Strike a pose

Its Saturday... the weekends arrived in style and after a week sorting out the house and garden we decided it was time to have some fun..

We went riding again this morning to me pulling into kimblewicks car park with an awful noise coming from my car, so i called the AA and hoped i could slot the lesson in before they got there.. im so glad i didnt have to miss it, what a lesson, its just getting better and better, we were doing 5 jumps in a row this morning as i was in my element, Lauren did brilliantly .. the timing was perfect as we just turned in the AA had pulled in so i got to make the lesson the wheel was fixed (stones in the brake disc) and it didnt mess up the morning thankfully...

We went out last night to Madonna tribute night, talk about a wild night..lol

When we walked in the place looked beautiful all lit up with glowing bowls of floating candles, it really was something else to see..i got a free pink cowboy hat too! which has happily joined my collection for holiday...

I was the dedicated driver so wasnt drinking, but after watching our friend hit the stage on his own i really did want a drink and to join in.......he is hillarious and doesnt care what anyone thinks it shocks the life out of some people, which is highly amusing to watch.. he certainly made the Madonna act giggle, we were told by his girlfriend not to let him have my cowboy hat as he has a habit of stripping .... i bet thats amusing to watch ..lol

He was born in Norwich but has lived in Cyrus all his life until this year, so hes not stuck to our british over civilised attitude and stiff upper boring lip...his partner was as much a giggle as him sot is twice the fun....

Debby Rowe who was our Madonna for the night was cracking up and trying to keep a straight face singing, especially when Mark gets up during her act and starts dancing to vogue with all the movements (seeing really was believing)he is really good, and does things that make the jaws drop which is always good in my books..but nobody complained, they just wished they could do it and it seemed to end up contagious , by the end of the night people who wouldnt normally get up and dance were all trying to have a go, so it made for a brilliant night all round..it was great to see my fella having so much fun, although i had a job getting him to come home..he told my dad when we did eventually roll in he'd only had 2 wines... what he didnt say was it 2 bottles..oops he has a hangover from hell today (serves him right i say) lol

Ive been out with some fun people in my time and had some wonderful unforgetable nights, and last night will deinately be joining those nights, i honestly thought it wasnt going to be any good...it was the first night out we had with our new friends, but i hope it wont be the last......they were such a giggle and great fun to be around....

As for our Madonna for the night (Debby rowe)... she was brilliant and had us all up singing & dancing the night away .. I danced to every song the dj played and this morning feel like i havent been to bed..

So its a huge thank you to new friendships.. and for making everyones night, one for the armchair, it definately was a friday night to remember.. although my fella cant remember much of the later half and has now gone to salsa lessons looking like he needs to go back to bed.....lol

I went out expecting nothing and came home laughing my head off... it was a totally brilliant night and has given me many smiles this morning... I cant wait for the Grease night now, its fancy dress so time to make those Olivier Newton John trousers, ive always wanted a pair but now have the perfect night to wear them......

Im now gonna make myself a nice cuppa sit down and come back down to earth...

Dayles up tonight so we have a family night planned, knowing my family it wont be a quiet one, so tomorrow im planning a day of doing absolutely nothing, ,maybe a walk up a beach and a lovely early night... i never thought id say this........ but i really need one.........lol

Blonde or Brunette ?

What a week, its been manic...........

Im spring cleaning out my house out with everything that doesnt move, so every day im taking on another room...I teamed up withs Sandra and took a day off from my normal work so i could really get to grips with it...ooops i got 4 bin bags of clothes toys and things she had collected its now ready for painting and clear.. it looks & feels so much better...

Tuesday night was belly dancing and salsa, it was one of the best nights weve had although its also getting harder, the spins are now turning into elabrote ones and i cant practise at class with my fella..lol we argue ! ..lol we never argue normally, but as soon as we dance together at salsa classes i either get told to bugger off and dance with someone else, last week its because im ahead of him and he cant keep up (thats not really true as he is doing an extra 2 hour class every saturday without me, and is getting good) i take little steps and my fella takes big ones so when it comes to turns it gets complicated, we were doing an interlocked one where i go under then he does its supposed to be done very fast but together we cant quite seem to fit !! hehe

He palmed me off with someone else and i did pick it up, the same happened to my fella with another girl, they got it straight away....lol when we practise at home it works without argument and we have a right giggle, mind you im wearing short skirts and no underwear so it makes him want to get those turns right...lol

So we are spillting up at classes now and just practising together in private, it works much better and we should eventually end up being able to dance together when we know what we are doing a bit better...........

