Hands tied

Tonight im really struggling...

Im tired hungry and way over worked, ive been sitting here today since 4am like a fruitcake whos lost a few nuts along the way, and the day now feels like a month..

i was looking forward to some food as i was promised if i worked hed cook ! hmmm i wont mention anymore there except im still hungry, like i was last night, and as you can tell now getting slighly ratty in temperment...lol

Ive somehow managed to get through today with the kids all summoning me every 2 mins for drinks sympathy and just to make me walk up and down the stairs as much as possible, well thats what it feels like today... (1 headache 1 badlybruised leg, 2 coughs and colds not to mention sore throats bless) amazing they still managed to all jump up when the icecream van called though...

My partner is now working weekends so its not much fun this end, the only time i can get free of work hes now gonna be working so ill get to enjoy my day off now looking after the kids single handedly..lol how nice ........

Its probably a silly thing to do but i am working round the clock trying to get the shops looking nice, in the hope i can then get a few days off, to move back on to my machines again, at least thats work i enjoy doing so its something i really look forward to...

Ive been trying to motivate myself today with thoughts that it wont always be like this, its just at the moment things are happening so i have to work while the works going good...

But after a few very tired jibes at my fella who finally came home ..lol , ive decided i need to go to bed now ...

Im tired as hell, have lost my voice completely, and am throwing in the towel , i have to be up at 4 and do this all again, so at least hopefully i will feel fresh tomorrow even if the work isnt ..lol

I need my oasis and my candles back so the harder i work the closer they get..

now thats something worth working for .....

Gifts

Its amazing how some special people and places can make your spirit soar...

We spent a special weekend with friends we havent seen in a while...

And it was just like we have never been away, it isnt until you lose something you realise how much you need it, and i think we all understand that now ...

Our spirits lifted the moment we stepped into the room ...

and although ive tried to throw myself into work in hope the sadness would dissappear, it melted away the moment they threw their arms around us...

Friends make you feel special, in a way noone else can, and some things are understood and forgiven without the need for words ...

Its the future that fills us with hope ... taking with us those special times weve experience along with way..

As the friendship grows....we all gain strength from each other ...

Some things money can never buy, a true gift thats priceless ...

Its a friendship worth everything i own, everything i could give ...

And makes me everything I am ....

love u guys xxx

Born To Try

she says it all

Morning Glory

After a wonderful morning shower i now feel ready to start the day .....

What a beautiful day, its still a bit chilly but at least the suns shining this morning...

The weeks are flying by and those warmer days are getting closer...

Weve decided this summer we are gonna do some different things, things we like to do ...

So im really looking forward to spring really setting in...

Its a time for new beginings, seeds to come into blossom, and mother nature to show us what beauty she has instore ....

We have some exciting things just round the corner and im really feeling positive about this year...

As one chapter closes another did open, just as i hoped and i plan to make the most of every special moment that comes my way...

Our holiday is drawing closer, and the thought of living carefree with sand in my toes for a couple of weeks, is really pushing me to be the best i can ...

Its amazing how different the world looks when you can feel that sun on your face, everythings brighter fresh and shining ....

The birds are singing away loudly this morning, they never fail to inspire my thoughts, if they can still sing flying against the wind then so can i ..........

cold cash

We are going to make the most of the sunshine today as I'm told its getting colder, so were hitting the beach ...


We are taking my friend today as she will help me get everything ready so i can finish what i started yesterday...


I'm thinking about Paris now and getting really excited, its one place i love, everybody is really friendly and the atmosphere is wonderful, not to mention my favourite little cafe where we sit and watch the buzz go by...


Yesterday my nan arrived with my shopping bits she helps me every week but this week she was upset....


She had somehow managed to leave her handbag hanging on the trolley and when she went back to get it someone had taken it....


She was in a terrible way,sentimental things were in the bag, not to mention her cash, Ive never seen her cry and me and my sister were struggling to watch it ....


They do so much for others yet some toe rag couldn't be honest and hand it in, that the trouble with society now, it seems most are all out for themselves and don't give a hoot for anyone else...


I always believe what goes around comes around .... so hopefully justice will prevail ....


The more i see how greed changes people into cold self centred people the more i want the simple things... I'm grateful for everything i have love, my family and my respect of others ...


You can keep the cash.... Ive seen first hand what it does to people, and its ugly ...


How anyone could spend a pensioners savings without shame is beyond me ..........


Todays Society missed out on manners and kindness ......

Girl talk

Today im taking my top off (my car!) and going for a spin ...........

I am so excited Tescos has never looked so good ....

The sun is shining im singing away and my fella is away for the day ........

Im gonna have a giggle with the girls today .... lol

U2

Wow what a beautiful day ...

I think Ive picked the wrong day to decorate ..lol

Been thinking about stuff id like to do this summer and one thing keeps coming back to me ....

I'd love to go horse riding,

Ive always loved horses but haven't been on one since i was very young, so that's on my this years goals ...

Id love to go on a holiday where we get to sleep outdoors by a blazing fire, ride on horseback and shower outside under the stars.........lol

Oh well ! we never know what the future holds do we, so ill just keep wishing ....

Enjoy your day everyone, its too beautiful to waste ...........

Spinning around

Some of the best things come in small packages ..

The hotpants cost just 50p on a flea market but her look is priceless.....

She oozes sex appeal and glows .........

Its not what you've got its how you use it ..

so they say ....

And boy isnt that true .....

