Back To Salsa

Its not often i get a photo of me and my fella together so i thought id post it..
We are like ships in the night at the moment but hopefully by xmas we should meet somewhere in the middle..lol

Thankful

Well its thursday already, the good news is grandads doing really well and is now expected to make a full recovery, hes out of intensive care and day by day is gaining back his strength...

Isnt he one tough cookie, the surgeon cant believe how well hes done, when they opened him up they said it had then started leaking so within 3 hours he wouldnt have been with us, its been a rough week for everyone but we honestly couldnt have wished for better news..

I went and collected my mum from Gatwick Tuesday...lol I had to laugh as she honestly never stopped talking, after about 2 hours i was sound asleep in the front seat and she was apparently still talking away..lol she hasnt changed at all that way, although shes lost so much weight she doesnt look anything like she used to, so we are all going to try and fatten her up a bit, ive been sending down hot meals to my nannies for everyone and with my sisters help we are all trying to help in our own little way.......

This weeks been so busy i havent stopped yet, but its really helped as it gives you plenty to do and passes the time quicker..

Tuesday was also my kids birthday !! yes ive survived 11 years now ! lol The day was as manic as you could imagine but a really good day for everyone, all our family came to see them and a few of our friends also made the day one to remember..

Ive started to feel more like myself again now, thankfully (thats my fellas words) hehe

Im still working round the clock but the finsihing post is finally in sight now so perhaps we can get back into our salsa now and start to enjoy a few of those parties !! lol

Im heading for paris this weekend at some point only for a day or so, so its a week to look forward to... its salsa tonight at the staithe so im grabbing a dress and boots and going to enjoy a vodka and dance with our friends....

You lot better watch out though ive been shut in all week with just a bucket of stress for company and boy do i need to let off some steam.............................lol

Dont say i didnt warn you all.....................lol

See you guys tonight xxx

Update

Grandad went into theatre this morning at 9am and 4 hours later is now in intensive care, he got through that part thankfully, so we are all hoping he carries on fighting now and can only sit and wait...

Hes always been my rock so whatever the outcome, what those guys did this morning in that theatre I am truly thankful for, they have given him the chance now...

My mum is flying home monday so im going to pick her up and hope we have good news for her to come home to...

Thank you so much to you guys that sent me emails last night, its really helped...

Prayers

I dont know what to do with myself tonight,when loved ones are very ill its so hard to deal with it..

My grandparents mean the world to me, they have supported me, brought me bits of shopping up every week and always been the strength in our family..

My sister just phoned from the hospital tonight in tears, grandad had his scan today as he was rushed into hospital a few days ago in tremendous pain and im afraid its very bad news tonight.

His main artery leading from his heart has an aneurysm in it, the scans showed up its the size of a small grapefruit 4 inches wide and could burst at any moment, the operation is scheduled for very early in the morning but if the situation gets worse they are going to have to risk the operation tonight, the hospital gave him some food at tea time as he has been so sick and lost so much weight they thought it would help build his strength as they hadnt had the results back from todays scan they thought it wasnt urgent and didnt know what was wrong..

The results were rushed through but did take longer than expected , if they had the results an hour earlier they could have taken him straight down to operate there and then.......

My nanny doesn't know the chances of his survival yet, we do.. my sisters now breaking the news to her tonight, all i can imagine is how lost she will feel if he doesn't pull through, they have been married for over 60 years.... the operation is a huge one and hes so weak at the moment the Dr's don't know if he will pull through... It brought back memories tonight when we were given 10% chances of survival of our triplets, they had to fight all the way but they got through one by one, the fact that their great grandad has been part of their life is one of the blessings i am also very thankful for, so tonight im in tears praying he isnt ready to leave us yet...

Mum is ringing me from Tobago tonight in floods of tears, we are trying to get her on the next flight home, but all she keeps saying is she just wants to see her dad alive and give him a hug, and nothing anyone can do tonight can help there, the flight sundays full so mondays the earliest she can come back......... shes so distraught and i don't know what to say to her to help...

All we can hope for is he lasts the night tonight and is given the chance tomorrow to fight for his life.. he wont leave my nanny without a fight, that i am sure of....

So if you're saying a prayer tonight...

Please say one for him ...........

xxx

Dressing up

Hi everyone! My god the weeks flew by again..

I missed my salsa this week which wasn't so good as i went down with a dreaded bad head again but I'm determined to get on top of this work so ill free myself up by Tuesday...

Its not been the quietest week, its the dreaded half term, where us mums have to juggle keeping the kids entertained as well as carry on working, and to be honest the workload hasn't been an easy one, every spare minute Ive had I'm either listing making slashed dresses or hoovering up ! lol

My grandparents are both very poorly at the moment so I'm going to help out next week and redecorate their lounge (grandad pulled off the paper and filled all the holes up) then got ill so its not making them feel so good..