Anyway dayle came up last night to see us after work, it was a nice surprise as we didnt expect it so it made for another good night...

Hes been cutting everyones hair here, Ryan looks terrific and has been complimented all day at school by the girls, all wanting to stroke him(im not saying anything here)lol im just glad hes happy at school full stop, no doubt i will have worse to come...lol

But he also got his scissors out on me last night too and my fella loves it, i havent lost any length as im growing it, but hes given me probably the best hair cut ive ever had.............

But it started me and my partner off in a conversation which is where i need your help please...

I want to try something a bit different and change

......... from a blonde to a brunette....................

Ive done my blondes have more fun bit so id love to prove thats theres no difference, its not about the hair colouring its about what lifes inside a person, and seems springs coming and i intend doing all sorts of non blogable things in those woods, i really feel like a change.......

My fellas all up for it and is encouraging it........so

Do I ............ dont I ?............... please help.........lol

I have been a blonde since meeting my partner, but was dark when i was younger, so its 15 years getting away with making the excuse of being blonde and i think now time for me to have a change.......

The photo of Jessica above is the colour i would be going, (if i go through with this), Dayles booked me in his posh place to do the change but now i need you guys to help me out and tell me what you think....

Am i doing right......

Blonde or Brunette ? ............

What do you think ?

Peaceful

Its been a great couple of days, we were out sunday at my aunts for the day, she has the most amazing garden its like a wood...Its huge but a lot of hard work as that in itself is a full time job..

Dayle was up on saturday night and gave Lauren and Ryan a haircut, my god hes one tallented lad, ive never seen anyone use scissors like hes does, he certainly takes after his dad with wanting to be good at what hes doing, if he sticks at this i think he will be a bit special in the hair styling world, hes got something very special...I trained from 13 and worked in a hairdressers after school 4 nights a week so i can cut hair, but he gave Ryan a style i could have never done it looks amazing, ive just got the job every day of styling it before he goes to high school (as if i dont have enough to do in the mornings lol) its a good job i get up early..........

Yesterday i worked from home combining working with my partner and trying to sort the house out.. the kids seem to use me as an open house at weekends and i get half the neighbourhood in, i dont mind as id rather they were in here than playing in the streets, would just appreciate it not being trashed everyday.. does parenthood ever get any easier? lol

My eldest is a gem and really does support me, hes hitting the kevin stage at the moment wants trendy haircuts, uses the words ' whatever!' more often and i have to get up and blow dry his hair before school now....lol but hes a good lad and always telling me how much he loves me and gives me hugs... so that makes up for any grief, i really am so proud of how hes turning out, hes the one who makes everyone smile at home at school and even at work, he will ring me to just say hi....sometimes when you juggle being a working mum your'e doing your best you feel guilty, i do, guilty that i cant spend more time with them and am always juggling, i remember the same thing with my mum she worked 7 days a week and us girls would help each other in between the fighting..lol I do let the kids have sleepovers and mates round most nights and a couple of the lads always turn up at meal times hungry (their mums work shifts) so im keeping it open and enjoying the buzz of it all.. sometimes its great to have a mad house, id just like a tidy one...

So much is happening for my fella, hes still engrossed in working, we are splitting it down the middle when hes working i leave him alone or help out (we have been working together this week), but on our nights off the computers are off and we'll end up just having a cuddle listening to music and talk, it seems to be working now, i wrote a blog when he anoyed me and he read it ! oops since then the laptop goes off when its our time.. we get our time together and really appreciate it when we do, but the work still gets done, i dont think people realise what has to be done with a website, you never catch up, as fast as you think you are something else needs doing, he forgot me last week completely i came home for the kids prepare the meals and get ready for belly dancing he was due home at 5.30 i get picked up at 6 by stelli so 6 comes and goes half past and about 6.45 he walks in... i couldnt get angry, ive learnt that he doesnt mean it it simply gets engrossed and forgets, i made it to the class thankfully, just broke out in a sweat before id got there..lol

I was talking to my aunt sunday and shes offered to let me ride her horse down the beach, hes beautiful and its what i wanted to do for my 40th in may, we were going on holiday to do it, but sadly i cant get away the dates i wanted so im spending my birthday here with the people i love (my family) and having a holiday afterwards, we never got one last year, the whole year was just a constant slog of work, so hopefully this year we will get some time out, weve got tents to take the kids camping, so many nights sleeping at the beach and woods instore, im really excited weve found the perfect place and are roughing it for as few days.........my kind of weekend..

