Bright

Im feeling so much better this morning, my hands are warm, i actually feel like my energy's coming back! There's gotta be something in these raw vegetable drinks..Im drinking so much water at the moment and really starting to feel benefits i haven't felt before, I never did drink water, just bloody tea.Even that's changed now I do still drink some but its green tea with honey now, it costs me at least a tenner a week now in honey, even the kids are pinching the stuff...
Im growing so much stuff to eat here, its all still tiny but its coming on well, looking out there this morning i cannot help but smile, im really feeling glad to be alive today.
My fella has been totally brilliant with me, i made the mistake last night of staying up later than anyone here as i was talking to my mum online, i went through to get more water and must have shut the fridge hard as the next thing i knew was steve flying down the stairs looking totally panicked.. he said he heard a thump and thought id hit the deck again..... God if i make that sort of noise when i go down i must have been in trouble..lol
he has now from yesterday gone back to work to try and put back some kind of normality in our life.. he has been making me litres of lemon water to drink in the mornings before he goes to work bless, its like the roles reversed....... He came home last night and took me to wroxham for some chips! The drs are saying to put salt on my food at the moment and up my intake so i enjoyed eating them beside the river.. it was such a beautiful night..
Im aiming NOT to hit the deck anymore and am doing what i should have done 'a long time ago'.. it took something like last week to knock some sense into my head!
looking after that 'Ferrari'(lol..) and giving it the right fuel for a change... vitamins and iron that it doesn't seem to be able make by itself from my food... my coeliac stops me getting any nutrients from food but i can get them from fluids, so its vegetable smoothies and strange drinks in between meals.... Leading up to these attacks i was sick every day for over a month and they couldnt find out why, so that leading up with mums shocking news did tip everyone over the edge.. My heart is not damaged thankfully the hospital results are back in for that so its a big relief, its blood pressure that stopped it not a broken heart.....
Today my daughter has promised to help me with the cleaning (yet to believe it though) as i havent tackled this place in 10 days so im hoping to get 'some' done today and make some bread this afternoon.. im turning quite strange, like hugh from river cottage im wanting to make everything from scratch now and loving the results of growing my own and a simpler lifestyle... Id bloody love to be his next door neighbour... Now thats one place i would move to tomorrow....
Right time to crack on in 1st gear of course.. im not aiming for 5th just yet, just taking this at a slow pace now and seeing what the day unfolds......Id love to go to salsa tonight.. perhaps ill go and watch just to say hi to everyone...

Jack and Jo

Jack and Jo up Redhalls School,

He's usually 'oh so crappy'..

But Jack was good and broke that mould,

So tonight Jos feeling happy...

Goodnight all.............

Sunday

Its sunday, isnt that supposed to be everyones funday? its not mine today..lol

Its the fitness test this morning, im not looking forward to it, but ill go along and see what happens..

Riding was cancelled yesterday, i was so dissapointed, we'd got ready and were driving up the road when the call came, so i kept driving and went and fed the chickens..... they look so much better and seem to have made their home now, but ive allocated a shed for them so they dont sit on my steps anymore and my fellas workmate bench as a new perch (which hes not so impressed about) lol

Lauren loved them and wanted me to bring them home. god my house is mad enough as it is without another 2 dizzy birds running around, i do a good headless chicken impression in the mornings when i cant find the kids shoes....

Anyway the good news is im not going to be joining the gym properly im going back to kickboxing, i found a photo yesterday that sealed my fate as soon as i showed my fella he agreed so ive made the call and start next week...........yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Monday i have an assesment in the pole dancing studio and am going to do an instructors course, so that and dancing will be enough to do whats needed, i can also have fun at the same time in those boots........

Have a great day everyone..........

high Spirited

Its saturday....... ive been riding again with Lauren... its getting better....lol

Ive been driving my fella nuts talking non stop about how much i love riding, so he came with me to watch... im glad he did...

the last time he came i couldnt sit on the horse properly was scared of anything past walking and its nice that he finally got to see why i love it so much...

My daughter is getting less confident as the weeks go on, which is a shame as shes really good, but shes also scared of rise and trott and cantering, I worked the reverse, i was a bit scared at first but not now..

Im really enjoying the thrill of it all, so dont want to get off...

Zorrel is now my named horse which im really happy about, i love him and he always nuzzles into my boobs when i finish the lesson,(thats where i keep the polos..lol)

I must have impressed my partner anyway as hes going to buy me a hat and gloves now.. yipeeeee

I kitted my daughter out, but never sadly got round to getting myself anything..

Im posting todays photos, which my fella took, my hat as you can see is still the old army cast off (and i dont care) but as you can see what i lack in the hat department i make up for with the smile........

My daughters on Ebony the black pony.......

But today i was cantering round on my own, i didnt fall and it felt amazing, its like riding a wave and just came naturally.... and i havent stopped talking since..........lol

I hope you enjoy the pictures, theres no make up no frills and no decent hat....lol

The last photo i havent got a head either...lol (i dont think he likes the hat much) hehe

but as i dont really care what it looks like, im happy for you all to see me at my worse.......

.......... but totally feeling my best ........

Thanks to this beautiful creature ........