Birds are calling

Its been a really fun week the buzz is waking up my head and im now thankfully coming back to life...

today i get to feel the wind through my hair ...

Were out today on a photo shoot ... im excited and rearing to go ...

I have so many beautiful things to try and am out in the woods at one with nature..

I dont work well being shut in, i need to feel that breeze and have my sense of freedom with me...

Ive got myself tanned and im thankfully so much more happy inside, so my fella was right .....

its not the figure that makes you sexy....

Its whats inside that shines through ...

Mis-teeq Ladies

Ive been going through some of my patterns today and its made such fantastic day ...

Id forgotten so much of the exciting stuff that happened...

This photo was when i took some of my designs for the mis-teeq ladies ...

We got to watch the concert too and half way through Scandalous the girls shouted out 'a big thanks to Joanne'

I very nearly fell off the lighting podium in shock ....

The song i always will love and was my favourite, we had a such a giggle with the girls ...

They gave us a day to remember ............

Mis-Teeq (Scandalous)

They helped me when i first started designing, always did want to make that dress ...

Cant Nobody

I have got to make up this outfit ... im totally in love with it .......

On the beach

We had a night out last night ....

With a difference ...

Neither of us fancied anything noisy so we decided to just go for a long walk ..

I have to say, it was an amazing night ......

we ended up at the beach under the stars ...

It was wonderful the stars were out in full force ...

Watching the clouds clear you could see the sand light up when the moon shone through, creating a really warm welcoming feeling........

Listening to the waves break softly washed away any other thoughts except then and that moment, and to our delight we watched a huge shooting star perform its last spectacular display which just added a magical feeling, it was as if they knew ......

Through all the stress and everyday life, we tend to forget that its the things that cost nothing that really can give the most back .....

and last night proved that , we came away with smiles nearly as big as the moon, and left all the troubles to wash away with the tide ......

There we layed on a deserted beach, with our picnic drinking in life ..........

What better way to feel good could there be, than being high on lifes wonderful pleasures...

Blood is thicker

Today has been a much more positive day ..........

I had a positive talk with my partner who's now thankfully agreed that i should go back to kickboxing ........ yes

And tonight we are having a well earned night out ......... bliss

We've spent a day today doing all those little jobs that never get finished and finally my head is starting to lighten ......

We've had a really strange week, things have happened this end that we didn't expect to and its kinda knocked us both off the line a bit ...

They are personal things to him so i cant say too much, all i can say is he has another son who he had when he was very young, who decided he wanted to see his dad, hes now 15 .....

Its a hard one for them both and all i can do is offer my support and hope it will build up the bond that was sadly broken, we all have to remember the kids feel it the most and by using them as pawns between mother and father hurts and unsettles them so much inside ...

I'm really glad he decided to get in touch, he needs support from his dad and the chance to get to know each other.........

So ill do everything i can to make sure he feels welcome here and to help them both ....I'm really proud of the way they both dealt with it and their positive manners towards it all...

I hope they can both gain from getting to know each other again and rebuild a strong wonderful lasting relationship ...

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Well its been quite a week .....

Things are slowly getting in order this end ..

Although to be honest i didn't really know where to start..

I seemed to be needed everywhere at the same time and have been trying to half myself .. lol

Ive somehow managed to delete a whole blog where i used to go to clear my head, i can remember seeing the word settings but i clicked the wrong one and deleted the lot ...

I'm not sure yet if i can find the enthusiasm to re-do it yet so I'll have to save those thoughts for my drives in my car and hope the wind blows them away... lol

The kids have been sick one by one ... its been an endless routine of running and up and down stairs with drinks and yesterday they lovingly passed it on to me so Ive spent the night being violently sick but thankfully today we are just about all getting back to feeling better...

My samples have all been arriving all week, but my tummy was so swelled up i couldn't do the photos .. lol ....

Its got something to do with not eating well or looking after myself so Ive been asked by a few family members to take a few hours off and look after me (i will as soon as my little ones are all well lol) so hopefully next week ill be able to tan up and get myself feeling a little better and stick to my gluten free diet not eat crackers as im too tired to cook .......

I have a beautiful design room now and somewhere to go when i need to sew in the silly hours of the night so I'm really happy with that, but its hard to be creative when you feel so tired this week ...

Anyway i did actually sit in front of a TV last night which is rare for me but Troy was on so i was glued to Brad and Davids torso's all night quite contently smiling to myself ..... so it made a pleasant change (Ive only seen it a few times and may have missed something) .....lol

I don't know if its the bad boy i like or the good guy now as i think they are both so sexy , I'm actually starting to favour Hector now ..... mmmm

Ive had my grandparents visit today which was lovely, its always nice to be with them as they seem to know how I'm feeling without the needs for words (which is just how i like it) and i got a huge hug from my grandad which isn't like him so he obviously knows whats inside ....