Anyway the house is falling silent the kids are off one by one, so its time for mum to clean up now before i can go to work......... its tuesday, its windy but at least that sun is shining day...

Have a great day everyone...

Dancing tonight yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Dancing in the rain

Have you ever had experiences through your life when you know no matter how old you get or what happens ,you know that moment will stay with you?

I woke early, the first thing i do is look out of the bedroom window at the sky and smile, there's days when the clouds are looming but there's also days that the weather can heighten experiences and can bring surprises... this morning was definitely a feel good one..

I was choked when they took me off Sorrel (the chestnut horse) i loved riding him and was a bit sick that i could only now sit and watch him , i was moved horses as Sarah said i was progressing well she wanted to see if i could cope and handle shadow (the white horse) it was done for the right reasons and supposed to be a new challenge, but i didn't feel the same when i rode her, shes more powerful totally unpredictable and loves to lead..oops my fella says I was given a horse that's like me.....oops again , i lost some of that feeling i have when i ride and felt sad when i watched Sorrel and his new rider..

Today we pulled up and the whole paddock was full of jumps ! its not a problem for those of you that are used to this, or been riding for years, but to me after just a few months into the class it was a bit nerve racking, my first words when i got out of the car were ... oh shit ! lol

Ive never seen so many jumps in there, i have to lead the class now too and have no sense of direction at all...lol

The girls all laugh Sarah asks if i have my confident knickers on today ..no (not the best day for a G string) they must all be getting to know me pretty well as they just giggle and take no notice of me...

I had the best lesson, every week im learning something new and getting to know Shadow who is definitely free spirited .. she knows she can do these jumps with her eyes closed so decides shes going to lead again... this time i didn't let her, i did so well ...kept her under control, but also gave her enough freedom to work with me, and my god didn't she..........

Every moan Ive had about that horse being too fast I'm taking back, she will make me a better rider, Sorrels easy to ride, but she definitely isnt ! so i was copping out ...lol

We were jumping the whole lesson it was brilliant, the rain started halfway through and i was then on the doubles i had one thing in my head taking those jumps (you're gonna giggle at this)... I honestly couldnt think of a better feeling than that moment, my face was soaked the wind was blowing my hair everywhere yet i felt so good and felt like i was flying.......

It wasn't Sorrel that used to make me feel like that ... it was me.... the girls there are brilliant and support us to the hilt, i got a huge compliment from Nikita when we finished the lesson, she said that not many people can handle shadow properly but i was one who can .................. i sat there on that horse feeling about 13 with my mouth wide open....lol I was actually proud of what id done (it had to be the week my fella didn't come too) lol

Coming home we were giggling about how me and Lauren feel in our time out at the stables together, we go home so excited on a high for the rest of the day and really get taken the mickey out of, but no words can say how it feels or how i felt today, nothing else i have done even touches it (well ok then perhaps one other thing).... lol ....It was exilerating...

I don't want to be put back on the chestnut horse anymore, i want to ride the white horse and feel how i did today... soaked through to the skin by the rain ...but glowing with happiness inside out..

I need to get that G string out more often........lol

Job offer

Looking for a new job?
You can always come and work with me and stelli....lol
Applicants must be sexy, fit and looking like Brad Pitt (or Angelina Jolie) is definately a big advantage, although we would settle for Hugh Jackman lookalikes also....


All applicants:

Must have a hands on approach to everything...

Must manually update their Hard drive daily in full view ...

Must be good at dicktation and understand what the boss wants at all times...

Must be a team player!..lol

Have good manners and not talk with their mouth full especially to customers...

Must not fellatio behind with their work....

Must be cunning in multi biliguism and be especially good with their tongue...

Keyboard skills are essential especially touch typing.....

Standing up for themselves would be an advantage but not essential as full training will happily be given...

Shorthand is preferred although not essential as quick and short may not be what im looking for this morning...

Able to work under pressure would be an advantage, 7 1/2 stone to be exact...

Basic wage applies with great incentives and monthly bonus scheme..

Able to bounce back quickly from even the hardest of tasks and rise to every challenge..

The applicant:

Will do anything to reach promotion ....lol

With ambition to become a sleeping partner..

Strict dress code applies.. (stockings and suspenders are a must on Fridays!) hehe

Growing wild

Good morning the suns shining again..lol

I had to giggle last night , Laurens like me and loves wild flowers so i came up with the idea of getting one of everything she likes and pressing them into a book along with a happy thought, so last night she comes home with a snowdrop...oops ive asked her never to pick those, they are my all time favourite flower and symbolize alot to me, its a flower that gave me hope (ill explain that later lol) but she came home from school with one, they aren't found everywhere, they are at my riding school and a wood i go when i need to sit back and restock, but not anywhere locally here, they are more wild flowers not what normal people have growing in their gardens...

