Feeling

Some things you dont see...
Some words you just cant say...
Some feelings you keep hidden...
But some things mean so much...


We both feel so much better today, and its all thanks to you guys...

Thank you so much for my gifts, i know i dont say much, but they really do mean a lot ...

I havent slept so well in weeks !! lol

Had a great night thanks to your visit...

my wish was for many more ..........

Time Out - In

Im still tired but managed to take a night for myself, i had the longest bath with the kids bringing me a vodka up ! my partner also cooked me a meal, which was lovely....

We spent a night in the garden, not doing much just talking & listening to music, but it was so pretty all the candles were lit and it really was nice to just do nothing...

The peace was soon shattered though as heard a young girl screaming, we couldn't see where she was so we were all running about trying to see what was happening..

You don't get this type of thing in our area so everyone was alarmed, within 2 min's it sounded like a world war was erupting, with many voices screams shouting and then the girl screaming hes got a knife...

That was it ! my fella rang the police and we all went out to help, it was a group of teenagers outside the convenience store who had managed to start one hell of a fight, the police said many people called them and they were already on their way, and within min's 2 riot vans turned up and thankfully stopped anyone from getting hurt...

my kids were terrified my eldest knows the boys well especially Reece, he was expelled from school at the age of 7 so now spends hos day just milling about having nothing to do..

I blame society, theres nowhere for these kids to go except hang out on the wreck, when we were younger there was more to do, i spent most of my nights hanging out with friends in a youth club, you cant find one now for the love of money, and they wonder why the kids are growing up as thugs...

Its become a place where parents are too busy working to survive, to do the stuff families used to, the kids are bringing themselves up, and were creating a society of kids that are bored or stuck in front of a TV with video games, its all morally wrong...

Eventually it all calmed down and the road went quiet, i fell asleep but was woken at 4am by some bloke who decides to keep ringing and asking me who i am ? lol

it begins with a F and ends with an F... especially at that time in the morning, he eventually got the message when my fella was woken up and decided to give him an ear bashing,, hence ive been up since 4.30 , good job i went to bed early....

That's just what the Dr ordered a nice pleasant quiet night to chill......................lol

Ive got my sister coming tonight to sit for the kids so we can go out, i was invited to a club with creane and the girls tonight, but im really not up to it, im not feeling good at the moment... and need something to perk me up, so have made up a night that i think will be good spiritually to help ... the poledancing ill do later, when i feel better..

Double vision

What a week........is it the weekend soon?

I was supposed to be out tonight and enjoying myself with the girls, so why am i sitting here working....
I must be nuts !! lol

Im nearly finished to the point i will be able to just work humain hours and start enjoying myself again, so its all been worthwhile... get that pole ready !

Its been a mad couple of weeks, not much nice stuff to blog about as ive worked day and night, so appologies for you who read and thought ive died. ...i nearly have inside...lol

Im not quite dead yet! although i may look very much like it..

Have a great weekend everyone ........

Blessings

Its been another good day, ive had some brilliant orders today so its really made me feel more positive, they seem to like what im doing to the site and are ordering well, the more i get into the work the more i can see so much prospect, im enjoying the change of scene and get to listen to music all day while i type...

Ive been invited to my sisters for my birthday, steve sadly wont be able to spend the day with me he has been asked to help his dad , so im taking the kids and hoping its sunny, its a bbq (as she cant cook anything else!) lol but im really pleased she asked...its much appreciated..

Finally get to try surfing soon, i cant wait to see my fella try to get up at 4am..lol
Somehow i think ill be going alone and the house will all still be in bed by the time i get back...hehe, miracles dont usually happen with rising the dead......lol

The week is flying by and im gaining speed by the day now ....

I love thursdays... i get to spend time with my grandparents and be with sandra all day, its a real blessing...........

outside in

Good morning everyone, happy bank holiday to you that are still lounging about in your dressing gowns..lol

well the weekends over and i have to say Ive had a good time, Ive been down to the beach felt the wind through my hair and feel so much better than i did Friday...

Ive been outside this morning in the garden speed skipping..lol honestly.. it burns calories like nothing else and if you pop a head set on with fast tracks on it, you skip like crazy, i learnt that in kickboxing and always enjoyed it,although i did get wet this morning as its raining...lol

I'm sweeping up sand everywhere this morning, i seem to have brought back half the beach last night but i had such a great night it was really worth it...