This morning my heads definately spinning around ...... lol

The weekends here ............ bring it on ....

Gravity of Love

I was gonna write a blog while i wait for the kids to go to bed.....

but i really need to get off this laptop now while i still have rude thoughts running riot and enjoy the night ....

So i am gonna grab a bath surrounded by candles a large brandy and put something sexy on .....

Enigma .......... lol

Well i wont be needing clothes for what i have in mind .....

You know what they say about burning the candle at both ends ...lol

Always a dancer

lol.... I must be feeling better....

Youve read part one .....

Just wait til you read part 2 ...

coming soon.........lol

Beach bums

Today were off to the beach ......yipeeeeeee

Ive done whats needed for the website and the dresses are all ready and photographed...

So today i get to photo all the the other things now on the beach...

Ive been looking forward to this part as i dont look on it as working, its more like enjoying the day and making it useful at the same time...

Ive prepared a picnic my brandy's in the flask and im excited ...

Today i have my sister coming in to help me out a bit, all this works left my home looking totally disorganised, so shes spending a day putting it right for me, bless, i dont know what id do without her.... shes always there, she really is my rock ....

My fella this week has been incredible, hes kept my spirits up and as i was ironing away last night at 3am getting kids clothes in order he sat here telling me jokes half asleep forgetting the punch lines ...

Tonight we are having a night off, ive just got to keep going til friday thats when it will all be loaded in the site and we can get back to normal ...

3 more days to go ..... im nearly there ...

Roll on the weekend .....

Im in my element this end, today i made up some looks which are all a little bit different...

I can honestly say im feeling better inside than ive felt in a while......

So im hoping the designs will get better too and grow with me .....

New life

Weve had a brilliant weekend, everybody feels so good today ...

What a brilliant start to the week ......

Ive managed to get photoed all the dresses for my new range so im very happy ..

Its not til you see your work all together that you realise what youve achieved...

My design room is looking more and more homely everyday and im loving being there .....

The patterns are flowing freely and im smiling away as i work .......

The sun is shining away through my window this morning so im gonna get the computer work done and get myself back up there ....

This week i have the beach coming and 2 nights out ive really been looking forward to ....

The blossom is out on the trees and everything is finally breathing new life, i love the spring its my favourite part of the season everythings coming back to life............

This winters been a harsh one, but i feel so optimistic now, its my time soon , its getting closer ....

My time to shine .......

Tina Arena - Chains

She is so tallented, i love the song and the video ..
she sings with so much passion ...

Birds are calling

Its been a really fun week the buzz is waking up my head and im now thankfully coming back to life...

today i get to feel the wind through my hair ...

Were out today on a photo shoot ... im excited and rearing to go ...

I have so many beautiful things to try and am out in the woods at one with nature..

I dont work well being shut in, i need to feel that breeze and have my sense of freedom with me...

Ive got myself tanned and im thankfully so much more happy inside, so my fella was right .....

its not the figure that makes you sexy....

Its whats inside that shines through ...

Mis-teeq Ladies

Ive been going through some of my patterns today and its made such fantastic day ...

Id forgotten so much of the exciting stuff that happened...

This photo was when i took some of my designs for the mis-teeq ladies ...

We got to watch the concert too and half way through Scandalous the girls shouted out 'a big thanks to Joanne'

I very nearly fell off the lighting podium in shock ....

The song i always will love and was my favourite, we had a such a giggle with the girls ...

They gave us a day to remember ............

Mis-Teeq (Scandalous)

They helped me when i first started designing, always did want to make that dress ...

Cant Nobody

I have got to make up this outfit ... im totally in love with it .......

On the beach

We had a night out last night ....

With a difference ...

Neither of us fancied anything noisy so we decided to just go for a long walk ..

I have to say, it was an amazing night ......

we ended up at the beach under the stars ...

It was wonderful the stars were out in full force ...

Watching the clouds clear you could see the sand light up when the moon shone through, creating a really warm welcoming feeling........

Listening to the waves break softly washed away any other thoughts except then and that moment, and to our delight we watched a huge shooting star perform its last spectacular display which just added a magical feeling, it was as if they knew ......

Through all the stress and everyday life, we tend to forget that its the things that cost nothing that really can give the most back .....

and last night proved that , we came away with smiles nearly as big as the moon, and left all the troubles to wash away with the tide ......

There we layed on a deserted beach, with our picnic drinking in life ..........

What better way to feel good could there be, than being high on lifes wonderful pleasures...

Blood is thicker

Today has been a much more positive day ..........

I had a positive talk with my partner who's now thankfully agreed that i should go back to kickboxing ........ yes

And tonight we are having a well earned night out ......... bliss

We've spent a day today doing all those little jobs that never get finished and finally my head is starting to lighten ......

We've had a really strange week, things have happened this end that we didn't expect to and its kinda knocked us both off the line a bit ...

They are personal things to him so i cant say too much, all i can say is he has another son who he had when he was very young, who decided he wanted to see his dad, hes now 15 .....

Its a hard one for them both and all i can do is offer my support and hope it will build up the bond that was sadly broken, we all have to remember the kids feel it the most and by using them as pawns between mother and father hurts and unsettles them so much inside ...

I'm really glad he decided to get in touch, he needs support from his dad and the chance to get to know each other.........

So ill do everything i can to make sure he feels welcome here and to help them both ....I'm really proud of the way they both dealt with it and their positive manners towards it all...

I hope they can both gain from getting to know each other again and rebuild a strong wonderful lasting relationship ...