So last night in she comes so pleased she got my flower, and about ten mins later was followed by a lady who's garden she had been into picking the flowers from.............oops lol

I felt awful but had to stop myself from laughing, i always hoped my kids would turn out resourceful but not to that extent, she had told the lady the flower or for me as i needed happy thoughts, so the lady came to ask... She was fine and said it was a thoughtful reason and laurens promised not to go digging up anyone's gardens anymore, the flowers do indeed grow wild in her back garden , shes elderly and doesn't do anything to it ... i bet its beautiful..

I have all sorts of plans this end for my garden, i want to create a place that's wild but naturally scented, somewhere i can sit through the summer and feel like im somewhere else, so im planting jasmine, grape vines and all sorts of lovelies, not forgetting the lambs tongue !! lol you don't need green fingers for that, just one hell of an imagination when you pick it..............hehe

I must be feeling better, now you all know why i cant wait for spring.. and im taking a keen interest in gardening..

Im working from home today as im sorting out the underwear section and its not good to drool in public.............lol Its belly and salsa dancing tonight so im gonna grab a bath later, prepare everyones meals and get the house all tidy ready for the kids to wreck when ive gone out..

My dad keeps coming back every week and ive resorted to blackmail as i cant miss the classes, so i lay out little prizes for him to give out when they are good and just tidy everything up when i get home, ive had a good night, the kids are happy and grandad now knows why ive got a white streak through my fringe now.. hehe

Has anyone been listening to the marmite song? its by David Jordan 'sun goes down' its one of those you either love or hate.............I totally love it and constantly play it on my headset, he reminds me a bit of prince in the way he moves and paints his nails but i cant get it out of my head, if ever theres a song of the year for me its gotta be that one...... i havent felt like dancing til the sun goes down for a while but those feelings are coming back .... ive put in the youtube below , i dont know why but it just reminds me of chant the woods and finding that spiritual fun loving side and dancing.......

Have a great day everyone xxx

Thoughts that count

We went out Friday to meet up with friends after work had a swim, a meal and spent the evening having a great time, everyone was there so it was a real giggle, i look so forward to weekends now, but still cant wait for spring..lol

My sister Denise and Jade also came to see me again with Lacey , it seems to be happening every week now, i don't live out of my family's pocket but really appreciate when we do meet up, i gave her a huge hug, that i have been meaning to do for ages...

So its been a really good weekend, a little windy admittedly, so we couldn't sadly ride Saturday, but we made up for it and had a really nice couple of days..

I did my friends hair Saturday instead of riding which took me 3 hours bless, shes been feeling a bit low so i decided id give her a makeover.. i dyed her hair & restyled it, had some fun with different colour make up, gave her eyelash and eyebrow tints , which was great fun for me although id only left myself about 5 mins to get everything prepared for the evening, and i had made such a mess ..lol but she looked like a new pin , i got such a good feeling knowing id done something to make her feel better, she looked great ...

Dayle came up again Saturday night, he is really coming out of his shell, we had some gifts in our shed that we had brought but sadly never got to give, the kids unbeknown to me went in and opened one.... i was a bit upset (as they were gifts )but kids being kids they just wanted to play it, me and my fella both looked at each other but my fella smiled and cleared the table to play.. hes definitely not very sentimental is he............lol

We sat up til 3am Sunday morning playing games, all the kids were still up and so excited as its the latest they have ever been allowed up, but the night was totally brilliant and my first taste at my family working as one... Dayle has already brought something to us, i love him to bits, hes already trying to sort my hair out and chop it off , so I'm enjoying being rebellious by telling him i want to be a rock babe with hair that looks like its been dragged through a hedge, my fella would hit the roof if i chopped it off ...lol Im just so pleased hes come into our life, i look forward to Saturdays now as much as my fella does, the kids love him and thankfully he likes being the oldest brother....

I woke up mothers day to a bomb site for a house... but in my kids wonderful eyes... mothers day was my special day, so mum will clean it all and just be happier all day with it............. I love their logic and couldn't help but smile, innocence is so wonderful sometimes...

The biggest smile ive had for some time came from callum, he had collected little flowers for me mothers day and sprayed them with my favourite bottle of perfume (thats now empty! hehe) he even made a little box for them.. how sweet was that, but guess where he hid it ?