The last month has been so hard ... its like trying to swim upstream with the current against you ... but I'm taking deep breaths, getting my head down and not looking back ..........

My fella is happy, he disappears early and gets home whenever hes had enough, I'm enjoying hearing about his day and seeing him smiling inside out, i look forward to seeing him every night so its working well ....

Ive worked out so much stuff that was in my head and found the answers, but one thing Ive learnt is that no matter what comes and goes in my life...I will keep looking for the positives....

As long as I'm loved ..... I'm lucky ........ as long as I'm busy .... I'm needed .......

As much as I'm tired ..... I'll never be tired of looking at the sunrise ......

Bad Girls

I had a great conversation today with my friend on what makes a bad girl and its got me thinking....lol

Take Angelina Jolie for instance for me shes the sexiest woman on the planet, not just because of those lips and perfectly created face but her whole essence of being a woman her manner ...mmmmmm

She oozes sex appeal and shines...........she knows what she wants and goes for it, to some people its wrong and she was seen as the marriage wrecker by many who all favoured the girl next door Jennifer, but.......

It takes two to tango, and Brads a grown man (and sexy as hell), do you spend the rest of your natural life with someone who you love but are not in love with or move on and follow your soul to feel alive and live your life to its full ....... mmmmmmm

This lady is a powerful female and knows what she has but its also her whole mannerism, her confidence, i don't see her as a femme fatale, i see her as a strong woman who doesn't care what society says she goes her own way in life, being different by being herself and enjoys being a woman.....

She has her own values and does her bit for society in many ways so why is she labelled a bad girl, for a few tattoos and a wind in her hair outlook ......

What guy or girl on the planet wouldn't want a night with such a woman, i know i would .... lol... if shes as free spirited in her sexual manner as she is in life, brads a very lucky man ........

Then there is poor Britney, shes ridiculed by the press for being the good catholic kitten turned into the cat... then smeared all over the press every time she has a bad day..... don't we all get them, some days when you have more important things to do or feeling stressed we put ourselves on the back burner, and forget there may be the paparazzi outside waiting to catch you emptying the bin......lol....give her a break... she gets hurt and used like the rest of us and in life we learn by our mistakes........

Most of Britney's problems stem from the fact that shes been used so much, the fame has brought with it a burden, men and hangers on, who is a genuine friend to her and are they friends to gain something other than friendship ..... who does she trust........ shes still so young........

She married a true bad boy who then proceeded to tum his head at everything female in sight except his wife ....... its all a matter of confidence, and shes had the stuffing knocked out of hers that's why i believe Paris Hilton is good for her,(no not for the no knickers bit) but that fact Paris doesn't care less about what anyone thinks about her and does opposite to what shes pushed to do ......... good on ya... lol

she has the wealth, a strong Independence, and huge sex appeal and simply enjoys her, every days a party lifestyle........ who are we to judge, i don't ...... and if you are one of those judgers why ? is it that it really does show up how boring your own lives really are ........

Society tries to calm them down to fit their own needs ...

A bad girl Ive worked out is a woman who's Good at it ...

Shes free spirited a true independent woman, showing off her sensuality and not afraid of feeling alive and taking risks ........ lives life for the moment ...............

She'll be the one smiling when she gets to her armchair memories........

as you have only one life to live........

Good girls go to heaven ...........Bad girls get everywhere ........ lol

Britney Spears

Ive just been reading about poor Britney and its made me so angry........


Shes shaved off all her hair and is so close to a breakdown the press want to just push that little bit more harder to make sure she does......



Shes a classic tale of what society can do to a person , a bloke who just wanted a trophy to call his wife. he probably didnt want her in the first place it was just to see if he could ......

Friends that are only friends because of who she is, as if the girl had a true friend she would be standing by her now and helping her ... so where is he/she ?

Shes saying she doesnt want to be touched, pulled about or used anymore......... i can really relate to that ......... so why doesnt someone help her .........

I feel so sorry for her, shes so young and is a very talented girl, who society is destroying bit by bit ........

Money doesnt buy happiness, and the only reason people want to see her fall is as she has money and a gift, they forget shes worked damn hard to get there, and dedicated all her life to it ......

The poor girl needs help ......... not to be hounded ........ what gives us the right ?

The way up isnt the hard part............. its the staying there that needs true grit............