I went back to or chant beach and sat with a group who were all enjoying a few drinks and a welcoming large bonfire, it really is such a magical place and brings back so many fond memories of our night in that storm...

Today i have 3 dresses to finish sewing, 4 kids hair cuts (5 if you include the other half), and a house to clean, as all need doing badly by tomorrow so its gonna be a busy day today, but I'm full of life today showered and ready to go....lol

Lol i had to giggle yesterday, i had a guy called romeo send me the most bizare email through my space, he was nice looking (and knew it) and decided to email me with a friend request (amongst other things lol), i wouldn't normally do it but i sent back a reply telling him that although he had looks he didn't have much else going for him, probably had a dick the size of his manners....

Id rather have a friendship with a battery powered rabbit lol....

Ive met a few really nice people who i talk to on there and really am not interested in the outside shell only whats inside a person...

have a great day everyone, whatever you are doing.......

Simple Things In Life

Went out on my own tonight , it was lovely ....

I feel so much better than i have in weeks inside , so im glad i went...

Being in my little car and singing my head off to my music, it really is the small things that keep me going, you can keep the money, all i want and look for cannot be bought....

Ive been walking all night up the beach, there were a group of people there all having a party, which i kindly got invited to bless, but watching them all round the fire as i went wandering was lovely, i would really love to go camping there......

The sea was so calm tonight, there was no wind and its the calmest its ever been when ive visited it , totally beautiful ...

It certainly helped ive come back a different person to when i left...lol

theres something about the sea that just reaches in and takes all the stress away, so i sat there on the rocks with a flask listening to my music watching the waves gently break....

Im taking a day off tomorrow and going to the oasis, ive really missed it, so like all things you miss when they go, im really looking forward to having that back in my week...

Time for a shower and a brandy, ive lit the candles and am going to finish the night in style........

relaxed .......

Week ends here

Im struggling to wake up this morning its not like me but i did have a few glasses of vodka last night so that may have something to do with it..or the fact im just tired and so glad the weekends here to help...

Dino's popping in this morning so we can arrange surfing lessons, so if i dont write any blogs after today....ive probably drowned........lol

Im now gonna cook the biggest breakfast i can imagine and get my lot up, its a lovely morning so breakfast today is being served in the garden..

Im turning my computer off this weekend and having some fun, so have a great weekend everybody, dont do anything i wouldnt do..............

Friends Reunited

Had a brilliant day today we caught up with an a couple we used to be good friends with who moved away and now thankfully are back....

He asked us to go surfing with him before but never got the chance, so its now on for the weekend .... i cant wait........lol

The beach they use is the one next to my photo beach, so i even know the way there, what fun this will be, i know im gonna love it and have a real giggle....

We were talking about soceity and what it does to people and things we discussed before, they are now doing so it made me think, apparently being self suffiencient is everything its cracked up to be and they are living proof...

My fella really gets on with him so well, hes a total free spirit and always so carefree so its lovely to have them back ...

The great thing is my eldest son is his boys best friend so we can take the kids with us and let them lose to just play...now that really does add the icing to the cake..

welcome back whens the beach party .........lol

Up with the birds

Good morning everyone....

I had an early night last night,which seemed to have done me the world of good...

Ive finally finished revising whats already in the website so today i finally get to work on the good stuff....yeah

Ive been waiting for this for weeks, at least now im really going to enjoy it..

The good news yesterday was that my friends arrived safetly on holiday and i have a little friend whos moved in with me ..lol

Shes made a little nest right about my bedroom window and is singing in contentment, im glad she came, its made me smile this morning..

So ive added her to my list of breakfasts i have to provide so her and mr stork will get fed first, after all they are the only ones who ever get up as early as i do..lol

I have sandra with me today who always manages to make me smile all day, and my grandparents, so it will be a lovely day today........

Ill let you all know how my day goes, and hope you all have a great day too...

day flew

Im glad to have got yesterday out of the way....

It was certainly a hard day all round, but done now thankfully...

It could have been worse and could have been better, so at least its all settled and now i can move on...

Today I'm having half day i have some sewing that i want to finish and my friend is coming round tonight so it should be a real giggle....

Our friends popped in yesterday, on their way to the airport, so well be thinking of them today getting on that plane...

My partners decided we need a break so were going in June as planned, i know exactly where i want to go,it all roman style with columns in the pool, its been in my head for months so I'm gonna finish the site this week and book.....

I'm off to Nottinghill this week to see Lana, so it should be good fun...

especially if the weather stays as beautiful as this........