Under the toilet................................hehehe

I sat in the bath listening to the radio and i could see this little pink box squished under , i was really praying it wasn't a cake ! ....

So I'm now having to shove petals down my bra to smell nice, but at least the thought was definitely there.......bless

Sun Goes Down

Pursuit of Happyness

Its been another busy week, it only seems like 5 mins ago it was last Friday....

Ive been deep in thought the last 2 days, the kids have been pretty testing (well Brandon has) hes having a bad run at being dangerous again, so ive been sitting here every night til bed time, trying to help him with his reading and writing, i went to salsa classes Tuesday and came home to my worktops all been cut up, so he gave my dad cause for concern, im not sure what else i can try, but i will keep trying, the doctors wanted to medicate him as he has too much energy and wont sit down for longer than 20 seconds, but i looked at it that we've got through this far and it wasn't fair to him to take that option, we just have to put extra effort into him....and grow eyes up my bum..lol

Hes been grounded for this week as i know he doesnt like that, but i also want to work with him one to one, so the teachers helping and working with me and has sent home some really good books for us to work on, he doesnt like ordinary boring things to read (his words to his teacher) so im now reading 'The cut throat celts'... its rather interesting but im amused that the teacher sent it home... but its so far so good, hes enjoying reading about it (so am i) but i still cant get him to go to sleep....lol i wish i sometimes had the amount of energy he has ..

Today im working from home, no particular reason except i felt like it, ive worked every night except Tuesday and missed most of last night due to getting engrossed in a film 'The pursuit of happyness' with Will Smith, (no its not spelt wrong either) lol

If you want a film to make you appreciate what you have in life then its a must see... very thought provoking , not many people could understand what it feels like to not have food or the basics in life, i can ...i was there once and i really related to this film, it made me cry, but also made me determined not to moan and just keep trying......

I finished the night wonderfully by standing in the garden watching the night sky, did you all see the moon last night..... totally beautiful.. for once the weather gave us a clear night and sent me to bed smiling, my whole bedroom was lit up and i just layed there staring at the sky......

I had a lovely surprise after work as my sister Denise came round with Jade and lacey, its been ages since ive seen my sister and i just wanted to give her a huge hug.... Lacey is growing so much and is just like Jade, beautiful.......

Ive been talking to my fella about some things id like to try, im very restless this week and cant wait for spring to get here, ive bought tents and all the camping gear i could find so im buggering off for a few days to live in the woods or on a beach somewhere, it sounds mad (and cold) but its 'gotta be done'.........i want to sleep under the stars with my little fire , its on my wish list and is one of the many mad things i intend to do as soon as those flowers are in bloom....

Were getting so much better at salsa, i got spoilt this week and got all the male instructors as my partners ! hehe.... but it has really helped me, as all those turns i couldn't quite get have now all slotted into place..although i dont like it when they stroke my hands, i feel really embarrased...lol

Well the weeks flown by, my fella has finally finished his 2 new websites so i may just be able to find some normality and good conversation again, i came down to him on the sofa this morning, hes been working all night again (and missed the eclipse)....but i respect the fact thats heres a guy that never gives up on his pursuit of happyness either........lol

Rhianna Dont Stop the Music

well it is friday.......lol

The Pursuit Of Happyness

Duffy - Mercy -

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Its been a great weekend, we were out friday night at the salsa club, yesterday was riding so last night we had a night in with great company...lol

My fella went to salsa class on his own yesterday afternoon (i got left with the housework lol) so he must be keen, he came excitedly to show me what new moves hed learnt but had forgotten them, so im sticking to the instructors tutoring and making sure i will be able to keep up with Mr Travolta here...lol i wont tell him ive been practising online, its nice to get the house to myself...lol

Dayle came up for the evening, i cooked, talked endlessly and really enjoyed the night and his company, it really was great to see him, hes such a great lad, i bonded with him straight away..

The night went beautifully we were all really chilled and enjoyed getting to know him, his sense of humour is great... straight away i took to him and didnt let my fella get a word in..lol

He phoned this morning and is coming back for lunch today, so hopefully he doesnt think were as mad as we do, the kids are really excited about having an older brother and he loves clothes so we should get along just fine...

Today im loading in some new gear into the site, ive been doing photos for most of the last 2 days but hopefully today ill break the back of them and get the jeans done at least, its my fellas turn to cook so im going to enjoy the day working away looking at the sunshine through the window...lol

Wings

Sorry for my lack of posts recently, i have been a bit burried this end in work but im slowly getting through it all..