I wish her all the best, and hope she finds her peace ............

12 signs of the zodiac - your weekly horoscope

Zodiac star signs...
week Beginning 02 10 2007







ARIES (Mar. 21- April 20)
Your questions will help you ferret out secret information. You don't owe anyone an explanation. Do your own thing, you need time to yourself. Make any necessary changes to your insurance policy. Rely on the one you love for support and affection.

Your lucky day this week will be Thursday.

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TAURUS (Apr. 21- may 21)
Get involved in activities that will bring you knowledge about foreign lands, philosophies, or cultures. Don't be too quick to respond to a plea for help. Your concern with older family members and those less fortunate than yourself will only add to your attractiveness. You can't make things better if you don't know what to fix.

Your lucky day this week will be Saturday.








GEMINI (May 22-June 21)
You can meet a new romantic partner or secure the love connection you already have by going out and entertaining yourself. You will get out of shape easily if you don't keep on top of things. Be careful while traveling. You will have excellent ideas and you should be able to help your partner get ahead.

Your lucky day this week will be Wednesday.







CANCER (June 22-July 22)
Stomach problems could prevail if you haven't been watching your diet. Children's needs could be more costly than you anticipated. If you put your mind to it, you could entertain or host a multitude of social events. Don't make large purchases unless you have discussed your choices with your mate.

Your lucky day this week will be Wednesday.









LEO (July 23-Aug 22)
Overindulgence will mean poor health. Money may slip through your fingers. Emotional upset may prevail on the domestic scene if you have neglected your duties or your mate. You may want to sign up for courses that will encourage you to have more confidence in yourself.

Your lucky day this week will be Friday.








VIRGO (Aug. 23 -Sept. 23)
Your charm will attract members of the opposite sex. Involvement in financial schemes will be followed by losses. Take time to find out all you can. Your compassion will be appreciated more than you can imagine.

Your lucky day this week will be Friday.









LIBRA (Sept. 24 -Oct. 23)
In-laws may cause difficulties. Travel should be considered. Try to ease any disappointment by making amends. Your home environment may be volatile if precautions aren't taken. Major job changes or opportunities to get ahead professionally are apparent.

Your lucky day this week will be Thursday.








SCORPIO (Oct. 24 - Nov. 22)
Be tolerant, but don't let any one take you for granted. A romantic dinner, followed by a quiet evening with the one who is enticing you, should be most satisfying. Property deals will pay big dividends. You will be erratic and quite likely to make personal mistakes.

Your lucky day this week will be Sunday.








SAGITTARIUS (Nov. 23 -Dec. 21)
You've been hurt before and could be again if you play hard to get. Disputes on the home front may be hard to avoid. Spend a day with the one you love. Equilibrium in your romantic life is likely if you treat a loved one well.

Your lucky day this week will be Wednesday.







CAPRICORN (Dec 22.- Jan. 20)
Get involved in volunteer work that will bring you satisfaction, not an empty wallet. Catch up on your reading and correspondence. Your dramatic nature may be too much to handle. You're eager to learn.

Your lucky day this week will be Sunday.








AQUARIUS (Jan. 21 -Feb. 19)
Don't let your personal problems interfere with your professional responsibilities. You won't be able to keep a secret. Trips will be enjoyable, and communication with your lover will clear up any misconceptions. You may be overly emotional when dealing with your mate.

Your lucky day this week will be Monday.









PISCES (Feb. 20-Mar. 20)
Get involved in activities that will bring you knowledge about foreign land, philosophies, or cultures. Your partner could make you angry if they steal your thunder or embarrass you in front of others. Traffic will be busier than you anticipated, so try to get a head start if you have made plans to travel. Avoid lending money or belongings to friends.

Your lucky day this week will be Saturday.

Dont take him shopping

Proof of what can happen if a wife or girlfriend drags her husband or boyfriend along shopping.

This letter was recently sent by Tesco’s Head Office to a customer in Oxford

Dear Mrs. Murray,
While we thank you for your valued custom and use of the Tesco Loyalty Card, the Manager of our store in Banbury is considering banning you and your family from shopping with us, unless your husband stops his antics.
Below is a list of offences over the past few months all verified by our surveillance cameras