I love decorating so my fellas having the kids for me so i can go and make it look nice, my fella keeps giggling saying I'm multi talented.. lol

I don't agree with him that way, its just I'll have a go at anything so its all been good experience's for me, the more i try the more ill get good at....... hopefully....lol

I am a qualified hairdresser, lifeguard, and tailor and that's about the only things i can do well and enjoy doing..... except when i had the hump with my friend once! I was so annoyed at him when he came round for his hair cut i cut it wonky in a girls style on purpose at the back so he couldn't see what id done, he went down to his local like it.........hehe
god he was angry he had to shave it all off... lol

This week it was Halloween so ive decided it was going to be a good one, every year I'm either not here or working and id promised the kids this year would be different so i kept my promise..

They all had their friends round, i made costumes for them and painted every ones faces, they looked brilliant !i did make the mistake of buying these stupid bags though that give out a spooky laugh every time you open them ! big mistake after an hour i squirted each one with water to shut them up and told the kids the batteries were worn out.........hehe what! they didn't know any difference and 8 of them round my kitchen wasn't good !

I got into the spirit this year too painted my face bright green (with a few cobwebs and spiders thrown in) and had the most amazing black and green wig (which my fella hated) i know now not to go darker, id be dumped in an instance...hehe

I was thoroughly enjoying turning out the hall lights and scaring the kids when they knocked for trick or treat ! they were all giggling and telling others to knock here ( i did buy lots of treats for them) but decided they were going to have to work for them..lol it kinda backfired on me though as when the door went again out i jumped with a hairy hand first and green face, only to see this poor little kid running out of my garden to her mum.........ooops i had to go after her an apologise her mum thought it was hilarious but i did feel bad, i wouldn't let my kids trick or treat unless they were in a group so was surprised she was on her own (i wouldnt have done that bless if i had known) so Ive told her mum next year to drop her at mine so she can go along with our lot, she only lives round the corner and i think i must have given the poor mite nightmares.. I felt so bad...

My fella is being so good to me this week, we've both got lots to do, but hes been cooking night times and buying me flowers! and although we've been a bit like ships in the night lately, once im up to date I'm taking him somewhere nice for the weekend so we can just enjoy some time together, without the work or kids..I'm locking his laptop away... but you cant get a good connection easy in a tent anyway !! lol ...

I know sometimes its not so easy to be modern day parents, but that's how the world seems to work now, if you've got 4 kids its expensive, my lot are really good and don't expect anything they see on the TV, but what i hope to bring them this year isn't something you can buy... sometimes by keeping it real you can create the best memories...

I hope in the next couple of days i can get on top of all this work so next week i can relax a bit more, i want my dancing back badly now,I know Ive only missed a week but the weeks not complete now without it..I really missed you lot.. and my 'hips dont lie track'

I'm on a mission to make this year a better one, I'm prepared to work my bum off to have a break of some kind, our friends have arrived safely in Thailand so although i couldnt go for that length of time a week or two would be wonderful..

I was even thinking of proposing to my fella just so i can get away for a week ! so someone would hopefully step in from my family and help out a bit here..lol
Ive got more chance of winning the lottery i think.......lol

Nah! I like living in sin best anyway...it keeps him on his twinkle toes..lol

I don't know how he puts up with me and my sick sense of humour sometimes....

But he does.......

Thankfully ........

Anyway im shocked at what happened in X Factor ! I cant believe the public put those guys in the bottom 2 !! I love the 5 girls and so wont vote this year as i believe they are all stars..

I was sad Austin went as he had such a good voice.. what is that other guy still doing in there? i cant even remember his name today...he can sing but he definately hasnt got the x factor, more like the 'S' vote...

I love Ruth as shes just so sexy and definately has the sex factor (sorry i meant X) the way she sang 'Purple Rain' gave me goosebumps ! I think shes so passionate, and i love the fact simons hooked too!! hehe

Alexander ' as shes so brilliantly tallented and a great performer as well as singer, shes totally amazing so one of my favourites

Diane - as shes totally unique in her voice and has such a brilliant sense for fashion( shes todays 60s boho chick) And i totally love her style.. I think todays girls will follow this girls dress sense.

Laura as she has such a powerful voice... my hairs stand up on my arms when she sings

And Rachael , although she comes across as cocky sometimes , im wondering its her way of hiding the real her.. im still not sure about her yet,but she has a very powerful great voice , i think they've made her look so hard though...

Anyway saturday nights now are booked (im not going anywhere ) as im hooked ! lol

It makes me giggle as when the programme finishes my lot all start to sing...... lauren believes shes the next celine dion..lol perhaps she is.. who knows what tomorrow may bring eh..

Some peoples dreams actually do come true...

I think thats what drives us all sometimes.........

Have a great day everyone..........