Last week i went riding as normal and i was back on shadow, it was hard to explain but she was riding so fast constantly wanting to canter so it got me worried about how i was going to be able to stay in control and jump safely, all week its worried me, i was going to ask sarah if i could go back onto sorrel, but im not the type of girl that quits easily and didnt want to give up before id even tried, so decided yesterday i was going to bite the bullet and have a go, this horse is a professional showjumper so she knows how to jump well, i just kept thinking i wasnt good enough to jump with her..lol

So thats where i was yesterday anyway and how i felt inside....


I got to lessons this morning and the paddock was set up for the jumps.. sarahs face said what we were doing when i went in, all the girls were there to watch ..ooops

I dont get nervous with everyday things, in fact some things i should feel nervous about i wont, but if its a test or im put out on show, it really gets me, i felt really sick today...

So out comes shadow, along with my blackmail polos and onto her saddle i get, i told my fella before i left if im going to fall, it would be today, as i wasnt going to let this horse take away the fun i feel from riding, so i knew i had to do this..

The lesson was a really challenging one, i was leading a group of 3 today, with sorrel trying to constantly scratch his itch on shadows bum , the horses hate it and its dangerous as they buck badly, so knowing my daughter was behind her put more pressure on getting it right.. the good news is i got it sooo right today....yipeeeeeeeeeeee

I took the jumps first in canter and she cleared them by miles, once id done one, that was it, the adrenaline kicked in and i wanted to keep going, after every jump nikita put them up higher and higher so after several jumps it was bloody high... it was to show me that conquering the worst first is always best, its not about falling, its about the trying ...

The last jump was my all time best, she had said it was the last one before turn in, so i decided id let shadow go and see how quick she would take it, my god what a feeling.... my outside impression didnt touch how i felt inside ....... im so glad i didnt bottle and let the fear of the unknown stop me from feeling like that.......

I grew so much today, big time, in spirit and in confidence...... Some things we do and find in life push us to grow and grow, i want to feel everything i can feel and experience as much as i can fit in my time here .. I wont live my life being told what i can and cant do, neither would i ever give orders, its my life and down to me to make the most of it ......

Today i made the most of it, be it right or wrong for my business, safe or dangerous to myself, if we dont take risks we dont experience life to its full, and this was just the start .......

I want to feel those wings, not die sitting in front of a TV watching other peoples lives through a soap... thats not living........thats dying to me.....

I want to sit down sometimes.......but only to watch the sun rise or set ....with people i love and want to experience this with....

They are the little things that give me my wings.........

And make me feel......... like i can fly..........

Valentines day

Its friday........the weeks flown by so its time to enjoy the weekend, tonight were meeting up with friends and going to the salsa club, im leaving the car at home and having a couple of vodkas in the hope ill not feel so bad getting on that dancefloor with the other dancers, they really are something else........Marcos promised to give me some lessons and Janes helping steve so it should be a good night...

Yesterday was a hard day i was really cold all day and had loads of photos to do... but i got through all the dresses and jeans so it was well worth the effort, i just couldnt get warm ....

I hope everyone had a great valentines day....i got the loveiest card ! and chocolates so although the day was a hard one, he did really spoil me later........ the radio made compulsive listening and i was working by butt off trying to get finished, but did thanks to mr DJ playing some great music it really helped lightened my mood.. i wasnt the only one who got a card either..lol my daughter has a secret admirer.. he face was a picture with this little lad running up the road trying not to be seen.. bless

Have a great day everyone, its friday.......the weekends just began........

Blood

Its been an emotional week this end, we are trying to open new doors and test a market so it may help someone i would love to work with, shes a great girl and so tallented and i for one would love to be able to help so im trying to open a new door in the workplace...

We went to a salsa night friday it was brilliant, its taken me years to get my fella to dance classes and he loves it , so when we were asked if we would like to go along we went, it was a great night, i saw a woman dance that would make your mouth open she was simply amazing and has inspired me enormously now to stick this out..

riding went well although i spent most of the lesson worrying about lauren without need, last week shook me up, its built in us to protect our kids and i felt so useless not being able to help when she came off, she went back this week smiling and didnt let it get to her so im really proud she didnt quit.. the idea of riding was to spend some time together as we work such ridiculas hours here i wanted us both to look forward to something, the boys now want to learn too.. (this will cost me im gonna have to swap clothes for lessons again now) its the only way i could manage it....

