price to pay ......

i have yet to go to this beach and it doesn't rain, but as it brings back fond memories and i always giggle when i think back .........

i went at a spiritual night there with a group of the most fantastic people and we all got caught in a storm like Ive never seen before....

one minute we were all singing and watching this amazing sunset, passing round chocolate covered cherries surrounded by candles, the next the heavens opened bringing with it breathtaking scenes of thunder and lightning and a downpour that covered every part of my skin with goosebumps ....

i have to say that was one of the most fantastic nights Ive ever been privileged to be part of, totally magical and today brought back all those good feelings ...

its amazing really shes such a powerful force and yet watching and listening to her waves break against the rocks is so soothing .......

i feel so at home when I'm there and completely drawn to being outside with such exhilarating elements for company........

i got so much from today which i am so grateful for , and at last i'm hopeful that tonight i can finally shut my eyes and drift off into a wonderful deep sleep ..........

goodnight and sweet dreams xxx

and thank you .......

waves of optimism

Im sleepy eyed and thats when my head starts working well ........ the best ideas come when youre tired and you stop thinking too hard ........

ive got a huge urge to try something and ive managed to rope in my partner in to help make a positive difference ...... id drag him if needed.......

i still have 6 days to turn this around ...... 6 more todays ........

and i have the perfect way to wake myself up today !! no not that .......

ive been gathering pictures in my head, images that sum up what needs to be done ....

to keep my name i have to pull out some serious stops and i think ive now found my answer.....

on the beach !! .........

im off now with my flask and a bin bag of goodies ........

i cant get new stock , but i can feel the wind in my hair .........

and create a new feeling to what i already have .........

someone watches over me when im by the sea .........

so ill have a little extra spirit too today to make the difference........

survival

After a very late night of putting new steps out there, i feel much more confident ...

Ive started hopefully what will put me back on my track and it got me thinking...

Survival.......... its a powerful word

a natural process resulting in the evolution of organisms best adapted to the environment.. my environment ....

mmmmmm very true ...........

I may be down..... but I'm not out........

so ive pulled up my socks (yes i do wear them, but only with sexy boots), brushed myself down, and gathered my thoughts ....

I haven't got to revise all those templates now so theres my positive thought .........

I'm starting afresh, as I'm not going into that handbag.......

so I'm gonna dig deep and do what i always loved doing......... being creative.....

it doesn't have to just be by making things........ it can also be making things happen ........

and i do have some fantastic machines here .....

I'm gonna do what i do best, and do what i love ............

amazing what a night of listening to old tunes does to your spirit .........

they got me through some real hard times before and put me in a frame of mind to fight for what i believed in............... and i do believe in what i do ........ and am a trained fighter !

they did the same tonight , except it wasn't a partner that hurt, he just tries to help, but a very greedy manufacturer who thankfully now will be be told in no uncertain terms ' you gotta go ' .........

I have another great record here he should listen to........ by simply red ..... 'look in the mirror'

its about today's greedy society .......... but i still love listening to those birds ..... if that makes me not fit for today's society then so be it........ i don't want to ........ i will listen to whats inside tonight and dig as deep as i can get ........

I ain't going anywhere ................

except for a nice early morning drive to hear those wonderful birds .........

and a little message to my lovely stalker .....
be very careful you know what those early birds eat !
.......... worms ........ yum !

new year spirit

Happy new year !

Had a wonderful walk through the woods on my own this afternoon.....

most are hung over or worse for wear, but today i feel peaceful........

something that nature does to you perhaps .....

its a rare beauty thats taken for granted.....

I also gave offering to the mother earth ! how weird is that.....

but mine was not champagne ..lol.......

I wouldnt drink and drive so took what i drink most ........

and just sat in peace listening to the birds and rustling coming from the trees....

i cant be that weird as others were in there doing exactly the same thing, so perhaps their lives are as noisey as mine and theyr'e escaping too ..

i put a note last year away in a such wood and amused myself reading it, to see how much id grown since i wrote it ...

and one for next year in exactly the same place ...........

they say small things please small minds .........lol......