1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people’s trolleys when they weren’t looking.
2. July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals.
3. July 7: Made a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to feminine products aisle.
4. July 19: Walked up to an employee and told her in an official tone, “Code 3″ in housewares….. and watched what happened.
5. August 14: Moved a ‘CAUTION - WET FLOOR’ sign to a carpeted area.
6. September 15: Set up a tent in the outdoor clothing department and told shoppers he’d invite them in if they would bring sausages and a Calor gas stove.
7. September 23: When the Deputy Manager asked if she could help him, he began to cry and asked, “Why can’t you people just leave me alone?”
8. October 4: Looked right into the security camera; used it as a mirror, picked his nose, and ate it.
9. November 10: While appearing to be choosing kitchen> >knives in the Housewares aisle asked an assistant if he knew where the antidepressants were.
10. December 3: Darted around the store suspiciously, loudly humming the “Mission Impossible” theme.
11. December 6: In the kitchenware aisle, practised the “Madonna look” using different size funnels.
12. December 18: Hid in a clothing rack and when people browsed, yelled “PICK ME!” “PICK ME!”
13. December 21: When an announcement came over the loud speaker, assumed the foetal position and screamed “NO! NO! It’s those voices again.”
And; last, but not least:
14. December 23: Went into a fitting room, shut the door, waited a while; then yelled, very loudly, “There is no toilet paper in here.” Yours sincerely,
Charles Brown
Store Manager

Coming back to Life

Had a really good night last night .... and it was very much appreciated ...

after my neck was permanently looking up at a ceiling with a paintbrush or down at my laptop i decided to take a night off and relax...

i feel so much more peaceful this morning, and the workload has finally eased up...

that's the trouble with what i do, nobody else can do the designing for you, my samples are all arriving Monday so my hard work hopefully will materialise ..........

its just struck me (as my favourite DJ's just said on the radio) its Valentines day Wednesday and i had completely forgot.....oops

I try to shy away from things like this, and I'm not one for roses as i cant bare watching them die...

I can remember my mother (although she didn't know i knew) used to leave an Orchid or Lilly on the doorstep with a little ? note as we hit our teenage years lol bless, she never thought to cover up her handwriting ....

but the few men i have dated weren't the type that buy flowers, more like pinch them from someones garden (or my own lol) so what you never got you never expect .......

so its probably why i am the way i am , unromantic in public ........unless I'm on alcohol of course .. ....... then I'll blame that.... lol

Its in there but history proves itself time and time again with me showing emotions ....

so Valentines I'll leave to others who are much better equipped for a public show of affection , and make sure I'm working lol .........

This is the first morning this week Ive woke up feeling fresh and happy all week, so I'm hoping I'm on the mend now, if my mind is stressed it messes with my well being and that's exactly whats been happening..........

Ive finally finished the workload so ill be able to spend a bit more time now giggling and creating, and get back what the stress had taken away ..........

......... me ...........

sun on my face

Was surfing the net on my usual weekly journey, and came across this...

its where i hope to be in may/june and why im working totally unsociable hours...

ive been putting in some music as its kept me going as i listen while i type so please excuse my bad taste...lol

some of the songs remind me of my past and my journey and some are happy ones from todays chart...

but they have done the trick and kept me going......

thank god its friday, now i can take a couple of days out and shut my laptop to anything work related....

my partner had his small operation yesterday, so hes walking very wide legged, its been another very hectic week but one step closer to where i would like to be ........

on that beach .........

Take That - Shine

this ones my favourite

Time to smile

Ive had such a beautiful day today.....

worked really hard but totally enjoyed my day too ......

ive done all whats needed for my business and for my spirit ....

and finally found whats missing...

enjoying the freedom to be myself and comfortable with who i am...

ive had a few surprises today and many giggles, it was a brilliant day....

if this is how it can be then the changes were for the better, my partner came back tonight tired but very happy, so for a change hes having a well earned early night ........

ive got a large brandy and am now gonna plonk myself in a long hot bath and listen to some music ....... im in no hurry for today to fly by .......

the lil star track im loving , i just downloaded, so i am gonna be in my element in that tub...

'just keep trying and trying.....

its just a matter of timing.....

sooner or later you'll find it' ...........

its very true what some lyrics say..... someone out there feels how i do .......

were all little stars in our own right, and all shine in wonderfully different ways .........

looking for something that makes us glow inside and feel good about ourselves ..........

today i can honestly say i understand exactly what it means ..........

and im so excited again about tomorrow and what it may bring ........

and if i can make people smile tomorrow as i did today, then im one happy girl ...

life is so serious, but also so short, surely we should to make the most of every moment ..........

im not dead inside nor am i ready to be , im very much alive and kicking, as we all are and feel ....

so if we have to work hard some times, then lets all work hard at enjoying our time .....

its so wonderfully precious ......... it cannot be bought ..... just cherished and enjoyed ..........

before it flies away on the breeze .....