Anyway i wanted to write about something completely different today as its been playing on my mind all day, for those of you that know me know i didnt have my dad with me as i was growing up and it was really hard, i wondered so much about things and couldmt work out why he went, i was lucky as i had a step dad that kept trying to help me..

When i met my partner he already had a young son Dayle, who used to come to our house every weekend to stay , we both loved having him with us, he was bright always smiling and such a lovely kid, i took a real shine to him and was glad that he came to stay, but sadly situations were made inpossible for him to keep coming, my fella was so upset, and tried everything he could to keep the contact,we all did, but sadly with any relationship it can get very upsetting and bitter, and very sadly thats how it ended up, the child was caught in the middle and used to hurt the father, weeks when we went to pick him up she wouldnt let us have him, or would be out so we couldnt come, it was so cruel, and it hurt us all, but we hoped there would come a day when he was old enough when hopefully he would come to us.......

Last night my partner got a phone call, it was Dayle, i know my fella hoped he would call, so he could talk to him, he must have so many unanswered questions and its his right to know about his dad, so they got talking, ive never seen my fella look so nervous but hes been keeping this in for years, so it is understandable, many nights weve sat here talking about it feeling totally distraught that we couldnt do more... I really feel for both of them..

I know what it feels like from both sides and if things get difficult in a relationship its always the kids that suffer.. its so wrong and cruel to all involved..

Anyway today they met up, for the first time in 9 years, i am really hoping that they can both build their bridges and get to know each other now, it just seems such a shame all those years have gone by that they could have enjoyed being together..

Time has a way of always coming back round and helping wounds heal, so i hope today something good may happen and two people that should have never been torn apart can get to start again, my partners a real good man, 16 years with him has taught me that id never find another so kind considerate and loving, hes also a very good dad, if hes allowed to be given the chance, so if you are reading this Dayle.. please give it to him, you wont look back and will see how special he really is...

We all get told stories about people, its nobodys fault, people get bitter when they lose something they love and the years turns that bitterness into a blur of what really happened, i can understand that, ive been hurt so badly in the past i didnt ever want to go near another guy and tarred them all with the same brush, but time heals and i learnt that all men are not the same..

Giving someone a chance can't give back all the years you have missed i know, but it can make new memories and theres a family here including me that would welcome you with open arms...

They all know about their brother and would love to see you, its not a case of youve been forgotten and not loved, my man, so dont ever doubt yourself , we never doubted you.........

Our door is always open to you and your dad will always be just that .........your dad...

Salsa Night

Its been such a fantastic night, i've come home on a high again, and reaching for the kettle, im worn out....lol

The belly dancing was great im finally learning to wiggle properly and loving the class, our teacher has promised to take some pictures for us next week, but its a great class and the women are all really friendly, im making friends with some of the ladies and having a real giggle trying to look like ive got hips (i cheated tonight and put a belt over my skirt to make it look like i have a waistline) see i am determined..hehe. the class finished late so we didnt have much time to get changed before the salsa started.......

Tonight was the best one yet, the guy with the bulge didnt come sadly stell was looking forward to seeing him (and i took my camera in too) but the class was buzzing there were over 40 of us again, the music was quicker the steps more challenging and the wiggles and turns are all now coming together, its great to see so many people all enjoying the same thing.

I get on so well with Jane who teaches the class with Adrian and also become friends with another lady in belly dancing, who i didnt realise until tonight also teaches salsa at the forum on mondays, so as i already know and get on with them both well, im going to tag along, so next week ill be doing both the forum and oasis.. my feet are really gonna ache...

Estelle came to salsa and egyptian with me and im glad she did, we had such a giggle...

Anyway weve been invited to friday nights salsa night, theres booze plenty of music and lots of people who will show us how to do it with style so ive booked my dad to sit and have set a date...

We did so many new steps tonight various turns and really had to work hard, its the first time in class we all broke out in a sweat, so if this is just the start of it........ bring it on.......

We did these pictures after class (as i cant run around taking pictures of people without their permission) but we get extra time to practise when everyones gone home, so hang about til were thrown out.... which was pretty late tonight..lol

My dad sat for my children (its his first time) bless... ive come home to a spotless house and kids all sound asleep happy so im happy, i should have never doubted he could handle my lot as after all, he brought me and my 3 sisters up and i was a real handful (dont tell my kids that) hes a big softie at heart but has made my night as we couldnt get a sitter, they must have been good as when he was about to leave he offered to sit next week and any night i need help.. its an enormous gift to me and the kids are so happy to have their grandad with them.. they made him tea all night....and my fellas got no excuse why he cant learn this and dance with me...

Anyway im straving need to raid the fridge and come down off the ceiling... im on a high tonight...

Bulging

I need to do something inspiring today..lol ive woke up poluted by my daughter bless full of cold and a temperature that doesnt quite know what its doing, im outside one minute in nothing except underwear (its good we have a high fence) then trying to put as many layers on as i can to then be too hot again....lol who ever invented colds.. i dont usually get them thankfully so that brandy will be out tonight......that will sort it out..lol

Ive spoke to the poledancing lady so those of you that have asked about it, feel free to come along, im putting mine back up in the unit outside so i can practise that and salsa now in the comfort of being hid up..so you are all free to join me...lol

I have loads to get done today but cant quite get my head into it so im blogging and putting everything off again in between sneezing..lol

I wanted to tell you all about salsa this week.. we had a new guy come along.. this guys rather dishy but he cant get any of us girls to keep a straight face when we dance with him.. he speaks lovely , is really well educated and has come along as he wants to dance like Ricky Martin.. yep honestly i didnt know what to say about that one so all i could come out with was " you need to wear leather trousers then to this class" oops..

The funiest thing is we cant work out something.. he wore a pair of white cords that were so tight in a certain area.. it wasnt just me all the women were talking about it.. and he looked like he had put a couple of pairs of socks down there too ! oops again..

I honestly have never seen anything like it, and my mission this week is to somehow get a photo of this poor guy, im sure hell pose (as he seems to do that rather well constantly checking out his reflection) so as im curious to see if you all think, all is not quite as it may appear..hehe

I dont have a name to put to the socks yet (thats what we call him) but hopefully ill get someone guilable to ask him.... and take a photo.. hes got the hugh grant hairstyle, bulging biscepts, open shirt showing off the waxed chest and stands like hes s*** himself ! hehehehehe ....god im so crude sometimes.. but seeing really is believing in this instance ....

Anyway if any women are reading this please check back next week, or come to the class ..lol

Im sorry about the pictures but i was scanning for a photo of a bulge and got carried away, rather nice arent they..lol

Enigma,

Riding in The Snow

Its been a busy week , hense my lack of posting, sorry everyone......

Ive been trying to cram everything in this week, but whatever i failed in i'll sort out later.. its good to procratinate sometimes...lol

Last night i was standing in the most beautiful garden in the snow, it was lovely getting covered and allows me to use heavy snow fall as the excuse for acting like a child..lol

Im so pleased with my kids this week, their reports were good and they had a 100% attendance record again, its not easy in school holidays to try keep working so thankfully my lot are all strong and healthy the rest of the time...

Today we thought riding would have been cancelled so i rang earlier to check, but it was still on and surprised us ...

So off we set slowly today as my road was like a skating rink, and my little girl wasnt very well bless but really did still want to still ride.... so i had to go with it..although i didnt really want her to as shes not as strong as usual and hasnt eaten much all week..

We got there and sarahs hubby John had been up digging and raking over the whole field, so although i bet he aches bless, it enabled us to still enjoy our day..so a big thank you goes out to him..

There were only 3 of us today and it was freezing and very white everywhere, but once we got started we soon warmed up, Shadow was having another really eratically fast day again, all three horses were strange to say the least.....

Anyway nearly half way through the lesson we were all cantering round one at a time and it was then laurens turn on her pony, thats where it all kind of went wrong........

She was cantering round the ring and a lump of snow fell from the ridge of the fence , it wasnt big but scared her pony badly, she then bucked in canter and off over the horses heas went Lauren doing a somersault.............

I have never shouted so loud, i honestly thought the pony was going to ride over her, but somehow it managed to avoid her, she did right and as weve both been told, rolled and curled up and thankfully apart from scaring the hell out of us and a good few bruises shes ok, i told sarah not to make her get back on the pony, Lauren has to do what she feels and it was a really bad fall, but bless after 20 mins and getting her wind back she asked to go back on.........i am really proud of her today,she was so brave and determined ...

Anyway we took a few photos today , there would have been more but the camera got thrown when lauren did but im sure well make up for it next week....

So we gave them their polos said a big thank you to John and came home, i then had a salsa lesson to do.... so i have very sore feet now..lol

Have a great weekend everyone, ill be thinking of my friends at chant tonight and sending them all my warmest wishes, but for reasons beyond my control i cant sadly be there, although i wanted to more than ever........... so ill wish you all a fantastic night and sending loads of love from me.......